I want to know if you think of me too I want to know why you gave up on me And why you lied to me I wish I hadn't given up on you.
Even if we didn't end up together in the end I wish I would've given us a chance So I'd know what it's like And so I'd know if it would've worked out
I wish I would've pressed harder when I knew you lied I wish I would've said yes to you once; you asked so many times I wish I would've told you I'd still be with you when we talked I'm sorry I reacted the way I did
I'm sorry I hurt you I'm sorry I blew you off with no explanation You were one of my best friends You were my first love.
Did you know that? You were. I cared about you so intensely at such a young age Part of me always will.
I assumed we'd get married Did you know that too? We had so much fun We were such close friends
I want to know you're happy I want to know you're doing well I wish I could talk to you And at least have you tell me those things.
But I can't say anything to you It would be considered inappropriate But we never got closure Do you want that too, or is it just me?
I wish you knew these things I have no idea what you think of me now Or if you've forgotten about me Or if I was special to you like you were to me
Or if you loved me too And if so, if you'll always care about me And never forget me I'll never forget you
I'm sorry I was a **** to you when we were younger I've gotten older, wiser, more mature, more understanding, and more loving I'm sure we've both changed because everyone does I've changed a lot, but otherwise, I'm the still same girl you were crazy about.
I never intended to hurt you I did what I thought I needed to at the time I've known better for quite a while now And I'm sorry.
I hope you're happy And that life is treating you well I wish you the best Know I always will, okay?
I wish you knew what you did to me How I keep going back to it That I'm hung up on it Unless you'd think it's pathetic
My gosh, why can't I let you go? I ridiculously pine I know you've been idealized And romanticized in my mind
But it started out so perfectly We were just kids who became good friends Then best friends Then we came to care deeply for each other
We decided to wait until we were older to date But then we never did Because of me I rejected you too many times
So eventually, you gave up on me Now my mind has a warped reality My heart still harbors you inside And sometimes I'm reminded
******, why didn't I just kiss you? I actually wish I knew what that was like My gosh, am I horrible? Utterly obscene?
I was so afraid to even date you I think I ******* up big time Did I? Am I wrong?
How I wish I knew. The world is not so black and white anymore There is lots of gray And it's nothing like I expected.
I miss you. I miss us. Please tell me you're okay. Please tell me you're happy.
I wish I could send you a message somehow So you'd know I'm sorry And that I wish you well For always