It’s gone
Everything…
Feels like…
I can’t open my mouth
Without letting my tears flow
I have thousands of words ready
Yet I can’t say a single word

So close, yet so far
Somehow I regret it
Like… I’m here but my soul isn’t here
I don’t know, I don’t even feel sad
But somehow I know
I will cry for no reason

I don’t feel like I’m here
But I don’t want to go home
Is this… a void?
I’m still aware about everything
I’m aware that I’ve changed a lot
This will be better if I just face it alone

I’m afraid
This may be the last time
And my last impression is just silent
Happy music, Happy songs
Sunrise’s voice
Won’t pierce me anymore

Happy memories
Disappears one by one
Close friends
Drift apart one by one
It’s not them
It’s me

Busy city life
Wake up in the morning
Get ready for work
Traffic-jam
Work
Traffic-jam on the way home
Little time to relax
And it repeats

I want to escape
But I can't leave this city
Because of responsibilities
So how?

Soothing sounds of nature
River flowing
Birds singing in the forest
Rain sounds

All in Youtube
I plugged my earphone
Close my eyes
And start listen to it

So relaxing
So this is where I can escape
If I can't go anywhere
Then just escape to my own world of imagination.

You said
That I am so selfish
Because I keep myself shut
From people who tried to help me

You said
That I am so selfish
Because I can't cry
In front of my best friends

You said
That I am so selfish
Because I keep my cheerful act
And hiding behind my mask

You don't know
How hard it is
To receive help
When I just want to rely on myself

You don't know
How hard it is
To cry in front of others
When I think crying is a weakness

You don't know
How hard it is
To not act as a cheerful girl
Because I have become one with the mask

A room full of dogs
I will get bored someday
A room full of video games
I will get bored someday
A room full of music instruments
I will get bored someday

As I approach the final room
The girl shows me a projector
I see my parents and friends
Fall into despair when they see my corpse

She said once again
"There is no turning back"
And again, with a smile
"It's your choice"