Submit your work, meet writers and drop the ads. Become a member
 
Rai Jan 2011
I always remember the man
from the chitti chitti bang bang film
you know the one  
he lured the children out of the
toy makers shop with candy and lollipops
He scared me senceless
With his tall hat
and pointy long noise
I have met a lot of people like him in my life
They tempt you with
Whatever it is they think you want
And then just when they think
You are weak
They catch you in thier trap
I always loved that film
Just as I love my life
Wish i could forget
That man in the tall hat
With the long noise
If I watched it now
He would still make me feel the same
cpy :2011
Rai Oct 2015
Dragon
Mighty and majestic
Souring floating wanting
Spreading your wings across the horizon
Brave and mighty, mystical creature
Rai Oct 2015
Move closer
Slowly
Tracing the sweat from your brow with my fingertip
Inching down your face , along your neckline,
Coming to lay on your shoulder blade
Your shirt all crisp Cotten and smelling of sweet cologne
I will raise my eyes to connect deeper for longer
Moving slowly
Keeping eyes pinned
Lips tremble
I want to devour your mouth
Gently closer now
Feel my warm breath upon your skin
Our lips meet
There may be no return from this moment
As my body sways to your own unique tune
Rai Oct 2014
A moment closer
To all I ever felt I deserved*

**A deserved moment
closer to all I ever felt
Rai Apr 2023
Please forgive me
As the world beckons
I fall into silence
Into the safety of my cocoon
I lay sleeping
Reinventing myself
DNA is mutating
Into
Something more beautiful
Or so my soul tells me
Colours will be my armour
Hues will befriend the darkness in me
And then
And only then
Will I be ready for my soul to fly
Fly like it has never before

Oh how in my slumber
I yearn for the colour
Of tomorrow
Rai May 2012
like icecream
So sweet and yet
So cold
You are melting in moments
Before heaven excapes you
Bliss
To feel
To know
To reason with self
That all the reasons you have chosen are you own
So cold like ice
Touch me
With words
Between sentences
That surely couid never belong to just one soul
Rai Dec 2012
When finally I stood still
Long enough to raise my head from
The level of the pavement
I saw feathers falling
White as snow
A call of angels
Come to.lighten my step
Things are looming
Closer than feels comfortable
The full moon leaves my stomach turning
And my emotions realling downwards
Get ready for a crash landing
But asking for help
Maybe my calls for help
Have been answered
Maybe white feathers have come to comfort
A bleeding heart
Rai Feb 2015
Do you put me away in a box
Just the way you used to tidy away your toys as a child

Did your Mother say ...
One thing at a time
Put away what isn't needed right now


So here I am
Sitting in my box
Waiting

Yep I understand
It would be easier by far if I didn't maybe

You are busy
With responsibilities
Your world becomes smaller
I think when I saw you last just for a moment
I realised how hard you find it all

It is an art
Sharing yourself with more than one person at a time
Sharing your time
I did give a sideways comment on the fact that
if this was a permanent thing
I would never see you
You assured me you would be better at organising things if that was the case

It makes me wonder if that is true

Are you really able to tip all your toys in the middle of the carpet
Are you able to de-compartmentalize your relationships

Or will you pack your toys away tidy at the end of the day

*Would mother still agree that this is such a good way to be?
Does anyone in your life have the same problem .... what does compartmentalization mean to you?
Rai Oct 2014
You hold me so close
Sometimes it takes my breath away
Hold me now and never let go
Some times I fear the future
Because its something we never discuss
Its like a wall that we need to climb
So close and yet
Give me a foot up and Ill look over
I promise you will be the first to know
If I have the guts to tell my truths
Entwined in your arms
You are like the missing piece to my puzzle
I don't think I ever want to stop loving you
There is no escape from this place
Motivation is zero
Movement only takes us closer
Only a promise of tomorrow can break this spell
And so be it
I love hard
And fall harder still
You mesmerise me
Like a feeling of enlightened after a spiritual journey
Sometimes I feel vulnerable  
Not sure where this is leading
But unable to let go
Unwilling to ask questions
of what lies beyond the thoughts that you hold
Warmth lingers
Until tomorrow my lover
I would wait a million tomorrows
If I knew for sure you would be here
One last piece of my puzzle
And I am complete
Rai Nov 2011
Fatalistic attitudes of fanciful weaknesses resides in my mind
And I remember nothing more than a savoured moment
A connection
Which I dont know
I just cant find any more
Ive wandered the rooms of your existence
You spoke of truths which wove in the fabric which belongs to all
And then you turned to leave
It was about this time last year
Im sure you remember
Misted windows
As I breathed too deeply
Felt too much
Wished too hard
I would hope you were happy
But really
I know your not
Happy days begin only
When they are the ones
We decide to choose for ourselves*

Many paths
Many miles
If I loose you here
Then remember
Just remember
To breathe
Rai Mar 2014
They gave me steroids to heal my chest and now
No sleep cometh my way
So I will soak up the hour with soul cleansing writes
There is no time to worry
Work is laid aside unless wellness beacons
Maybe this is the reason
My soul was screaming for a connection  
Connect I will
Rai Jun 2017
It changed
The day you left
I know it was a gradual submission
But it felt so final
We searched under every pebble
Looked within ourselves
Delved into our scar torn hearts
For a reason why you would of left
Not here
Not this place
But us
ALl OF US
Because it wasn't just me
That you shared your worries with
It wasn't just me
That you took into your trust zone
We all became a circle
Inter linked
One and all
Until it crumbled
We still have so much love here
Across ponds and oceans
Desserts and highways
Interconnected
We would still welcome you back with open hearts and open minds
After all
Your tribe is your tribe
Whatever reason they ran
If only to hide from themselves
From thier truths
Or maybe in search of something to fill the void
I love the way that after so long we still remember
And in rememberence it shall be
You turnt our lives upside down
Sticking us together
One strand of friendship
One doff of the hat
One large slice of chocolate cake
And a friendly smile and conversation
At the end of the day
When you aimlessly wander the archives and start remembering how it used to be ..... Brings a tear to your eye and an ache to your heart ... X
Rai May 2013
Conversation has become somewhat stifled
Communication is tiresome
Company of sorts
Disguised as friendship
Hollowness
A void beckoning for fullfillment
Look closely
Who we surround ourselves with
Creates not only thier destiny
But that of your own sweet soul.
Rai Mar 2014
I knew when I woke up this morning
  That I wanted to do something special
I wanted to entice you
  And your taste buds seemed the perfect place to start

I told you dinner would be at 6
  You said
Fine love now I'm going to be late for work
  I have a late meeting but I promise not to be late
See you at six
  Love you

  A new emotion was rising in my stomach
Or was it an old one revisited
  I planned
Not a natural cook
  But I can whip up a good feed when I need to

  I exceeded myself
I knew you would love it
  I wanted to see you smiling back at me
Knowing
  Just knowing Id made this special just for you

  Kids at the cinema
Time to spend
   Together
  Little does that happen now a days

  So I'm sitting here waiting
Contemplating what's more important than this
  Forgetting you don't understand because your not inside my head
  Your not answering the phone
Are you in traffic
  I wait
Then wait some more
  I sit trying to push aside the hurt
The rejection
  I feel like a child inside
I feel vulnerable
  Im quite out of control

  I eat in silence
No smiling face looking back at me
  I just wanted to see the twinkle in your eye

  You come in hours late
  The meal stale and congealing on the plate
  I think you tried to say sorry
But I feel numb inside
  So stay silent

I think I heard you weep
  I didn't want to make you sad
But have no control and don't know how to comfort
  Whilst Im in this hurting zone

  When you fell asleep tonight I kissed your forehead
  I know your busy
  I just need you
I love the very ground that you stand on
And I can feel the cracks steadily forming
This a comeback to Helens poem 'I missed you by several hours' sometimes lack of communication lets us down, people don't know what's going on inside your head unless you tell them, most of us have not learnt how to mind read ... not quite anyway x
Rai Nov 2010
Sinking teeth

Flesh so smooth upon my  touch

creature of the night

beckon forth and love

my wounded heart

blood drips slowly

quickly the fear is replaced

by the wanting

of tyne flesh

I shall now feed

and be whole once more
Rai Oct 2015
Mist rising heavily in ice cold eyes
Darkness falling
Summer surrenders to the call of winter and you
bury your soul amongst fallen leaves and lost lovers
I tier of this game
Hands held high
I recoil and turn inwards
simplistic notions of who I should be
Death of yesterday yesteryear
The realisation that movement is necessary
The completion
The renewal
The end and yet the beginning
Rai Oct 2020
The dark is comforting as it curls around my body.
Shadows linger longer than usual and trying to sleep is given up for writing on walls of this obscure place where no one is seen but many are hiding within sentences.
Giving all their heartbreak and misunderstandings to strangers
Making connections
Like the lost and found
I found something here
But also lost more than I bought
Like fine sand slipping through spindly fingers.
The world looks different since I visited last
So I just want to send love to those who are struggling with demons closed tight in the boxes called home.
If clawing at walls brings no satisfaction
Remember connection
Reach out to the shadows
The corners
The moments
Reach out to your  madness
Make the darkness your friend
Rai Mar 2020
It’s going to be a long dark night
Rai Aug 2015
There was no way out of this
She manoeuvred her body between a stone and a hard place
Picked up her hurting bones
And sighed
Relief ...
Anticipation and fear  running through her veins
How it came to this she couldn't even explain
shivering as a cold chill ran down her spine
Like the stumpy finger of jack frost etching out a delicate and
elaborate design  
Not a night to be out hunting or waiting around
But needs must
The sweet smell of redemption hung tantalizingly on a moment
Time was for surrendering all
Never looking behind
Stepping on stones
There was no way back from now
She turns quickly
A need to hold her breath
has her in a suffocating embrace
A shadow creeping the walls
Beckoning
Lost souls will sell their souls on nights as cold as
snow cover mountains
She breathes in
Closes her eyes and surrenders to the moment
She will awaken only when it is time
No cracks of light lye here
Not even from the broken street lamp
A shiver and a fall from grace*

Be it what you would create with your mind, be she a  ****** waiting for another loveless punter or a stalking blood thirsty vamp  in search of their fill, or maybe the cells  inside her are screaming for a sweet surrender from another corner drug seller .... maybe she is you or I or maybe she is a part of us all
Rai Dec 2015
When all you can do is light a candle and pray
Rai Feb 2016
Sink deeper
Love longer
Hold on tighter
Force fed desire
Projectile your words off all corners
Then cling steadfast
Enduring
Tantalising moments
Without the helpless need to surrender
Then free fall backwards
Downwards
Spiralling staircases
Memours so simply spoken
Crashing onto concrete
Disappearing
Without a trace
Then silence
Surrounding
Every living cell
Breathing
Life source
Lights blinding
Thunder rolling
Halting
Dying
Leaves falling
Comforting
Softness
Hands holding
Remembering
The deeper we travel
The further we go
Surrender
Realise
Be
Rai Dec 2012
Consuming denial
I feel like a ******
But know there is no silent release
From the pain running a riot around my body
A touch
A smile
A meer recognition
Of what you've done
But no
For you
Running in the opposite direction
Not admitting to the truth
Is far easier
She isn't me
She can't ever be me
So when you turn looking
Don't expect to see me smile
But you know
I don't believe for a minute
That this love affair is over
But then I would have to admit
And a ****** is a ******
Whatever the drug
Rai Oct 2011
The coffee cup holds memories of last nights lipstick
Passion and fire
The desire to be wanted more
Clings to the recesses of my heart strings
He left early
Quietly slipping away before the morning
Could bring new arrangments
In an already disorganised life

Shrugging off the mild feeling of rejection
She stretches her arms up high
And breathes in all the goodness that
Is her life

Strange moments when desire meets its destination
How strange that she would not have it any other way

Morning brings rays of sunshine that bounce against the
Prisms that hang around the room inside her heart
The momentary awareness makes her realise
She misses her friends
It is time to catch the train back home

Oh how she loves the feeling of new beginings
Reuniting with who she really is
And who she has become

There are many desire's she harbour's in her bay of understanding
If you allow her to teather her boat
for a while upon your shore
You will smile with the child within her eyes
And she will hold on tight
Whilst she bathes with you
Within an ocean so blue
Rai May 2012
Today I came back to the old poetic grounds
wandering at will
I found myself beside a river bed
There was a old man fishing
The trout was rising high
And he had a smile upon his face
He turned to me
And I knew he knew
Why do tears still roll
I never knew you
I never looked into your eyes
But you gave us a mirror
In which we could look into our own souls
You gave us a river so we could gaze into your heart
You gave wisdom
You gave friendship
You gave so much  
I will wander back now and then
If not to just sit beside your river
And dip my toes
Into my memories of a poet
Who is now dancing with the stars
Rai Nov 2010
Crazy moments*

                           Forgotten within the fabric

                                                    
We interweave stars into our dreamtime*

                                                  Just so we know the truth

                         That lies beyond our disguise

                                                                    We never know

                                                                                         which way

                                                                                and how

                                                              But we know

                                         **We must
Rai Oct 2014
I shake off the feeling of dissatisfaction
The earth  shifts beneath my feet
leaving me once more hanging to a cliff
screaming for submission

Shimmer before the light of the full moon
Midnight is my favourite hour

I shall stalk the very skies in which you lie beneath
if only to catch a glimpse of the sun shining in your eyes
at the beginning of a new day

Awakening  my desire for life
You make me scream silently within my mind
Deafening
I clasp my fist against my ears
willing silence to return
Willing peace to be resorted

Wisps of forgotten emotions lying upon the shore
of my thinking
Writing thoughts in the sand and letting go

What will I do I wonder with my
Thoughts swirling
Memories stirring

The frailty of my  human form
Keeps me crippled
Keeps me dissatisfied within my own skin
Rai Mar 2020
When social distancing becomes the norm
Will you still hold me in your arms
And soothe me with your breath upon my skin
Or will you retreat
A forgetful moment of reconditioning
Rai Nov 2010
I know a lepricorn named Somhairle
He whisles a daft irish song
And I thought I'd name my son after him
thought hed grow up short but god I was wrong

He sings the irish rover while strumming
The rythmn and blues
I told him if he was a good lad
He could pay for me to go on a cruise

He starts a new job next friday
Down at dockerty doos
He cant ****** play violin
But he sure can down lots of the *****
Rai Oct 2015
Tonight I thought I'd try sleeping in the middle of the bed
Somehow I think it's about time
The void
That forbidden space
As though it's waiting for someone to crawl in
An invitation
Warm arms holding on
So no it's gone
Covered by my right leg
I give up
I really can't be bothered anymore
Rai Nov 2010
Do you want me to hold you

in my arms

I thought you might i saw it in your eyes

would you like me to love you

with all of my charms

Your body language says it all

As you wrap me in your arms

Do you want me to stroke away your pain

Devour your desire

Set your world on fire

Would you like me to caress your soul

thoughout the night

We can read each others minds




If so just pm me and i'll be there before midnight



as if ...........get real !
copywrite 2010
Rai Jun 2023
I sat on the fence.
The end of the line.
Loving every inch of your soul.
From the distance you waved.
And for a fraction of a moment
I really thought you saw me.
An eternity passed before me the first time our eyes met
Yet still
You’re over there longing for something that will never be me.
You don’t know me
You don’t feel me
You don’t see me at all.
I watched as all your moments crumbled.
I cried when your heart was broken.
I begged god and his angels when I saw you falling crash landing into oblivion.  
But I do not dream of you on warm summer nights.
In fact I don’t ever dream at all anymore.
Dreams are for those who wander aimlessly through corridors and walk through doors that hold hope on the other side .
On the other side of my door I find angels and demons playing poker at my expense and I catch you from the corner of my mind laughing.
I choose to leave you there knowing my soul will burn for less than this.
Rai Nov 2015
Enough now
Your tears are scorching my face
Enough said
As we distroy the human race
Enough now
As my heart is open wide
Enough said
When I see the child huddled by your side
Enough now
Of this hatred and pain
Enough said
As our families die this way
Enough now
Lay you down to sleep
Enough said
Karma will be a sweet retreat
Rai Oct 2015
Your face is etched with grey
And yet I love the smile you place on your lips at times
Your heart is sketched in silver hues
But I am able to swim the oceans of those deep blue eyes
Skin deep emotion
Leaves you naked to me
I will wrap you in my essence
And hold you close
Rai Mar 2014
Etched within reason
I knew the truth
But decided to ignore it all the same
Don't try to sway my opinion
I'll nod my head
Smile
And move towards the back
Yep your opinion counts
But I'm not interested
It bores me
I'm fundamentally proud
whatever that means
But hey
I watched them plant a willow tunnel in the grounds today
And now I want one
I really, really want one
Smack bang in the middle of my garden
Yes I know I wont have much garden left
But hey I can hide away from the world
The eternal bleeps of life
A poetess and her den
fragmented in her belief that life really is worth living
No really
It really is worth it
But you have to believe in yourself first
Or you just wont get it.
Rai Oct 2015
Threads woven
Into the shimmering fabric of time
When I close my weary eyes
And meditate I am able to
See across the years of the blind
Years that come and go
Hurts becoming nothing more than lessons learnt
Returned soldiers from a ****** battle of wits
Friends reunited but time has taken its toll
The grass is greener when the rain falls
And a spectrum covers the horizon
Oh how blessed we are when we see what is
Right in front of us
Hunger
Becomes irrelevent
Take your fill
There's a source of plenty
But be mindful
Only when we really believe we deserve
Will we receive the bounty
Which is our birth right
Try to remember
In remembering
You will find your home
Rai Nov 2020
It’s a sad truth but
Just
Sometimes
Facebook is all I have
It’s just how it feels in isolation - I’m lucky I’m still working there must be so many feeling disconnected right now x
Rai Apr 2013
Crystals falling
Hues forming
As light reflects on broken windows
Derelict houses
Empty
Lost for words
Naked
The fool may fall to his feet
Face in dirt
Or he may rise higher
Knowing
The air is freasher
And there really is a crock of gold
For the taking
All he needs to do is look within
Once he finds his truth
Breathing will once more
Be something that comes naturally
Rai Jul 2023
Raindrops fall free from the sky like the tears of gods and giants that have long past.
Grieving for a world they would no longer recognise.
May we muster up some emotion or lie deep in gutters created from our own misdeeds.
Bring no man down around your feet,
Your pain is of your own creation and so it shall be.
Tell me ten things today that your grateful for instead of your woes of the world that bore you and took care of you.
No man should be your fool to play like a puppeteer pulling strings.
You think of every next move,
Control is lacking,
So you tighten the strings.
Consequences are the turn side.
You will fall from the skies,
Thrown out of heaven by the very gods that weep for your world.
Your actions speak so loudly that I am deafened.
I will not be,
I can not be,
Your puppet,
Your saviour .
I lye looking into a blue sky
One I created of my own desires.
Gods and giants smile
They know I know.
They leave their home to come sit in meadows.
Together we will have the power to cut the strings.
Puppeteer you will loose your power and your puppets will be left to heal.
Raindrops my friend
Are a message that you must heed.
Rai Aug 2015
You are beautifully etched below my skin line
Every flaw
Every silence felt within my void of emotions
Transparent and naked
Taking a finger you draw my face up to look at the sun that sets
within you
Your eyes are multifaceted and delicious
Like oceans that I want to bathe within
Climbing every wave higher than the last
Breathe taking
thirst quenching
Oh my
I am over my own head here
Whirling between fear and excitement
Lust, love and pain hold me hostage
I am ******* in the fortress of my mind
And I never will care if I am to stay here for eternity
I surrender my power
I breath pure ecstasy and release
In mine minds eye
My muse beckons for beautiful words and a love that is real
So here I have given my all
My everything
When morning comes
The sunrise will be my lover
The swaying grass will stroke my cheek
The warm breeze of summer will caress my silken skin
My heart will be full of another days desire
My life is my love
And my love is my life
I shall create something deep
Something worthy of my self
Every time I give my love to people who can not see my soul and it hurts
Rai May 2017
Did you lay me down on a bed of nails and expect me to surrender my all ?
I felt the waves wash over and they engulfed all that was good
Dragging me down lower than I have ever fallen freely
I wanted a lover
But you entwined your darkness into my light
No one heard the screams
The midnight hour so haunting
A chill lay in place of your heart
You looked straight through me just before you leapt
Head first into oblivion
I just stood motionless for what seemed like a million years
Then I turntable and left
The memory is hollow
But it is memory all the same

I beckon you here
But not so that I can surrender to your will
But so that I can show you the truth in all things good
You may shy away
Hide in those self created shadows of misery
But I will  lay waiting
Just past midnight
The chill and silence deafen my soul
My love I beg
I beg
I'm falling
I'm sitting within your oblivion
Surrounded by creatures not of this world
Demons reign and I fear the fall
I turn
I always turn
You may leap into the hollowness of oblivion
But I fear it's clutches
I fear the hand of love
So turn tail and return
To the moment before midnight
The moment just before
The memory lingers
And the strike of twelve is never heard
Rai Nov 2010
I have no words
Only feelings
My poetess is screaming
Angry
But in understanding
It is time
To say goodbye
A silent tear
No one will
Ever see me cry
Why do i have to always
Feel so much
So deep
Spirit ripped
Connection severed
To a heart already feathered
Now i have found my pain
Again
Must my poetess
Keep singing
The melodies in my mind
To the end of time  
Farewell my friend
T o J.p .....Thankyou always .......stand tall and stay true to your soul
Rai May 2020
Nature pounds her chest
Full pelt
Angry
Frustrated
Vengeful

Beware mighty warriors
We were once not of this earth
And so the earth will rid herself
Of the parasitic infestation that we have become

Such a shame as she rocks us to sleep each night
Our mother screams
She weeps for our redemption
And yet it falls mainly on deaf ears
She still holds us
Scorned children with so much to learn

Her blood will run to stock our fires
And the air will become putrid to her lungs
Trees will bend and forests break
Like  her heart
You can hear it scattering upon the breeze
If you so bother to quieten your mind for a moment to just listen

I SAID LISTEN

I hold her in my heart
As it beats
I feel her as she bleeds
I bleed with her
She is my mother
My Gaia
As the universe is my creator
So too shall he take me from this place

For we do not deserve her

Some will leave in battle
Others in pain
I shall leave her
With sadness
And yet in joy
For now she may have a new beginning

But I would pray
that we could heal her
Hold her
As she has held us
Shield her from harm
As she has
Fed us and watered us
Feed the soul of her
May we rise
Like the sun of a new day
A tribe of warriors
Searching for a new way
A new life
With the safety of Mother at its core
May we rise
May we also have a new beginning
May we rise together
Like the sun
On a new morning

Maybe
Rai Apr 2023
That alone feeling
When you feel that no one in this whole dam world understands you
That’s kind of the flavour of today
And I’ve talked to myself all night and even though I talk back and that’s usually enough
Tonight it’s not enough
*Tonight the shadows are darker
The silence is deafening and I just feel like screaming to be seen
Rai Sep 2013
Fevered brow
Hollowed hearts
Playing cards
Breaking parts
Holding back
Splintered thrones
Singled out
All alone
Throwing stones  
Feeling life
Holding tight
Razor sharp
The dead of night
Feeling sleepy
Time
To leave
Write my heart strings
upon your sleeve
Crimson lips
Your desire
Watch this space
See my fire
Rai Mar 2014
There is a distance which has been crossed
A frown that has been replaced with a smile
And yes
I can honestly say
This time
I will allow myself
To partake in all the love that surrounds me
I will allow myself to be loved
By another
Because
This time I love me
I love my imperfections
Just as you did the first time round  
But this time I'm ready
For raging emotions
For storms and ships that sail away
Not really knowing where they are going
But just knowing for sure
That where ever we come to ground
We will be there together
Rai Aug 2016
On the verge of contentment
And the towers are falling once more
Everyone around me is crazy
And I cling to myself for comfort
But how can I survive
When everything meaningful floats aimlessly
Whirling upwards
Then crashing heavily
Against walls of our own making
Your dreams will come to haunt as well as comfort
I gave up looking for love
Leaving it to fools on verges who love to dispair in the arms of strangers
Who will only tare them apart and devour their souls
But love lies in the blanket of your grandchilds smiles
Love lies restless on the breathes of siblings who need to connect
As you do also and its pulling and suffocating but all so comforting all at the same time
In the eyes of my mother who has fallen head first into oblivion pleaded to me
My mother now the child and the adult that am I
And the question is why do I care so ****** much
I feel as though she is my child that needs wrapping in swadling
Unable to fend or survive alone
This pain and the distance from here to there pulls me apart
Rendering me hopelessly out of control
Anxiety racks my nerves leaving my appetite gone and my fears ablaze
There may be no happy ending here
But there will be a silence
A silence so complete

A silence so serene
Fly
Rai May 2013
Fly
I run my fingertips
Through fields of gold
Touching on the edge of your reasoning

Blue
A moment of sadness
Or the colour of tranquility


Ripping skin
Painful memories
A distance
A time that has slipped away

Single handed perfection
An artist of words
play with fire if you will
for tomorrow
My voice will hold the
Fire of a molitude


If the illusion of life ways you down
Hold fast
For we can never know
When life will deal an ace

Be ready to paint grafitti
Across the sky in the hues of your emotions  

*Let there be time to fly just once before we die
Fly
Rai May 2023
Fly
I wrote a letter
To the wayward girl
The one that used to be me.
I apologised
For letting the wrong people in.
For walking away from opportunities which would have been good for her and just generally not being the best version of who we could have been and become.
I quite like being me most of the time.
It’s the rest of the time
When I don’t quite feel like I belong.
When the world just feels overwhelming.
When I take the smallest rejection as something more.
So I’ll say sorry that she needed to learn how to build walls to protect us.
I’m sorry the foundations weren’t more stable on the rickitty ole life we’ve shared.
But we got here
Wherever here is
And there’s many days left to let the sun shine on our faces and for the breeze to caress all that needs healing within us.
I wrote the letter , then made a paper aeroplane
How far I wonder
Just how far …
Rai Jan 2021
She stepped beyond herself
Exhausted by childhood and the need to conform to the will of others,
How ever loving they may be
Her clipped wings were free to fly in the majesty of life’s roller coaster ride.
Little did she know that wild spirits lurked in the forests glades
Waiting to devour such a sweet innocent girl child soul.
No lesson learnt at desks or at her mother breast had equipped her for this fall.
But to her mother’s arms she fell.
Backwards falling
Tumbling
Needing the womb like safety that only a child in arms knows.
Mother without judgement holds her love in palms journey
Not letting go until tears subside
And reminds young heart
That hearts were not only made for loving,
But also for healing
And so it goes.
When the worlds love  hurts our children, the pain you feel. But the making of a warrior can not not happen by just your hands alone .
Rai Oct 2015
In your fragile world
Even the wings of a butterfly could
manage to sweep you to the ground.

You lie in the dirt
Like a cast off

Like a lost soul with no home to dwell in.
Thoughts bouncing around inside,
Threatening to break you down,

Warning of last chances
Freedom calls
Will you answer or will you slither aimlessly away

Giving a ****
May just help you get on the right footing
It may help you choose where you go to next

Crossroads
Dark forests
Gutters

And the breath of Angels
Which shall you choose to be your guide I wonder
Hands held clasped
Closing off all that come near

Hear me
See me here

Picking up pebbles from the beach reminds me of you
It is possible to go from
lost to found.

Maybe you would like to take a stroll
Feet in wet sand
Toes curling

**There's a smile and a warm heart to be found here.
Next page