I am looking through your clothes, trying to find one strand of your thread-bare hair. (Was it ash blonde or ***** blonde? I swear it was more ashy.)
I don't know where I lost you, where I left you, maybe it was in the soft cradle of my bed as you waited for me to turn over the record.
I don't know. I don't know what the curves of the bird bones in your hands look like anymore, and I can say the same about the size of your eyes, watching me always.
But I can tell you I miss you, I miss your head resting on my shoulder. You're so much taller than me, and I can feel myself lowering what I had felt into the ground, and I swear, if you weren't so high, you would have noticed.