You linger on my pillow,
sweet
but mellow,
like figs.

The scent of you,
soft, but
sweet,
like your lips.

I memorize it
and
I wonder what my scent
smells like to you.

I hope it lingers on your pillow,
very sweet,
but mellow,
like figs.

maybe Im sad because Im lonely
maybe its the other way around

maybe I sing because it fills these voids
maybe Im not that good of a singer

maybe you really had good intentions
maybe Im blind

maybe I let them all bother me
maybe I'm numb

I've used you enough
Maybe im just too crazy
But what else is there

I swear I know how to love

The truth is
it
saddens me to see
that

To see
people of
my past with
people of their
future

Perhaps I am stuck there

The truth is the
jealousy
consumes me
eats me
makes my heart pump
faster
my eyes
almost
tear

But I swear
I know how to love

I dont know
what its like to
love
perhaps thats my own fault
passing on
good ones
but
why settle

I am unsure
of
what is wrong with me
but
I swear
I swear I know how to love

its been
over a year

a year without my heart
being consumed by
the constellations in your eyes
and your hair

I've been searching
for more of them

maybe the stars are
not as bright here