9/17/17

You break, you rage, you hide from yourself
You go to work inert
You write, cry, eat, divert
Write poems and lists and tools
It gets better 
Just watch your monkey brain chatter
Next time you will be better
She said read the list of cons every time he tries to contact you
You see its ron calling then read all the wrong things he did to you
Its a way to train your monkey brain to reconsider its attitude
Reactions are automatic trails straight back to you
Addiction is a pathway, cold turkey is the best path to choose
I used to use but ive been two months true

And we move on

In the medical field, we say
See one, do one, teach one
I saw, i did, i taught
I hid, i undid, i thought
I was free
But freedom is fleeting
And catching it defeats its meaning 
I mean i think im seeing
I intend to be teaching
Because learning hurts
Growth spurts
Its a steep curve
Sometimes it only seems to get worse
But its worth it in the end
Thats what they say
The only question then
Is who says "when?"
And how long do I have to wait?