if it was easier to let go
everyone would be dead.

is it dark in here?
couldn't tell with my eyes closed.
as if being awake was an option.
no one would know
no one would care
of course i'd have to have the courage
to make that huge decision..
being completely numb is better
really it's a great escape
each time i inhale its like i'm drowning
anything to keep me above water
that was the plan
how's that plan working??
e**ventually it won't.

because baby you're a landslide
because darling you're a forest fire
because you're posion my dear
after all you've done damage i hear..

because starlet you don't shine
because beau you aren't mine
because honey you aren't for me
after all you aren't my cup of tea..

because sweetie i don't need you
because hon you don't complete me
because i don't believe you baby
after all you've lied compeltely..

so, you're back..
again..
seeping into corners..
like a venom casting ghostly shadows onto the nape of my neck..
i never see you coming
criss crossing on a serpentine platform
of "i miss you's" and
" i didn't mean to hurt you's"
child like memories
drawn in crayons of the deepest,
bloodiest reds..
i don't remember myself there..
that's an existence i'm done sharing..

we live in a country
where we are judged for the kindness we share with others
we are scorned for what little money we make
and hated for the people we love.
we live in a country
where our success is measured by
the amount of zeros in our bank accounts
rather than
the differences we make in our society.
we live in a country
where a parent is afraid,
afraid to let their child learn
because our schools have become battle fields.
and we live in a country
where people are too busy
being busy bodies
in other peoples lives
rather than worrying about what is happening
right before our very eyes.
our country.
is being torn apart.
because we are afraid of change.
afraid of letting a stranger see our heart.
seek not the problem that doesn't affect you directly.
but seek out the problem that we ALL will face, once our neighbors become our enemies.

your sister is doing alright
oh, and so is your other sister.
and your other sister is well off.
you are the only one that we are worried about.
you are the only one that can't afford this
you are the only one that doesn't have a good job
and doesn't have a lot of money
useless schooling
and is living paycheck to paycheck
you're the only one that can't make it
you're the only one that isn't going anywhere
you can't do anything right..
can you??

someone
please
help
me