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4d · 14
End of me
Andrew 4d
It’s raining so hard it hurts my face the wind so powerful it makes me shake, walking in the streets feeling like apart of me passed away. I don’t want to see the end of the day. My money has no value I give it away. The tool for experiences but it’s too late. One thing in common. It’s forever me, we’ll both continue to hate.
You ever walk the streets alone at night?
6d · 145
Truth be told
Andrew 6d
I love myself too much to hate you, to carry that energy to carry that attitude. Makes my soul cold. Revenge with happiness. That won’t be happiness that would be revenge and in the end. What’s even the point in revenge. My heart is warm, my heart is true just because you pull your strings and let the monsters break through. Will not change that my heart and soul is the strongest you will ever know. With time you’ll soon learn to know.
My head has been doing back flips the past few weeks and I got to a very dark place with depression and angry. I was suicidal for a long time and my family found out after an attempt, they got me help and got me medication. Strange thing about them is that it just makes that voice that speaks sense in the middle of all the confusion and panic speak louder and soon enough I found that I could find myself again and be me. Not by any means has it made me happy. It just makes it easier to detach from things when they start running around my brain. Little blue tablets made me sane
Aug 29 · 12
Broken
Andrew Aug 29
If it’s broke I’ll break it more and make sure I’m left with no hope, hope is what drives me insane plays with all the chemicals in my brain, it can drive a strong man insane. Nothing personal on you, just I’m sick of hoping for the brighter days.
If you ever read it, please believe it
Aug 7 · 42
For Emilia
Andrew Aug 7
For Emilia
You have a heart of gold, ignore anything you ever get told. My love for you will never grow old. You need your time and that is fine. I hope our paths meet somewhere down the line. But until that time.I hope you are well and doing just fine, I’m really glad I got to hold apart of your heart and I’m glad you held onto mine... sleep well darling goodnight x
Wrote this when me and my ex girlfriend broke up incase she got upset, I look at it now and think how stupid can I be but i also think about how much worth I actually have to write that for an ex to make her smile
Jul 15 · 22
Missing you
Andrew Jul 15
It’s not just the conversation I miss, for me there’s something deeper that, I can’t explain. It’s just rattling around in my brain. Used to drive me insane and played with my brain. There was just something about seeing your name, even when we were causing each other pain. Nobody was to blame I guess that’s why it’s a shame. I always wonder if we started again would things just turn out the same. Or would be what it felt like it was supposed to be.
Jul 14 · 86
Stroke
Andrew Jul 14
Seeing the man that was holding my hand when I was young and helpless. With the blank face. an expression that I can see from miles away. Unable to speak and weak. I have to watch you go alone. Be strong.
When I was young my mam had a stroke and it was my grandad that was holding my hand as I watched her get taken away. Today I woke up watching him getting taken away for the same reason. The expression that comes on a person face when they have a stroke haunts me and I noticed it before anyone even told me what was going on
Jul 14 · 24
Paintbrush
Andrew Jul 14
My family going crazy my head squeezing so so tight, wanting to blow my brains out. I want to end it, tonight. Sick of the world and sick of all it’s *****. Then a glisten in the seat. Your paintbrush watching me. Did you plant it there or was it a mistake. Made me break to pieces seeing it shine in the light. If only you could see how bad life is beating me.
Did you leave your things in my car on purpose?
Jul 7 · 27
Message
Andrew Jul 7
I don’t get that urge to pick up my phone when I hear it buzz, I don’t get that smile on my face when I see a name. mostly it’s just something stupid or lame. I don’t believe that I’ll ever see your name again, it doesn’t cause pain, only shame. because I made deal with my leaky brain. There’s only that part of me to blame. It’s is a shame but who knows maybe you’ll message again.
Better be smiling :)
Jul 6 · 218
Another reason to live
Andrew Jul 6
A promise to stay safe a promise to stay sane, but in reality I could easily blow it all away and make my day. Why did I wait for you turn and wave it drives me insane, the walls in my room stained with the memory of you. It causes so much pain. I feel it night and day. I hate it because you have gone away. I’m just waiting for the day. were you talk to me again.
If you read this I will get you flowers to say thanks, I hope you are doing okay
Jun 12 · 97
Mother I suffer
Andrew Jun 12
I love her but I don’t know if she loves me, my heads in the clouds and things aren’t clear to see. I miss her smile and her laugh, it’s the smallest things that meant the most to me. She’s a special girl and that’s the only thing clear to see. But what about me ?
Life’s a strange thing
Jun 8 · 275
I will wait...
Andrew Jun 8
I will wait for you in the storm and rain, I will wait for you through all of the pain. I will wait for you till you have your brighter days.
Jun 7 · 41
Lonely road
Andrew Jun 7
Watching you walk the lonely road, I know you are strong and I know you will do nothing wrong. I worry still and I always will. It’s hard not to send a text not to say hello but deep down I know that you need to walk the lonely road :(
Don’t give up stupid head
Jun 6 · 55
Teethmarks
Andrew Jun 6
She said give sobriety a chance and
I recoiled at the mere idea
So tell me, are they your teeth marks in your tail?
Cause you look a touch dizzy
Song lyrics- jam Baxter teethmarks
Jun 2 · 48
Bled dry
Andrew Jun 2
no beat of the heart no warmth in my body, cold and lost. Is this the cost to be happy. A broken soul is what I hold. My heads got a lock and key and I’m wandering off with the monsters that follow me.
May 29 · 43
:(
Andrew May 29
:(
The book, has it been written or is it on hold, with each page a memory that we both hold. The glisten in your eye is enough to ignite the spark that you left in my heart. It makes me strong but makes me fall apart. I miss seeing the time and affection in your art, With every line is time and every stroke a goal an inspiration, to anyone that would ever know. My biggest question is, is this a story that we can hold and that can be told when, we grow old.
May 24 · 137
Heartache
Andrew May 24
Absence makes the heart fonder, it burns it hurts makes me want to scream, but is it actually what it seems. Am I the only one that gets hit this hard in the feels.
May 9 · 57
Untitled
Andrew May 9
When I look into them big blue eyes what will I see, that will be a mystery. Will she feel my warmth will she feel the heat that’s no up to me. My gut says yes and I guess the rest will soon be history and that’s what unsettles me.
May 9 · 213
Crying to a cigarette
Andrew May 9
Crying to my cigarette in the night, wish for the bright light. You in my mind you in my dreams I wish life was as easy as it seemed. Moonlight brightening up the night showing me to the world making my toes curl. Pathetic little boy crying in plane sight. That’s me on this on this wonderful night.
Andrew May 7
I want to feel pain. The confusion in my brain is intense. I sit on the wall with my cigarette. Looking into the cheery. Feeling the pain it would cause. The urge to put it out on my hand. The soothing feeling my brain is telling me it would give me. It’s still with me hours after it. wanting to feel that relaxing feeling.

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