Earthly green to feverish red
autumn
i’ve missed your cold warmth
brown, to red, to a faded auburn
you’re my autumn leaf
i still admire you from a safe distance
These strange autumnal rains
make old wounds feel new with pain
The nights are long and dark
Mornings far away
Voices pitched and stark
The skies are low and grey
I write you when you fall
no chill like autumn's air
to brace my  soul.
©Sahirbhat

It's the war that  keeps me alive,

a mercy to let me die.

I was lost and I looked for you

When you stepped in my door,
I realised I was Paradise
in my heart and soul
I will be honest like every time or at least most of the time
I do not even know where to start or begin
I rather to say I do not know where this journey ended
In the  graveyard of warm heaven’s
I am still wounded by your talks
On my knees scarred because of battles only god knows
I might not write as much as I did during the war
Life has been getting busier and busier
I'm letting go like I always told you I would
The problem is the pain, that I can't bear to keep
Clear skies no longer brighten my day,
In my eyes there is only ever rain
An indifferent ache swirls in the silence
As I try to conceal the pain and hide it deep within
Till death, I will keep, not returned by tomorrow.

In my small world,
within my tiny heart,
A portion controlled by family,
I got you
who rules it wholly.

Bright Eyes
I know you stare at me while I sleep
I wake in the night
to discover you're gone,
But the truth is you live
in my dreams before dawn
I wish I could sleep peacefully like a housecat,
snuggled into a reclining chair,
without a care in the world
I know that probably you hate me
I know all this but still my rotting heart has me saying this
I've been thinking about you,missing you,
I've been writing to you but they are all drafted
All the madness I have in me
You tamed it graciously
How can I forget
The passion of love
You melted us and made us apart.

I'm Lost
In something that I
Lost