I'll never be able to finish a song
You be the brains and the brawn
I'll front like to me you're just a pawn
But as soon as everybody's gone
And I'm finally alone, I'm drawn,
to cry long past dawn 'cause I'm a *****
My self-image tends to ping-pong
Whether I'm alright or all wrong

I'm giving up on being strong
Maybe I should pop a pill or puff a ****
I wonder about the sensations all day long

I joke and I joke on and on
But at the end I stay
knowing everything isn't okay
Because I shouldn't be scared of my own race
I wish I was nothing more than a trace
I wish myself not to be a complex being
Like everybody else, through night and day
My past reflects on who I am today

Right now and the past shouldn't be too overwhelming to face
Now and the past weren't too bad but yet out of fear I brace
My emotions are laced
to everybody but I haste
to show I actually care
but to do so isn't so rare
The first time I do is hard to be fair
But if I say so I tear
I won't trust but I do love and care

After I say so I'm uncomfortable and feels as if I'm bare
and trapped in the spacious outside without air
It feels like you just judge and stare
So I'm then scared that you won't stay as I'm stuck there

Family are the only people I love, for them I,
refrain from trying to die
You are my blood, so I'll be **** sure I never again be why you guys cry.