You call me shy
And mock my every move
You make me fight
Just to prove myself to you...
Thoughts

You tell me lies
And trap me inside
You make me cry
Leaving me sleep deprived...
Isolation

You tell me I'm not wanted
And pierce my flesh with your impurities
Until I've gone too far
Killing me along with my insecurities...
Depression

You make my heart beat fast
Whenever someone walks past
You make me feel
Like everyone's judging me...
Anxiety

You remind me of everything I've done
Telling me I'll never be good enough
That I'll never be loved
Because I've done too much...
Regret

You lock me to the ground
Placing chains all around
You make me want to hide
From the world outside...
Fear

You take everything from me
Leaving me broken and hopeless
You drain my energy
And leave me restless
You make me nervous and anxious
Over absolutely nothing
You let me feel nothing but pain and suffering...
Life

Each night I wake
And think of you
While you lay
Dreaming of her

Sleep deprived and weary-eyed
Thoughts of death and suicide
Hiding the pain and imperfections
Trying to exceed all expectations

Cutting and burning away insecurities
Saying, "I'm fine," and ignoring my feelings
Every day the same as before
Living and breathing becoming a chore

Waiting for something I know will never come
No reason not to pull the trigger of the gun
Waiting and waiting for something more
Running further and further, knocking at death's door

How much longer will I be here they ask me
I say, "I don't know." But I do, I'm just waiting
Five, four, three, two, one come and find me
Or not because if you don't I won't be breathing

Good bye world
You're all better off without me

The dripping of blood stolen by the blade
Tears streaming down her cheeks and rolling off her face
Flesh splitting open with just one slice
"Next time," she cries, "next time will be the last time."
But the truth is she doesn't really want to die
She just can't stand to live with the pain that she's in
The pain, the torture that only she can end
The next time she presses down even harder, heart beating fast
She counts down from ten and pulls the blade across her skin
The world around her growing dim
If only they would've cared
If only someone had been there
The reality of it all is sad to say the least
But the girl left there to bleed would surely disagree
She got exactly what she wanted - the end to her constant grief
Darkness destroyed by darkness, a soul at last put to peace...