I think maybe shut off
Lay down
Then the beep beep goes
Can't switch off
Can't walk away
Can't sleep

When does it get easier
When does life stop being hard

One kid goes beep beep
One goes go away
One needs homework
One needs insulin

Scared everyday
Is the school gunna ring
Is the phone going off
Is the air getting thinner

Suffocating
Trying to keep sane

I hear
Beep beep beep
All day all night
I know every noise
Every meaning

I walk around
With 1000 eyes
Staring at me
Questions after questions

The *** she's diabetic
The poor thing
Oh did you pass it down
You know she'll never
Survive
Be normal
Enjoy life
Eat sweets
Words hurt so much

But she's a fighter
She's strong
She's amazing
She'll only know these words

Each day can be a battle
But She'll always have my hand
To help her through

I love you
I'd happily say I do
But lately I'm not so sure
You work
Come home
Sleep

While I've made 3 meals
Ran after kids
Sorted birthdays
Spent all my money
To make you smile

You come in pig crap
Dinner in 5 I call
You waste half
I feel defeated
All alone
Raising 2 kids with needs

Barley surviving
Scared ill break
But I can't
The kids need someone

Weekend comes
You moan the kids want to play
See you
Do something
You say I'm tired
I've done 50 hours this week

How do I fix something
Thats breaking
Very
Very
Slowly

Why just why
At 2 years old
Does the world fight you
Bring you down
Hurt you and betrays you

But still you smile
With every jab
You cry then jump
Right back up

You never let it hold you back
You know when it's not right
You know when your high
You come for help

No matter what
Whether is hitting or silence
I know
I got you forever
I will protect you
And teach you

You call I come running
You cry I check
You scream I check
This is normal now
This is life


You are a warrior
You are sting

You hurt my son
You think it's okay
That the ony way you can hurt me
But I ill protect him with my life
No matter what

He'll see the light
He'll see the truth
You won't have him forever
He remembers the past
He'll never forget
Screaming
Leave my mum alone
Stop hurting her

He may be blinded now
But soon the truth will come out
And you'll be all alone
Where you belong
No one to hold on to
When your drowning
In your self pity

I wish I had eyes in back of my head
I watch everything
I'm scared to leave
Scared to walk the street

What if a car hits me
What if someone don't like me
What if I leave house
What will happen

Did I leave the washing on
Did I leave the light on
Did i pay the bills
Did I get  what I need

Will I have a breakdown
Will I turn to drink
Will I freak out
Will I survive the day

Can I cope today
Can I do my jobs today
Can I keep my family happy
Can I have a wash today
Do I have time to relax

Someday are harder
Someday it's calm
Someday I cry
Someday I can't move

Anxiety and mental health are real
They can't just be cured

Would you smile
Would you speak
Would you look

Would you think twice if she wasn't there
Would you smile
Would you show me love
Would you have lifted your hand
Would you have thrown me

Would you love me
Would you care
Would you take a second thought
Would you want me

If she was gone
Would you come back
Could I forgive
The abuse
The hurt
The bruises
The memories

I watch you
Fight the hurt
Fight the heartache
Fight the depression

Yet you stayed
While she pushed us away
Now your a stranger
You won't even look
Won't even smile

I just want my dad
The man
I looked upto
The dad
I loved
Adored
Treasured

The memories
They won't fade even if I try
The gigs
The laughs

Should i forget
Will you ever come back
Or should I feel
Deserted
Alone