I remember seeing you
In the front of the class
Standing like it was second nature to you
In front of a mass

I thought you were good
But returned to my world
As I reminded myself that I am alone

Imagine my surprise when you walked BEHIND to see
In my tiny corner
All eyes on me

I stared at you for a while
Barely believing my eyes
Thinking you’d leave and then forget

You stayed and sat
For three straight days
Cracking your jokes and destroying my walls
Making me laugh like I had lost nothing at all

A few days later
It was back again
To haunt me
To tell me
Never again

But you saw right through me
Right then you knew
What was wrong and what to do

I was only a step away from
Becoming friends with you
You understand me like no one ever could
Yet there’s one thing that no one would
Think of
Believe
Or wonder about me
The child who is quiet
But happy and alone

I feel anger
Not because they don’t see
But because they never wanted to
You tried
My friend
And for that I’m glad
But I always knew it was too much to ask

I sit on my bed
With the gun to my head
Not crying nor weeping
But simply still
Thinking about you
The only thing
Giving purpose to my life
While I try to ****

I’m sorry that it had to be this way
I’m sorry I didn’t say goodbye
But I warned you that day when you sat by my side

I am the one
The one who couldn’t be healed
Simply because no one wanted to try