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Bad luck
Bad vibes
Bad friends
Bad times
***** men
All the time
Power trip
Success crime
Wash it down
**** it out
Happy pills
Lights out
  Mar 2018 Lily Harriet
Nena
If someone flinches when you want to put your arm around them
Someone else's hand wasn't that nice

If someone questions you
Someone else has lied to them

If they don't tell you everything
Someone else betrayed their secrets

Behind every cranky, complicated person
Or every person who is afraid to love
Is someone who's tired of being hurt
Lily Harriet Mar 2018
The hugs
The kisses
Overwhelm and melt me

The friends
and family
which I can't talk to

The tears
The razors
become a comfort

The feelings
and the fights
are too heavy to bare

I can't do this
you suffocate me
  Feb 2018 Lily Harriet
Jessy
I’m happy
(I’m depressed)

I love myself
(I hate myself)

I can’t wait to live my life
(I can’t wait to die)

I am lucky to have my friends
(why do they even like me?)

I have a family who loves me
(and I continue to disappoint them)

I am an excellent student
(I can’t focus in school)

I want to travel the world
(will I even live to do that?)

I’m fine
(I’m not fine)

I’m perfectly okay
(please help me)
Lily Harriet Feb 2018
Maybe my mum did raise a fool, maybe I fell for the first, maybe I fell for the hurt, maybe I fell for the fool.

Maybe that hurt, maybe that scarred me, maybe, just maybe that changed me.

Maybe I can't say the three little words everyone wants to hear, Maybe I can't bring myself to feel the positive emotions.
Maybe I can't feel any positive emotions.

Maybe I'm not the girl I made out to be
Maybe you aren't the person I originally thought you were.

Maybe just maybe this doesn't stand a chance.
Maybe I'm not worth it
But just this once maybe I'm wrong
Lily Harriet Dec 2017
I chose you. I pick your thunder; I want rain over anyone’s sunshine any day.
I need you. But you have a fragile core and shy away from conversation.
I need your warmth, but you fade out away from the natural beauty of human touch.
Like a flame dissolves in rain, you dissolve from my grasp.  Whenever I get near, you retreat further than before.
Your own wants desires and fears keep you up at night and locked away from friendships, but the loneliness is silent and suffocating.
Your breath tickles my ear and ignites me all over, the twinkle in your lazy bright eyes contract my muscles so I can do nothing but stare. Your smile sets mine off till we’re both grinning like fools.
When I blink I no longer smile, but ache. I stare at the thin air because I feel hollow, empty and cold and no longer loved. I feel cool because with your absences took my warmth and happiness.
Lily Harriet May 2017
The kisses you trailed down my wrists have become scars. The warmth you made me feel has never felt colder and the memories have never been so painful. They have become nightmares and love has become agony.
You were on top of the world whereas you were mine. You were acting; I wasn't. I was hurt and you just lied. You are a walking contradiction and I'm caught in the middle
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