Incense burn to get high
Over bathroom tiles
We Cough n Sigh
Wheeze from the smoke
We Moan n Fight
What hung on the walls of mine
Turned into piles
But a tapestry hung there too
So burn an incense on this
It matches that truth
Of a beautiful sun and moon
That hung on a cloth in the old room

A conduit for snake eyes languidly grazing minds in open space. I want to give you a Machiavellian makeover: fill your head with dreams of self success at the detriment of progress. The process to use each person in succession.

The regression to our inner lizard mind
Remind me how to be human again
Im slipping on the cloud of self love
Forgetting the love around me
Let me come back to ground, my mind sound
In tune around the static electricity

Another silent yelling match with eyes as mouths
Stares of betrayl and self-disgust
Shot at each other while we sit and rust
An embarrasing tantrum without a blush
Withouy regret
Till your words split me in half
I cant tell if i love or hate
What i have

Disclaimer below navel
Warning: Person may
Be vulnerable to you

Ashes singe inside throats
      Where voices are caught
A heavy weight to tote
      Death claims every thought

Words turn into dust
      Submerged
A cast iron soul
      Begins to rust

Promise of a great
      Abyss as lust

move past me
skip over me
where's your peace
where's your qi?

You're all over the place
in the other guys dorms
you're all in my face
angrier than a storm

I thought you moved in
I thought I liked you
but you moved on
to who knows who

Cloaked in black velvet and silver adorned skull peices. A halo of anxiety sits over my head. The intrusive pornographic thoughts rumble like holograms in front of my minds eye. Iris's and lillys. Dandelions and sunflowers. I want to stick my fingers in all the flowers and taste their pollen on my lips. Fantasia salivation elicted with cowbell bass drops. *** sells in seconds, lust in hours, love in years

Feeling  like a ****** journalist. Her green.hair, another with straight bangs. A septum and ****** peircing peirce me straight through the heart. Its vanity but its a start.
Let me wrap you in eagle feathers and wolf fur. Let me exercise your cowskull traumas, raging buffalo hormones into rebirth
Huff and blow moaned words into ear canals as I enter your eternal.
Infernal like the lusts of hell
Ethanol and bossom busts sell in seconds, Lost in hours with love to fear.
Gold halo of Anxiety paired with a silver skull clad in black velvet
Thrusts of the pelvic
Release whats held in
Redesigned pulpit seldom held words in
Align with me the divinity felt in
*** (in)finite feelings that last in transnce. Slowly peeling away strips of skin to permanance.
Feeling an earnest sense of wonderment. No time to wonder what it meant when impermance is permanent

Smoke cigarettes for the hurt when life has turned to **** but you heard it when i said i love you and you turned a bit. Looked in my eyes and i caught a glimpse of a future id like to witness. Didnt hear a word you said but i saw the world in your eyes instead. Tried to listen but my brain went dead
No words to say when you glow infared. Hotter than the spectrum
of sight. Glowing infared,
Youre hotter than spectrums of light so burn me like Arizona sunlight
Slap ***, hand shaped sunburn from a liquid honey night. *** on lap, lap up the *** like the last watersource, pour it on my face until gasps of air you hear. Taste your pollen near my lips nectarine fallen on your chest.

Feel the lasting affects
Of sexs' (in)finitely affixed fixation on transience. Glowing infared and ambient. Flowing energy in the pits of sacral chakras, returned to the crown and passed back down. Circulating intuitive lessons, divine bits of each other imbued in fission, fuse them into   living. Seperated by the gods as two seperate beings, unite mind, body, soul
Freeing all in estatic feeling.
Peeling all the tragic sealed in
Two seperate beings fleeing
Into impermanance
Towards a permanent form of seeing
3-4-5
666 eyes healing

I'm sorry If I annoyed you yesterday
With my incessant affection
I was all over you far too much
I know that you still have to make that decision
And all I could do was think of myself
So I will stand by your side
patiently while you decide
between him and I.

Maybe we grew up too quickly
Blinded youth to work adeptly
A great apathy harnessed aptly
And rapidly we said,
"*******"

Reminisced in syrupy spirits
Oak-aged in malt, turned viscous and slow
Like the neurons that are supposed to send happiness shooting through my brain.
Slow.. slow.. but oh so steady. Like watching a grandfather tick and on every tock the happiness fades away and age gathers with dust on old lineolium floors.

I'm a sucker for sleeping pills, herbal remedies (not real medicines though), malted barelys and strong hops. All things that make being a pile of concious earth easier to deal with. All things that take me one day closer to being a lump of unconcious earth, scored in a fire and reduced to ashes.

Sometimes the notion of godliness and of an everlasting holy Spirit floods over me and I'm transcended into the wind. Then reality. The one of many I'm stuck in, ***** me back in like a black hole. A black hole, void of feeling plagued with death, politics, corruption, greed, war, poverty, racism, brutality. A reality where my fingers type on a phone screen and where I actually think I say things and where I actually think I make love only to realize none of its real. I'm not godly nor transcended. I'm a useless lump of earth bound to descend into unconcious sleep forever.

Everything I wrote was about you
Left me looking like a fool
Because you used me like Im a tool
A tool of love which you exhausted
I cant work myself now
Give me a motor
So this tool can drive away from you
And forget all the good memories
like the way I always do

Sparkling wastes
Supernovas trash
Donned with a baby's face
and Hearts to match
Run through the gates
Looking to catch
Glimpses of heavens race
Sewn in a patch
Drawn in lace
The winners are dispatched
to Eden without a trace
Of their shared pasts

Stamens float to the wavy sea
Sights gaze lazily
Through cloudy haze
Your beauty to me
Likens a sun on rainy days

Help me have some numbness (Pain)
Gain ego, lessons (Experience)
Help others discomforts (Heal)
Gaining Transcendence (Overcome)

Bellowing words hollow
Believed to be amicable
      Veneered in Holy ***
Spitting crosses
Dotting others I's
Oh Jesus Christ, what have we become?

I keep trying to write this letter
but it's too hard to reminisce
about the times we had
that were cloaked in sadness

I was to afraid of the girl
I used to love to tell her I
even liked her so when I moved and
another came around like her
I didnt hesitate to try and keep
her around but instead I pushed her away

Maybe I need to just let it all go?
Maybe this is the time I dont write it all down?
But maybe just leave you with the promise
of a great birthday present and a full heart
because you will get exactly what you wanted
while im downtown at a party
And I can finally leave from where I started when I
first saw her the first day of freshman year.

Be aware and mindful

Get up, stretch  

Dont ignore the shadows

I got these scars on my psyche
Tryin to harm who I might be
Alarms sound, frightening
The child inside me trying to hide all his feelings
Whose still trying to find some healing
But the worst is what he's fearing
Find the middle ground between searing hate and unlikely hopes

Love lined
In 4/4s and 3/5ths    
Off tone but sublimed
Hunch right to see ya'
Like the leaning tower of Pizza
inclined to take ya out for pizza
Looking like a mona lisa look a alike
But they got you mistook
You're your own woman
The best alive in my book
The best in my life understood me
Never took me for granted
Instead she planted a seed in me
Watch me grow, grant wishes infinitely
Sowed love but never sold love, give that away for free  
Grow above the traumas facing me
We can grow above the traumas
Plain to see we can grow above
Whats pained us to be human
Its not all slayer and doom in
This world. Theres beauty in humanity. In you and me.
I can see the beauty in you
Hope youll be able to see whats plain
to see
The divine beauty within your deeds

I was never wanted
I am everlasting
Whats past is passing
Savvy speech casting
Threw into action
Helped with latching
Onto problems patching
stitches that were catching
threads, exposing ashes

Unforunate Friday glooms
My job fell through
And my homes a mess...

A person I love in tragedy
Its not mine but it's empathy

.....
Feelin like today I'll fall asleep
When the sun comes up
Stay up all night drink with me
3 days later daylights up
Still with a half full cup
Don't if the sun fell South
Off the earth or we slept through

The coke. The life. The weekend.
Today on Sunday, it's ending
Or just beginning. Soak in time. Its so slowly leaking, so waste a few years you won't be missin. One by one we will be singing happiness.

I miss the desert
I miss the sea
I miss your beauty
Oscillation of your body
I feel so high but I'm so low
Probably 8800 ft from sea level
Come down Come down

Ontology of self
Radiant sun and half dewy moon
dripping tsunami ripples

Over Earths curves
lucious peaks and valleys
her moaned words

Wash over me
Beauty, is what I have seen
in reflections of ...

Ontology of Self
My god is everything
within me

I want to feel solidarity in your touch
I want you to feel love in mine

I will do so as such
I will not let time

Slip... Slip.. Slip

Through my fingers
As your skin turns to dust

Returns to molten hands
Ones which disintegrated love

Ones which turned your heart to sands

That Slip....Slip...Slip

Into the winds with which it ran
To the worlds end
Traversing every land

But I wait for your return

As a tree
Our roots of love entangled, roots on which we stand.

A light pulsing memory
drenched in acid and alcohol
Each pulsing wave hits my heart
like the bass from October's start

The dim sounds of sadness
echoed inside
and my life was put aside
I realized there is more
to our lives

There was one think I never told you about
the reason I loved you so much.
That one time we tripped, and I lied down to touch your hand
while listening to your favorite band, after your favorite night,
I imagined something I could never imagine before so vividly.
I saw us sitting on a white fenced, wrap around porch.
Only trees, fields and mason jars and grandkids around us.
We laughed about life and what a joy it was to be in love.
How amazing it was.
That is your lasting impression on me.
You finally made me believe in love,
which is why I loved you so much.

Wrapped in the silk you spin with your energy
Your eyes, like beacon lights, follow me
With you, I can take on the world confidently

Like a rhythm and melody, you are in my veins
Your body celestial; same as the sun and moon  
Too bright to look in your eyes
Voice soothing, I drift and swoon

Atoms moving, you're collected from all points of time
Pearlescent  magic looms around your aura, you shine
You're flora, smell of oils. Cedar and Pine
You're fauna, ruler of kingdoms, theirs and mine

Subservience and obedience
Removal of societal delinquents

Send them to the isolation.
Let their mind sit in stagnation
or torturous relegation
in an island nation of one

Those who don't fit in, dont belong.
Who needs God when you have Pop songs?  
Who needs to change with age when loves gone?

No thoughts cause you're a pawn
Do as you're taught and sing-a-long

Art, Science and Truth are
Tragedy, God and Heroism

Too much of that
Too much cynicism.

Do as your told and Be happy.
Thats the only lesson

So sit down and listen.
Dont question!

Life keeps getting weirder
Love keeps getting more real

Love shouldn't be based in reality
It has always been fantastical
A Hallmark movie type of fantasy
I guess no one can live up to that.

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Glass Ceilings are breaking
The shards have fallen all over life
I guess its better to have someone
bandage the wounds
than balance on top
a glass ceiling

For when it breaks, they'll need someone
to bandage their wounds as well.

I want to take acid under an open sky  
Listen to tame impala and drink orange juice

I want to lay on the earth and let dust coat me
See stars glisten, shining upon saguaros

And for once not just because I want to be high
its been a long road, still a long road to go

I want to melt into life. My labor to bear fruits
Believe in myself and be cocky

cause its been a long road, still a long road to go.

but i know where the **** im going now.

Wanna travel with the flow but I'm a mountain getting blown in the wind
Sand eroding my stature
Destroying my posture
Psyche needs sutures..
I don't know my future

Youre a Laquacious gregarious
Persona with a heart of vulnerability
Loving is your best ability
Set up barriers in reality
Cause the spiders are aquarius
Rise with hearts ferrying us
Love made new, shadows fearing us
Shadows daring us to make mistakes
But truth cant repent, no evil is carrying us. This is love not lust.

The rapid rapping outside
echoes for days on the inside
until it finally resides
and leaves me to lie, lie, lie LIE!

Wrapped together
Pieces of me in enamel
Embalmed in enamour

Right and left brain sampled
Pieces of me scrambled
Personalities i see in myself
Pampoured and enamoured

Trust in whats felt.
But love is hampered
In personalities i see in myself
A tragic hell pondered
A beautiful future floundered

Hold true to a certain candor
What i show in public is
prospective grandeur
A slight slander
To those who think they know what i meant.
Its really just provocative pander.
Cause im really hellbent
On destroying your grammar of self

And mine. restore my health. this world is asinine. But at least i found her. But im sounder without her.

Inhale Exhale
I die along the way
Take a pill, it'll all be okay
Refill my cup
Reheal my heart
It used to be in pain
Only place is up... From here
I thought I was insane
But it's just a part of life
And the silly games she plays
Sometimes I lie awake
With drugs in my system
Thinking about the next day
I'm not sure if I even listen
Society seems to be missin
Something it needs to say
Trying to find the right words
I'll lie awake, searching for the meaning of this place. This earth
I inhabit, this place that gave birth to us
Still stuck in philosophical queries that must explain our values and trusts
Our virtues that must be hurried into action,
A time of peace,
token to those such
known to be a disciples or much more

Gods and Goddesses inhabit the world around us, that ground us to the core.
Concrete streets and light rails fill us with more than we ever needed
Just heavenly beats and hiking trails
But not everyone can understand what I'm seeing so what being is to being me is a different trip than our believing in God
Or another facade dedicated to something old.
I think humanity will fold unless we be who we are.
One life told over a Millenia
Once sold but now sowed into the Earth in rest or life
In death or revived

Its time for us to get along
Stop bombing each other
Talk it out and be one
Like we have always done
But on a world scale that
agrees and prevails to expand
Us into a world
in our world
We didn't realize we could cure and heal

I open my eyes to watch yours close
I hold my breath to feel
Anything
A soft hand is retracted
A shudder silenced
Arms that hold me together are my own
Proximity offers no closure
Unseen verses of your mind
I curl up and unravel

-nKGB

Four people dead
Dreaming feverish
Faces flush red

Dry, The river's fish are dead
Stinking in sweat
Bloated sidewalk bread

Eggs fried on blacktop special
The heat restless
City boiling in a kettle

Heated up red
Four people dead
More to come
The summer heat has settled in

Fuel my destuctive habits
Moneys advantage
Makes you feel like an addict

Timid to rap
To lap up the offers at your lap
Sinning at the alter
Trapped in faults, saunter around
Drugs polevault me, lapse
Into an aloof stupid goof
Sad I cant act my mindtrack
With tact, the passion enacted
Then retracted
Feel the lacks in my step
Lackidascial trap
Unable to unwrap myself
From the anxiety
Depression saps the present
Destroys my effervescent
I don't know how to cope
But wrapping myself in comatoast
Copastetic roasts, 6 drug cocktail
More most of the time until time I
Can't tell. More than a month gone by
and here I am still moving like a snail
in the emotional realm
You're a wildfire burning with salt
On a flattop grill, feel like a slab of
meat, butchered and killed
Want you to wrap your fingers around my neck until I can't feel my breath
Scratches on me but I can't feel
Drugs got me numb
Thinking they will heal

Im sick and healing
negative energy receding
the past feeling in me
has reappeared.

---------------------------------------------------------------­-------------------------- Clean slate, anxious of fate, relishing inner turmoil and debate.
Yet to myself loyal.

Negative energy projected on me. Imprinted to be part of my psyche. The energy is faulty, can not control my souls heartbeat. Time moved hindered in fear of defeat, now It moves with a swift recede and back again like the ocean beneath my feet. Melting into sand, it washes out but I keep in the same position, on my own ground. Not into your negative imprint ocean; A sea that see's my defeat, poised to pull my feet
from beneath me.

You are not all that you think you are
You're better than that

You are mosaics splashed with tropical colors and hazel eyes.

You are a collecter, not of lost time. But of your own dreams and loves.

You are a creator with too many points of inspiration.

You are lovely

The dark side of life's fears the grace with which you handle problems

Because your better than that

You are Artisan.

Sleep eludes
My cold resides
Addiction imbued
Chemicals inside

Casomorphines from cheese
Healing honey from bees
Etizolam from chemists
Coke from friend visits

Come.. come lag with me
stuck in the never
Between death n immortality
in the lag time
A split fractal reality
Abyssal bag and a sack of
Abnormalities      
Dug deep into timelines
Paths of probability
Dug deep into forever
Chance and synchronicities    
come lag ... come lag with me
Be stuck in never forever
Lag with me
**** with me, tantric compatability
*** ....... with me
Fantasia lips salivating            
Pupils dialating
Come.. come lag with me    
Our hearts palpatating    
2 sets of 3 eyes elevating                        
Come   .... *** in unison
Lay in this bed with me
Share in ****** medicine, watch the time passin
come  ... come forever with me
Lag time is everlasting

Is your 50s swing off, did you fall 70 years into the future. Are you a grandma or not. Will you bathe me with scrubs and brushes, will i belittle our nephews for having what i had not?

Are you wearing your mental illness like a fashionable cowl? Something to adorn your mind and protect your back from the owls, snakes and wolves on prowl. Oh Grandma, am i just red riding hood falling into your wolf trap?

Are you a fellow or a gal? Are you a pen pal that i can one day use as a pillow when im hollow? Sillohuete to
coddle Am I too deep to run through the gallows with? I swear im not a sith, im just a grey, with frayed ends singing deoendency oh codependeny laid like a necessity in front of me but will i grasp? or everlast within soulesence?

Happy home
Home sick
Sick of home
Don't go home and leave me
                                   regret me
                                   forget me
                                   replace me


-nKGB

**** God-****
Eloquent speech
For Today

My Mind stuck in an infinite paradox
    Zen like nothingness
An endless duality of beauty and death
Anger fills the voids between ***** of energy resonating love

Strikes of lightning fly past; fleeting passions of my life ride with them into the unknown results of future and past.

Im recognizing these thoughts as not my own.
Byproducts from chemical initiation and social engagement.

The only thing is that these thoughts are parts of me, past and future.
I keep wanting to live in the here and now but
my own here and now has to be so concerned with
the tomorrow and yesterday that he doesnt know where he is in time.

Unjust jungle strained for air
Nauseous gas paired
with all our oxygen

           Mouths agape, breathing
       words of toxic kin.
           Ideas are asphyxiated; impaired

                              What is this world and what do I hear?

Its all of us gasping
Reaching for those who care