I'm torn between
What's real
Or not

Trying to make sense of
What's right
Or wrong

I know now
That I will never
Belong

But these things that I'm feeling-
These feelings are strong

So many things
I wish to do

Everyone of them
Involving you

But I can't seem to find
Any sense in my mind

So I brush it off
As if it's some lie

I cannot cope
with these things in my head

I cannot stay like this
With not a clue

I cannot live
Without you

I can't bear
These thoughts

Thoughts coax me to leave

To end this life
To finally be free

There's so many things
That race through my head

So many thoughts
That I can't catch
As they pass

So many feelings
I wish wouldn't last

So I will take this knife
And run it through my chest

To silence these thoughts
Forever, silence in my head