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231 · Mar 2015
lies among small phrases
Zoë Mar 2015
as my worlds collide
i shake my head
my words jumble
and i find small lies laced
on the curves of the letters
disappointment settles in my stomach
and i feel sick
i change for all these people
why do i even care this much?
the thought tears through my head
taking everything over
i can't even escape my own head
228 · Mar 2015
hopeless
Zoë Mar 2015
one may think that it's wonderful
the non-stop talk
to have large numbers
to have "options"
and for some it may be
but the constant, overwhelming, unwanted surprises from all of this
make me mad
they make me cry
and make the guilt seep into my skin.
the though that i have done something wrong
overcomes my every thought
and i find myself lost in the sea of over thinking.
as a teacher instructs a lesson
or a friend tries to tell a story
i am lost.
hopelessness fills me as i receive another message
and somebody pours out their heart
i want to tell them to have it back
i don't need it,
i don't want it.
it just hurts more as they continue
all i want is for it to stop
so i can find myself
dig out of the hole, i'm stuck at the bottom of
soak up the tears i've been drowning in
find myself in my messy world
Zoë Apr 2015
and for a few moments i forget
forget the recent events that stay stuck in my head
by listening to your soft words
forget the sad smell that lingers
by burying my head into your chest
shivers up my spine disappear
and i feel safe in your arms
the mess i will have to face as night finally falls
is forgotten while i'm here with you
if only, if only you could just stay forever
224 · May 2015
if only, if only
Zoë May 2015
if only
i could get ****** into a time traveling tornado
that could bring me back to you

if only
i could have realized how truly important
you could have been to me

if only
you were here once more
whispering soft words of wisdom in my ear
223 · May 2014
Trapped
Zoë May 2014
I feel that I am in a hallway of locked doors.
In a cage with no key.
In the dark with sunglasses stuck over my eyes.
I feel that I am the only one.
That nobody will get it.
That it will always be the same.
I hope that they will get it someday.
That I will be able to see my dreams as the past.
That I can teach someone something they can use.
I think that it will get better sometime.
That I will get to where I want to be.
That I will get it someday.
223 · Apr 2015
broken for me
Zoë Apr 2015
i guess i never thought it would get this far
that it would actually change.
for my whole life i've thought of it,
but looking back at nights filled with tears while i "sleep"
and words thrown around
and uneasy glances
i know you can only pretend for so long.
somewhere during the act
it gets to a point where you get stuck in the process of making others happy.
while doing this you become so terrible unhappy
that you crumble.
you break.
you destroy yourself.
i hope you can save yourself before you break.
i know you're broken,
and it hurts me because i know the truth.
you do this for me, you are breaking for me
i cannot see you break anymore.
you can't crumble,
because when you break, i do
222 · Jan 2015
Untitled
Zoë Jan 2015
You are asleep,
Your aching bones at rest
Your mind blank
Your words silent

I am wide awake
My aching bones still move
My mind gone wild
My words flowing onto this page

I cry, I scream, I call for you

You are asleep
222 · Dec 2014
Untitled
Zoë Dec 2014
Words all around confuse me
They cry to me
But I don't know what's happening
I try to be there
But I just can't
I am so lost
So confused...
222 · Apr 2014
Good
Zoë Apr 2014
If you like me
If you hate me
If you love me
If you can’t stand me
If you fear me
If you don’t care about me
Good
No matter what you think, I’m not changing
So that’s your problem
Don't talk behind my back,
But if you think my life is so much
More interesting  than yours than go ahead
And think what you want
Because I won't change how I am,
Just because you asked me to
221 · Feb 2015
poetry as a whole
Zoë Feb 2015
the good thing is,
nobody has to know what i mean
nobody has to understand the exact metaphor
or know my story.
they can make their own
219 · Jan 2015
what's so great
Zoë Jan 2015
the flowers just die, so why plant them?
the children just forget, so why teach them?
the hearts will just break, so why love them?
but i guess we'll all just die, so why live?
honestly just wondering...
219 · Nov 2014
You
Zoë Nov 2014
You
How can your lovely face
Seem to find it's way into my head
At every moment of the day
No matter what I'm supposed to be thinking about
It always just ends up with you
Not that that I'm complaining though...
219 · Apr 2014
Sleep
Zoë Apr 2014
Sometimes I wonder why I lie in bed at night
With my eyes wide open
Thinking
Thinking
Thinking
Thinking about events of the day
Thinking about death
Thinking about life
Thinking about the mistakes I made
Or the times I messed up bad
I wonder why my thoughts go wild at night
Keeping me up
My mind exploding
Words flashing like bright lights
People's faces in my mind
Smiles and tears
Every morning when I wake up
Eyes heavy and tired
I know that the thoughts are worth it
But I never sleep, for these things
Appear in my dreams too
In different ways though
They tell me things
I would never be able to think of on my own
Sometimes I wish I could sleep
Just sleep
Without a dream
But I remember every one
Sleep becomes unimportant
When your nightmares become exciting battles
With sleep
218 · May 2015
hate
Zoë May 2015
i honestly don't hate them all
i just hate the way they make me feel,
hate the way they treat each other
and how they act so dumb.
it makes me cringe, makes me cry,
makes me build these walls.
i'm really just a wimp.
scared of the truth, and friendship,
which by dictionary definition means:
a state of mutual trust.
now that's the part that scares me.
the ability to trust another to not spill your secrets,
the ability to trust that somebody won't hurt you,
or push you down.
in the process of "branching out"
fear and confusion eats at me,
but i have to let it go.
i don't hate them all.
i can't
218 · Dec 2014
Need You
Zoë Dec 2014
I wish you'd say anything...
Hello
Goodbye
Good morning
Goodnight
I need your words
I need your thoughts
I just need you
216 · Nov 2014
Untitled
Zoë Nov 2014
It still remains a mystery in my head
But I know it's not in yours
Although that doesn't bother me
I'm still afraid that I'll mess it all up

It still remains a mystery in my head
But I know it's not in yours
I create moments in my brain
Making them perfect and sweet

It still remains a mystery in my head
But I know it's not in yours
That's ok though
Because I wouldn't want to mess it up
With anyone else but you
216 · Apr 2014
Love
Zoë Apr 2014
Love is not a person
or adjective.
Not a number
or place.
But a feeling...
215 · Apr 2014
Funny Things
Zoë Apr 2014
There are some funny
things that you
need to know during
life
But lots can only
be taught by
you yourself
215 · May 2015
"love" or love
Zoë May 2015
finally
when i can't think of a reason to hate,
or a reason to cry
i can just smile.
i can realize finally
that my past is my past
and people can't hurt me if i don't let them.
he can't see inside of me anymore,
he can't touch my skin,
or persuade me with his words.
he is gone from my life.
and now, i thankfully have you
who won't be the cause of my tears,
who won't promise forever only to let me down
who won't "love" me
but will just love me
214 · Jan 2015
World of Broken Teenagers
Zoë Jan 2015
I grasp onto the last bit of inspiration
Letting it cleanse my broken soul
I have let the cruel world swallow me
I have let myself become the regular, egotistical teenager the rest of the world is
I hold onto this last bit of sanity
And rid myself of all vanity
Pulling out all of my fine points
Trying to prove to myself this isn't what I have become
But as I stare into the mirror,
The glitter on my eyes, and mascara staining my cheeks
Tells me otherwise...
210 · Feb 2015
maybe crazy
Zoë Feb 2015
in and out i fall
blinded
tired
scared
i frown as my words contradict themselves
confusing me
i look at the damage
i fall
and become lost in the world of insanity
i did anyways...
and i visit often now
to see what i was
to know who i still may be
209 · Jan 2015
all for nothing
Zoë Jan 2015
you beg for me to stay
i tell you it's okay
i tell you not to worry,
i am here for you, i promise
but you push me away.
ignore me, when i am trying to help
i truly waited for you
stayed up thinking about you
worrying you were all alone
then you imply i'm not needed
i wish i could scream
i waited for you, stayed awake
poured my heart out
and risked it
you don't need me
just tell me that please
so i'm not making myself available
when i'm not needed
i'm sorry that i care
i really don't mean to be a bother
209 · Apr 2014
Of a Poet
Zoë Apr 2014
Tired eyes,
achy wrists and fingers,
bright mind
and beautiful words
of a poet
208 · Dec 2014
what is love anyways?
Zoë Dec 2014
if love,
is waiting for you
when i know you'll never come

then i definitely loved you

if love,
is wishing for your touch
when i know you never would

then i definitely loved you

if love,
is pouring my heart out for you
when i know you'll never understand

then i definitely loved you

but i am pretty sure,
that is not what love is

i am also pretty sure
that maybe once,
i thought that i definitely loved you
and maybe,
i even did...
over thinking is a killer
206 · May 2015
break
Zoë May 2015
i keep this photo close
to remember when love was still new
when i shined bright in your eyes
and you looked for me along other faces.
now i wish for your eyes,
and beg for any words from your lips.
i hope that somewhere deep inside,
you still have love for me,
and that you won't break my heart.
you have the ability to,
because darling, i will easily call myself crazy about you.
is this my fault?
do i not love you enough?
maybe i'm just greedy,
but i soak up every ounce
of your soft words
and cherish them like you wouldn't believe.
205 · Jan 2015
Untitled
Zoë Jan 2015
The surprisingly bright color makes me wonder how nature can create this.  
As I inspect closer, I see it is hurt,
Broken
Somebody has messed with the poor lifeless object in front of my eyes
But as I start to peel away its thin skin,
The beauty of the inside shows itself
The broken façade lay next to the new shone beauty
I realize then how deceiving one may look
Broken, and falling apart on the outside
But beautiful and strong on the inside
It almost reminds me of a rose,
Its deep red petals
Delicate, and gorgeous
The smell,
Pleasant and sweet
But as you inspect it closer
Or "peel away the skin"
You discover a new red,
Not just that of the petals
But the blood of your fingers
Cut by the thorns
So as I look back upon the small object
That I hold in my hands
I am happy
I peeled away it's broken skin
the things you get from a clementine...
202 · May 2015
secrets deep inside
Zoë May 2015
i'm not exactly sure why i hide certain parts of myself from some people.
i guess i'm just giving myself a secret to keep.
it keeps me sane,
and makes me feel like i still know something about myself
that the world doesn't have to.
they always figure it out though...
199 · Jun 2015
memories
Zoë Jun 2015
memories overflow in my head
and almost spill tears out of my eyes,
like flooded city streets.
i swallow hard,
and close my eyes momentarily.
freely, freely, freely
her voice echoes through my mind.
i keep the secrets dark inside me,
and cover them up with the positives.
i can't let it overcome me,
or it will destroy me all over again.
i shudder, and chills run up my back,
as i wrap my arms tightly around me.
it's over now.
199 · Apr 2014
Everybody
Zoë Apr 2014
Everybody may not be known by the world.
But to somebody they are the world.
197 · Jun 2015
falling
Zoë Jun 2015
as i fall further in further
"in love"
you pull further and further away
making my landing less than pleasant
195 · Jan 2015
lovely dreaming
Zoë Jan 2015
i try to imagine,
the bright smile on your face,
the one smile that instantly fills me with happiness
as you send me these wonderful words.
they fill up my heart,
and all of a sudden i feel a bit better.
the pictures that fill my head at night,
when i am fast asleep,
leave me with full grins as i wake.
i tell you about these pictures,
the stories and wishes they create,
and i am almost surprised to know,
that you have similar stories and pictures,
that play in your head while you lay asleep at night
194 · Apr 2014
Dreams
Zoë Apr 2014
Some of our
biggest dreams
are the ones
we fear most.
And we sometimes
convince ourselves
they'll never come true.
194 · Apr 2014
We Have
Zoë Apr 2014
We have endless wishes in life
Whether it's the genie in stories
Or lists and complaints

We have endless questions
Whether it's confusion
Or wonder

We have anger within all of us
Whether it's about life
Or the people around us

We have never ending problems
Whether it's about ourselves
Or others

We have so much
About each one of us
It can't all be summed up into
Just one poem
But these are things we
All have if we know it or not
194 · Jan 2015
Truly Hurts
Zoë Jan 2015
My legs shake
And I know they will come soon
I try to let it take me
But it will not without help which i do not give
It always will come to me
Eventually but never easily
It kills me
And other things overcome me
Making me useless
Terrified
Dejected
All of this slowly kills me
Until light shines through my window
And forces me to continue this game
194 · Nov 2014
Untitled
Zoë Nov 2014
Your words touch my heart
Sending shivers down my spine
A smile pulls at the corner of my cheeks
And then I grin wide
And my face heats up and probably turns a light shade of red
I shiver and pull my knees tight to my chest
Wishing you were here
194 · Jan 2020
Things
Zoë Jan 2020
As I look around me,
everything is you.

The childish paintings on my wall,
and half of the t-shirts in my drawer.
One of the pillows on my bed,
and the bracelet on my wrist.
The gifts I got you for our anniversary,
never to be opened or cherished by you.
Your birthday in my calendar,
and your words in my head.
Every **** picture and video on my camera roll,
and even my underwear,
whose patterns match those of yours.

I'm surrounded by you still,
and it makes this utterly impossible.
193 · Nov 2014
Untitled
Zoë Nov 2014
My thoughts flow through my brain
And all of a sudden I'm mad
Your words are careless
And I know they're fake
I clench my fists
And I almost scream
My knuckles turn white
And then without thinking
I type
And type
And type some more
I finally press
enter
192 · Dec 2014
With You
Zoë Dec 2014
You hold my heart in your large hands
You hug it tight
And kiss it lightly
Your touch is so gentle
And I know for sure
It is finally safe with you
192 · Jan 2015
things i have to say
Zoë Jan 2015
it feels all wrong
but all right at the same time
it kills me though
and i almost want to cry
it's all my fault
but you know it's true
and you know i'm right
and that's what hurts the most...
191 · Apr 2023
mother
Zoë Apr 2023
You stared at me and slowly said
"You are just like your mother"
With your finger pointing in my face
Then you stepped back
Leaned up against the counter
Crossed your arms over your chest and looked satisfied

You wanted the words to cut me
To hurt me
To break my heart
To make me feel like I hurt you as much as she did

But what you didn't realize
Is that my mother is everything I ever hope to be
My mother is my greatest inspiration
My best friend

So when you said
"You are just like your mother"
A tear rolled down my cheek
Not because I was hurt
Because it was the greatest compliment I would ever get
190 · Sep 2014
Untitled
Zoë Sep 2014
Blue eye
Brown eye
Two eye
Clown eye

Pick and choose
Dump and lose

Cry to me
Cry to him
Cry to Lee
Cry to Jim

I don't care anymore.
190 · Jan 2015
...
Zoë Jan 2015
...
honestly i'm scared.
you talk and i try not to look.
it hurts too much.
words comfort me,
and i want to believe them so bad.
does it get this good?
am i dreaming?
it can't be real i finally think.
but i love you so much.
i don't care if i get hurt.
it would be worth it.
at least i have you for now.
i love you too much to do anything.
190 · Apr 2015
finally
Zoë Apr 2015
silence rings between us
but it isn't the bad kind of awkward silence.
i laugh a little
and my cheeks turn pink
"what?" he says, a smile spreading across his lips
"nothing, just happy" i say grabbing his arm
as i float through today
unable to stop grinning
i am amazed that although one person can make you so utterly unhappy
a different person can make you feel so amazingly blissful
Zoë Jan 2015
i lay here
with a stupid grin on my face,
wondering if you feel the words that he sings.
i hope almost too much that you do.
why does it always end this way?
188 · Jan 2015
Gone
Zoë Jan 2015
I don't understand
The fire inside me gone
The feeling that rang through me vanished
The voice that whispered my name silenced
There was no evidence it was there
And no reason why it left
My brain overfilled and confused
I rest my head once again
For a night filled with thoughts
And no sleep
I feel the silence in my words
The hopelessness of my plea
And I know you cannot help me know
For you have rested your head
Not to be disturbed until morning
Where you will receive my plea
And answer with all you have
Only to realize you are too late
188 · Jan 2015
when we all realize
Zoë Jan 2015
how* is this even fair?
how is it my fault?
i didn't even know!
if you don't tell me, don't blame me.
go ahead and tell the rest of the world,
but don't even try to come back here blaming me for it!
you have full control of what happened
all those nights of "tears"
were really full of new beginnings
you weren't even sad,
and there is where my biggest mistake comes to haunt me
when did i ever think that would be good?
you'll never forgive
and you will never really forget
oh, how stupid i have become
188 · Aug 2014
Untitled
Zoë Aug 2014
I'm confident
I'm proud
I'm determined
I'm happy
I'm passionate

But I just can't bring myself to do it...
I'm a wimp
188 · Feb 2015
Untitled
Zoë Feb 2015
it all kind of hurt
but it wasn't the way he swore to me
or the way he was angered by my words
or the fact that he cried
but the way he hurt him
the words he said to make him yell
the actions that made him retaliate
the threats that made his face fall
that is what hurt most
that's what sent tightness to my heart
that's what made me cringe
and that's the closest a tear has come to spilling over on my cheeks
i will never let it, spill over
show how i feel
but it was close
you should just know that part
it hurt me to know i hurt you
and nothing has ever hurt so bad
188 · Sep 2019
cure
Zoë Sep 2019
this is a textbook moment
ask the question or you'll regret it
i never realized how hard this could be
for it all to be gone in a second

i couldn't even reach it if i ran
i'm utterly helpless
all i can do is beg
my hands shake

i am quickly reassured
but how do you know it's true?
why would i say those words,
to such a fragile soul?
think, you idiot

i can't take them back so
i must explain.
i trip over my words like a nervous child
but it works

i finally hang up the phone
and realize i've been holding my breath for an hour
i exhale and return

"there's only one cure for your wounds"
he says with a wink
my throat burns but i smile
it's okay
Zoë May 2015
i fall recklessly out of reality
as quickly as i face plant into it,
stuck somewhere between truth
and my constant dreaming.
oh why? i ask my large imagination
do i constantly let you wander?
it leads me to dangerous tunnels of regret
where i am trapped in the black nothingness
of pain i have unsuccessfully tried to heal
"keep it simple" he orders
and as true as i know it is
i can't bring myself to listen to his words
so once again i lay here
overthinking every small part of my messy life
once again relying on a blank page
to cure my constant thought build up
that digs and scratches from inside me
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