z - Hello Poetry

z Sep 2018

how do you want me to remember your laugh?
perhaps as the caress of your hands confusing my mind
or as the glory i could only enjoy from afar
make it more like a reminder that you’re not mine

z Sep 2018

eight

twelve back at twenty
hungry hands and dirtier words
wavering affection that won't stay long

ten back at eighteen
none ice cold nor lazy scowl
can it grow when the lights are on?

what is this math *******

z Sep 2018

in your big where i small

it wont be new—long lost feelings
it wont fall to one another—somewhere remains
in between fingertips it slipped through
his far it never travelled
where its summer became his day
and its winter became his night
the seasons are starting to change somehow
and so they are

you will so realize

z Aug 2018

away//aware

i pierced your silhouette
through my head like
the twinkled lights you attached
trying to cover my eyes, seal my lips around
you touched me at my
golden hours of self doubts
you filled me in thinking
i had you whole as a legacy
then you left with subtle clicks

z Aug 2018

on how he made it my favorite month

july july july
she lays your head above my thighs
when you were born the sky was clear white
the number of twenty doesn't seem so small
left left left
we shared the same smell
to the east we went; through nature we never spent
my tongue ache to whichever you take

made this just after the month end

#heartbreak

z Aug 2018

stuttered rain

you were meant to shine
when we went out at night catching coldness
that was meant to hurt, did your smile delight?
in a place where i wait for the wallowing to end
you told the sky and its darkness to follow us
i hate being away and i hate getting in your way
snap me out of it! clean up the grim!
don't remind me how painful your absences feel!

#heartbreak #relationship

z Aug 2018

名

your name shrinks when you kissed me, spills
in my own ears, long gone
since you sleep my dreams, numb
after you found your better piece
i can never say no while it lingers, battling
wrongs to make some rights, stay
still for the show; where instead of
calling your name home, i will be
able to say no

and it wont be tomorrow