I see you sinking in the gloom
Water eyes see you fade into deep blue
The gray ocean of my mind
I see you grow smaller & fade
But everytime pull you out again.
I think on your words,
"Whats the point?"
You bob & sway here and fro.
You once told me, In everything, there’s an ebb & flow.
Fade to black. Come back come back
But I think on your words. "Whats the point?"
There can be no touch. Our signals crossed
signals lost
You dip under murky waters.
I hesitate to reach.
The Silence was always loudest with you.
A cutting cold. My shriveled heart.
I believe your words. So whats the point?
We ignore the elephant in the room.
You dip again. Too soon too soon
Im so close to reaching you
Restrain restrain I think on your words again:
"Whats the point?"
Connection. The deep dark hole beginning to fill to feel.
The torn raw rough edges beginning to heal.
But I think on your words-"Whats the point?"
And I have no answer or promises to give.
I can only watch you drown
Why do I keep pulling you out.
I cannot save you. I have so little love to give
Even for me. . You see? You see.
And you sink completely & disappear from view
You sink I swim. Away , but back to & fro
You once told me in everything there is ebb & flow
Its like that special hell of wielding the boulder.
Why couldn't he just let go?
Our elephant ignored, our love left alone
Gathering dust turning to bone.