last christmas you were home,
steak and wine,
your cardigan’s tone
matched your lipstick fine.
walk down piazza
draped light regalia,
your smile glimmer
the tree’s star shimmer.
hands held tight
swift joyous stride
thinking forever this would last.

tonight didn't feel like christmas,
in my arms a gleeful mistress,
only hollow vessel
her warm body
taxidermy.
tunes and jingles
gloomy festival
our memories sparkle.
tears begging for escape
shackles bending out of shape
lies fall apart
truth coming out
you still have my ******* heart.