i'm losing this patience of mine
it's the struggle of writersblock all the time
they ask how i am and i say i'm just fine but i'm dying inside
i can't swallow the truth cause i'm choking on pride
guess i love you so much that you're stuck on my mind
it's love that you want and it's love that you find
you say you have love for me but it's not the right kind
so here i go again losing my mind

cause i love you so much that it hurts, that it hurts
"you know that i love you" those are the words, those are the words
that i need to hear, that i need to hear
cause i miss you, i miss you
when you aren't here, when you aren't here
but the truth is it hurts even more whenever you're near, whenever you're near

you're laughing at me and that's the last thing you should do
cause i'll strap you to bomb and i'll say you just blew
you're still trying to laugh but i see you're almost crying
and i'm on the floor laughing so hard that it feels like i'm the one who's dying
but atleast when i die, i will die with a smile
in life, pain comes so cheap meanwhile
anything that's worth having just doesn't come easy
my rapping is cheesy and so is your boyfriend who guarentees he
will you love as long as you love him which means he
just wants you to **** him and right after you ****** him
and he came on your face, he goes back to his place
and you feel bad for yourself cause you're a ******* disgrace
your love is like a cloud and i'm in for the chase
but he beat me to it so i came second place
i once had this dream where i ****** you in space
where no one could here you scream while i slide in third base

cause i love you so much that it hurts, that it hurts
"you know that i love you" those are the words, those are the words
that i need to hear, that i need to hear
cause i miss you, i miss you
when you aren't here, when you aren't here
but the truth is it hurts even more whenever you're near, whenever you're near

and to anyone out there who think he can test me
you think you're better than me but the fact is
i'll beat you in practice and slaughter you in a track diss
your girl comes to me and says "i want to jack this"
this is what life's all about, the best ******* advice is to just use your mouth
and right after she ****** this, i looked and said **** this
that ***** is so ugly, i'll never let her **** me

I'm drowning in tears
Please just leave me alone
Or just carve out my heart
I don't care if you use a knife or a stone
Nothing can be worse than the pain i feel at this moment
The blame for that is all on you
Yeah that's right, you own it
Love is dangerous
Love is wild
You have no idea how much i miss being a child
When the worst pain was a scraped knee
And darkness was the scariest thing you could see
When "goodbye" meant "till tomorrow"
Not "from now on we're history" and feeling sorrow
Back when you could say "i love you" and not have your heart broken
When you could fall asleep on the couch and magically end up in bed without being woken
When you wanted nothing more than to grow up
Untill you saw what being a grown up really means and you just wanted to throw up
When you wouldn't have to worry about money or paying bills
Then one day you fell in love
And for the first time in your life
You felt those beautiful chills
That went right down your spine
And then you went to your first party
And had your first glass of wine
Years went by and you grew up
You probably made alot of mistakes
But you never gave up
you did all that it takes
And now you have won
It's not easy to win in life
Cause life first give you the test
And then you get the lesson
You don't have to be better than the rest
Just be better than you were yesterday
And maybe at the end of your life
You're talking to your children
Explaining what you've been through and what life is all about
You tell your kids that everybody they love dies
That they'll have less answers than "why's"
I was talking to somebody about all of this
About my mistakes and all other ****
How i can never make them right
How i've loved and lost
How losing someone you love is the biggest cost
How going to sleep early is so important
How life doesn't come with a lovely assistent
How there will always be pain
How there can never be a rainbow without a little rain
How you need sadness to learn to value of happiness
How you don't always have to say yes
How you can love the sun but sometimes have to hide in the shade
How life is the most painfull thing that's ever made
She looked at me and said "well that doesn't sound good"
I said no but i'd do it all over again if i could
Life hurts you and you can't hurt it
But that doesn't matter
Cause in the end, it's worth it

Broken heart and broken bones.
Throwing sticks and throwing stones.
It's dark out here, the light is broken.
I see no future, my sight is broken.
My body is torn and bruised.
My heart is stabbed, broken and used.
I'm giving up on love, it just didn't work out.
It's was never enough, cause there was always doubt.
I'm just not good enough, that's the way it is.
She'll never change her mind, even after reading this.
Why am i in love?
This is just not fair, i could die before her eyes.
And she wouldn't even care.
Why am i in love?
Please just answer me.
I wanna talk to you, and hear your voice again.
I wanna see your face, and tell you how i feel.
That i can't live without your love, and this pain is just way too real.
I need your help, to find me back again.
And i need it fast, cause i'm losing myself.
I'm lost in your heart, and i can't find the door.
I'm drowning in your eyes, and i can't find the shore.
I don't know what to do, i'm running out of time.
I'll have to face the truth, that you will never be mine.
Maybe one day you will see, that i love you with all my heart.
Maybe that day you'll love me, and we'll never part.
Maybe one day when i die, you'll remember me.
You'll think about my heart, to wich you've always held the key.
Maybe one day you'll wake up, and realize that you broke me.
It will break you too, and broken is what we'll both be.
Maybe one day you will fall in love, and you will come begging to me.
Saying you want "us" to change into "we".
Maybe one day you will say, you're my reason to live for.
i will look at you, and i'll say no b*tch i don't want you anymore.
And if on one day, your eyes will finally open.
It will be too late, cause i'm already broken.

It's like i'm superman and you're my kryptonite
But it's like we both don't know how to end this fight...
My life without you is pointless wich means i can give it any meaning i want...
I won't lose my faith in god, but i don't believe in jesus
I gave you my heart, i just didn't expect to get it back in pieces
See my biggest mistake wasn't falling for you, it was thinking that you could fall for me too
I'm not afraid of losing her
Cause she was never mine
I don't know how to prove it to her
That i'll love her till the end of time
I'm not afraid to tell her i love her
Cause i really believe she knows
But every word she says to me
Feels like she's throwing stones
It's already too late cause the friendship is over
And it breaks my heart
I just could never find a way to show her
How i really feel about her
How i really do love her
It's pathetic that i'm writing this
My heart is David and she's Goliath
It's stupid that i'm fighting this
Cause i just can't win
That's the way it is
And that's the way it's always been
Too tired to hold on
Too in love to let go
Too tired of being strong
Too proud to let it show

it's like the paper really listens
when the people really don't.
and i tell myself to get up
so my hurt will not be shown.
it's like no matter how much suns there are my
heart is always cold
i really have to get it out there
yeah i need to let it go
got my heart to finally heat up
i can start to see it glow
and the walls i've build around it
are just melting down like snow
it's what i'll always keep on doing
i'm just writing down my thoughts
i really have to keep it moving
if i don't wanna get caught
it would never work between us
no matter how hard that fought
it was just a waste money
all the flowers that i bought
yeah it's really kinda funny
yeah i'm really not that smart
i was stupid to believe
that i could ever have your heart
now i'm sitting on my knees
and i'm drowning in my tears
shouting love is a disease
when a voice behind my ear
whispers i should hide the keys
so i threw them in a lake
may they forever rest in peace
i just wish i could do the same
cause the sun is almost shining
and i'm still laying here awake
so don't say that i'm not hurting
cause the smile i have is fake
and the pieces of my heart don't fit
so someone help for god's sake
but nobody really has the time
at least that's what they say
to be honest i don't know
how long that it'll really take
for my heart to get together
and if that will never happen
then just please let it get better
but just not by some girl lying
saying she'll love me forever
just let me use the force
i don't know what i'm gonna do
but i already know the source
wich is causing me this pain
one day she will be no more
and she wouldn't die in vain
maybe that will be the cure
that puts my heart in place again
i don't know if it can get worse
but i'm gonna try to
let it go for now
i only have one more thing to say
cupid you're the one that made this curse
so please make it go away

he was crazy in love but it wasn't meant to be.
and somehow, it was never enough.
he had to do something, so he started smoking ****.
but after  a while he needed
something bigger. so he started sniffing *******.
he'll do anything to forget the girl that's stuck in his brain.
she tried everything but her parents didn't approve.
they didn't want their daughter to hook up with some ******.
he spent all his money on drugs, so after a while he started robbing people.
just cause he was hungry. they wanted to start a new life somewhere far away.
where they could love each other without her parents in the way.
when she told her parents they declined. and she started making a scene.
her mom said "listen baby girl, you're only fifteen." "you don't know anything about love". she started crying and ran upstairs.
what her parents just told her was too much to bear.
she called him and said their life together just wasn't meant to be.
she couldn't take it anymore, it was just too tough.
he decided that if he couldn't be with his girl, he no longer wanted to live in this cold world.
he used his last money to buy some crystal ****.
started praying to god. hoping his pain would go away right after he's dead.
couple seconds later he was ready for his last shot.
he send the girl a text "i'm sorry for loving you baby girl but i'm not sorry for what i'm about to do...".
she read it the next morning after she woke up to her alarm.
when she got to his house, she found him in his bathroom, needle still stuck in his arm. there was a note next to him that said "baby girl, i know you didn't believe me when i told you i loved you to death.
i think i proved it now, see i when i said i couldn't live without you, i wasn't goofing around.
i can't take it anymore. that's why i prayed to god.
cause i loved you with all my heart, even though i know you did not.
maybe you were right and it's just not meant to be.
even though you meant the world to me.
PS i'm sorry our last conversation was just a text."
she started crying, looked up to the sky and said "if we can't be together in this life, then maybe in the next".
she called her mom and screamed "this is all your fault".
then she jumped under a train.
there was a paper near the tracks, saying that she tried but that it didn't work out and that her parents where to blame.
for young people who are in love but can't be together, their story is starting to become a symbol.
see she loved him and he loved her, but it just wasn't that simple....

"yeah i wanna kiss you"
but just don't tell my boyfriend
really? you do?
"yeah meet me wednesday"
i was there but the ***** stayed away
cause she changed her mind after two hours
i should've known better
but it still tasted sour
that's when i realize people were right
i can get better but something's holding me back
it felt like she broke my neck
cause i can't get over the fact
that fell to the deck
she broke my respect
but i'm still alive
you're **** right i'll survive
i'll go take back my life
but i still care about her
and that is because
i love you more than your boyfriend does
i'm writing in a rush
you are more than a crush
i can't talk about "us"
caure there is no such thing as "we"
you're only my friend, just "you" and "me"
my heart is broken and my soul is cold
the devil came to buy it and i just said "sold"
*** what have i done
the devil promises me a paradise
all i have to do, is give her one sacrifice
i brought her my mother's head
but it wasn't enough, it didn't suffice
she's hot as fire and cold as ice
she's the same as chelsea
cause she's telling me lies
it's to accept that i lost the fight
i wanna look at her face
and i get hit in the head
now all i see is a blur
i think about chelsea
i look at the devil and i realize it's her
i'm trying to see if i have any feeling left
but there is none
i fought with the devil
and it looks like she won...
i got no love in my heart
and no emotions in my eyes
i sold my soul to the devil
and now i'm paying the price

Baby don't you see how i need a new start
Baby don't you see how i love you with all my heart
Baby don't you see how i'm struggling to accept that we'll always be apart
Baby don't you see how you broke my heart
Baby how you could you think i could just replace it with some other spare part
Baby don't you see how i loved you with all my heart
Baby don't you see how i just a new start
Baby i just know i need a new start
Baby i really think i do
And baby as much as it pains me to say it
My new start has got to be without you....

I see your eyes and i just look through them.
If i ever had any chances with you, i just blew them.
People say it's not real love, i say ***** them.
It doesn't get more real than this.
When i stand before her.
I feel the one thing that is stronger than me.
And that is my love for her.
But i gotta face the truth.
You're the one person i'll never be able to hold.
And it's killing me inside.
It's time to be bold.
It's time to see the light.
My heart's been broken torn and bend.
That's the way it is.
I'll be single till the end.
Cause it's my brain that said.
You can't love someone, if your heart is dead.