When I wake up
Realization strikes
My fear and pain
Pour down on me like rain
Stirring up my failures
And bringing me to say
"Why did it have to turn out this way?
I never meant for this to happen,
I am sorry. Please forgive me..."
But it isn't that easy
Because even though
they might forgive me
I can't come to forgive myself
For I am in pain
My eyes are stained
For I have payed
The price
Of eternal pain
Because I made a mistake
I will be alone forever
Drowning in the rain
That I have made
And to be forgiven is impossible
For I cannot forgive myself
I treasure every day alone
Reminding myself
Why I am this way
Because I have been ******
By the world and its flaws
That is why I will be alone
With no mercy
For I am paying the price
Of being alone
For all of eternity...