Perilous involvement with a tattooed serpent
Her tongue moved how it shouldn't
Split in half with vapid, rapid movement
Her bite paralyzed me
All my muscles seized
Then she left alive in the back of a hearse
Magic like the smoke on her lips when it dispearsed
Guess you could call her a curse
Had me immersed in every thought and ideal of hers

Ashes singe inside throats
      Where voices are caught
A heavy weight to tote
      Death claims every thought

Words turn into dust
      Submerged
A cast iron soul
      Begins to rust

Promise of a great
      Abyss as lust

Sparkling wastes
Supernovas trash
Donned with a baby's face
and Hearts to match
Run through the gates
Looking to catch
Glimpses of heavens race
Sewn in a patch
Drawn in lace
The winners are dispatched
to Eden without a trace
Of their shared pasts

Slipping through the cracks
Melting into puddles
Drip drab dribbling down
Inbetween and runny sides
Egg yolk brains being fried
Long thoughts shorten
Shortening thrown in eyes
Swinging wildly and blind
Borrow some eyes
If you dont mind
Drib drap dribbly
Slippery in the cracks
Of these dusty sidewalks

Awoken from a 4 1/2 month dream
Find myself hanging by my feet
30,000 above and swinging wildly
Nose bleeding like waterfalls
Eyes suffering drought in Arizona
                           The dream was about you
                           Unsure if it was reality
                           It sure wasn't fake though
A "steal" heart shall sit in my chest
because you stole the one that beats
Swing, Bleed, Suffer some more
Fake airplane air makes me wonder
Where I am whenever I awoke
Captain, "To the right lies Kansas City"
I knew those lights in the distance
They twinkled like your ***** eyes.

My life is turning upside down
Spinning 1000mph around and around
Throwing up my guts and secrets
What's inside has come out
A 5 year old me screams and shouts
Trade one for another, teeth grit, I get lit
Abuse for abuse so I say **** ****
But when I'm all alone and sober
All I can do is pout nd cry
I can't get any of it out of my mind.
Keep up with me as my nose fills with lines.
I fill the the lines or this paper with the horror of my life time

Anti meta
Comcrete set up  
Setters of faulty
Metaphors for people
Who lift up lofty heads
But live up to sheeple
Templetes originated
from deathly dates
With themselves
us who help also need help    
Dark and light felt
Then dealt like oh well
Welp in the wealth of emotion
a potion of feathery pelts donned
Like ethreal dust held on songs
time pawned from before time
When life was long,
horizons  dawn  held in cymatics
of gongs, elastic and long light
Semantics derived of mind
Conciousness aligned like nature upon paper
The concious cant arrive at a savior. Plight of those lost in the layered  reality catered to totality
the  fader is  banality
Launches fate in fame and fatality

Waves shake
A painters boat
Stumble and fall
in the lake
A painter's contacts
will sink
Humble and tall
A painter stands
without clarity
to his sight
Grumble and call
with his lisp
A painter pounds
fists with rage
Crumble and fall
A painter lives
without a clue
how to paint
Struggle till solved
A painter fights
to paint thy self

Oh Aquarian
Have a gander
The moon's asleep
Her cloud blankets
Block out the light

Soft to the skin
Wet black air
Lessons, Questions,
Answers, Pensions
Rise and sink with
The puddles on the street

Reflections in the water
Are always shifting
Clarity equals deceit
A puddle cant be
Placid when it rains

A drop here or
There may be fate
Aquarian lets all in so
The puddle grows

Streetlights off, Sunlight on
Every drop is free
But the Aquarian weeps
He cannot see his puddle
Sun and evaporation
A puddle cease to be
Now, Aquarian's mind
Is not so soggy

Youre a Laquacious gregarious
Persona with a heart of vulnerability
Loving is your best ability
Set up barriers in reality
Cause the spiders are aquarius
Rise with hearts ferrying us
Love made new, shadows fearing us
Shadows daring us to make mistakes
But truth cant repent, no evil is carrying us. This is love not lust.

Glazed eyes
Tired sighs
Lost interest
Leave the room
Question that guy
smells like ****, you high?
No officer with a sigh
Detained and searched
Reasonably
Booked and Printed
All I was doing was
eating popcorn
and playing videogames

Procession of Recession
Regression of Profession
Art Erudition, An Elicition
Of all projection upon electation
Ethereal nation, Art re-reprensatation
Cubism in formation
Van Gogh in  elation
Picasso in sensation
I go in formation
A lasso in preperation
For all thats been hold
In permanent erasion
An erosion of obession
Lesson in raising whats been
Held in decision
But whats next
is held in preperation
whats next is held in preperation
An alteration of sensation
Elastic time reprimatation.

Smoke rolls off your lips
As raindrops drip
Off the roof, above where you sit
Barely missing the lit end
Of your cigarrette
And ill make you a bet
By the end of this night
None of this will mean ****
Youll be to drunk to remember it

Youll run down back alleys
With girls you jusy met from cali
Away from cops tryna tally
You up as an arrest
Rally the rest
Into a **** sesh like youre towlie
Find all your friends have left
Have to hitch-hike back to campus
A drunken high mess

But when the next test comes
Youll drink away your stress
Head to the closest party
Spend all your money on drugs, not rent
But when that doesnt help you vent
Climb into bed with that hottie you just met

Yeah *****
This is college
After this were all set... right?
Or should we think bout whats next? ... G'night

A tongue misplaced in heart
Kissing the wrong scars
              From the start

Scars not visibly marked
Rather emotionally arched
             Through Personality

Hurry beautiful tongue
              Swiftly Dart
Catch these scars
Create them into art

Such an insecure person
Only find security in illusions.
Fiend for everyones acceptance
Solace of escapism, its necessity ...

Double edged knife that cuts me and those closest the deepest.

Oh how beautiful
To see impermanence in us
Ourselves and others fall apart

Oh how suitable
To see thus changes in disgust
Lying uncomfortably in the heart

We dread and disgrace
Ourselves and society
Opposite of Bohemian Art

I keep having these emotional outbreaks
and when I feel like this, I need to tell you
But my words get jumbled up and I cant keep my emotions under control
Whenever I go to
I think it has to do with my worst fear
The thing that eats away at me everyday
Claws at my tendons causing my muscles to die
Stagnates my blood causing my arteries to clog and brittle my  bones
It's crimson needled fingers are powered by one hand underneath my gums and rips my teeth out one by one while the other hand slides my fingernails out of my skin
Stalking Seeking Slithering through my skin it crawls inside
and stalks my spinal cord all the way to my skull, plucking spinal cords along the way
Seeking for my brain and
Slithering into every neuron and cell
It rots every single one
And decays the rest of me
I am numb cause I'm afraid no one cares.
No-one has cared at all
I knew from the first christmas
that I was a mistake
In middle school
it was made clear again
when everyone bullied me
Then again in High School
where teenage apathy reigned
But now, I really don't know if anyone cares
and your answer means so much to me
"Do you care?"
Cause if I can't have you as a lover
I want to love you as a friend
Cause I can see you doing great in the end

Disclaimer below navel
Warning: Person may
Be vulnerable to you

I miss the desert
I miss the sea
I miss your beauty
Oscillation of your body
I feel so high but I'm so low
Probably 8800 ft from sea level
Come down Come down

Subservience and obedience
Removal of societal delinquents

Send them to the isolation.
Let their mind sit in stagnation
or torturous relegation
in an island nation of one

Those who don't fit in, dont belong.
Who needs God when you have Pop songs?  
Who needs to change with age when loves gone?

No thoughts cause you're a pawn
Do as you're taught and sing-a-long

Art, Science and Truth are
Tragedy, God and Heroism

Too much of that
Too much cynicism.

Do as your told and Be happy.
Thats the only lesson

So sit down and listen.
Dont question!

Fuel my destuctive habits
Moneys advantage
Makes you feel like an addict

Cloaked in black velvet and silver adorned skull peices. A halo of anxiety sits over my head. The intrusive pornographic thoughts rumble like holograms in front of my minds eye. Iris's and lillys. Dandelions and sunflowers. I want to stick my fingers in all the flowers and taste their pollen on my lips. Fantasia salivation elicted with cowbell bass drops. *** sells in seconds, lust in hours, love in years

Feeling  like a ****** journalist. Her green.hair, another with straight bangs. A septum and ****** peircing peirce me straight through the heart. Its vanity but its a start.
Let me wrap you in eagle feathers and wolf fur. Let me exercise your cowskull traumas, raging buffalo hormones into rebirth
Huff and blow moaned words into ear canals as I enter your eternal.
Infernal like the lusts of hell
Ethanol and bossom busts sell in seconds, Lost in hours with love to fear.
Gold halo of Anxiety paired with a silver skull clad in black velvet
Thrusts of the pelvic
Release whats held in
Redesigned pulpit seldom held words in
Align with me the divinity felt in
*** (in)finite feelings that last in transnce. Slowly peeling away strips of skin to permanance.
Feeling an earnest sense of wonderment. No time to wonder what it meant when impermance is permanent

Smoke cigarettes for the hurt when life has turned to **** but you heard it when i said i love you and you turned a bit. Looked in my eyes and i caught a glimpse of a future id like to witness. Didnt hear a word you said but i saw the world in your eyes instead. Tried to listen but my brain went dead
No words to say when you glow infared. Hotter than the spectrum
of sight. Glowing infared,
Youre hotter than spectrums of light so burn me like Arizona sunlight
Slap ***, hand shaped sunburn from a liquid honey night. *** on lap, lap up the *** like the last watersource, pour it on my face until gasps of air you hear. Taste your pollen near my lips nectarine fallen on your chest.

Feel the lasting affects
Of sexs' (in)finitely affixed fixation on transience. Glowing infared and ambient. Flowing energy in the pits of sacral chakras, returned to the crown and passed back down. Circulating intuitive lessons, divine bits of each other imbued in fission, fuse them into   living. Seperated by the gods as two seperate beings, unite mind, body, soul
Freeing all in estatic feeling.
Peeling all the tragic sealed in
Two seperate beings fleeing
Into impermanance
Towards a permanent form of seeing
3-4-5
666 eyes healing

Incense burn to get high
Over bathroom tiles
We Cough n Sigh
Wheeze from the smoke
We Moan n Fight
What hung on the walls of mine
Turned into piles
But a tapestry hung there too
So burn an incense on this
It matches that truth
Of a beautiful sun and moon
That hung on a cloth in the old room

So if your reading this.. You can probably tell I'm drunk and lonely
I don't know if you know, but the reason I keep writing was because of you
The reason I kept breathing was because of the way you spoke

You're calming cadence in your voice spoke to my uneasy soul
That has always been shaken but never stirred
Yet you asked me if our kiss wouldn't mean a thing
and I thought that it would not
I was used to people caring
but when someone did not
I released all of my love
... and now I realize that it was my mistake
to live the way I have my entire life
now I'm not sure how to fix it

You're still drowning but now so am I
but perhaps their is a chance for us
to doggie-paddle our way to safety

Reprimanded cityscapes
Land fated in concrete slates
Date with disaster
A trait of nuerosis. Faster and complusive
Make moves on asphalt, elusive
Straight abusive of late
Centuries to make lenses of fate
Baited humanity
Takes debates of philosophies, psychologies to heart
Makes them fate
Mythologies and anthologies
Satiate the reasin we procreate
To recreate humanity in gods vision as we see today
Irregularities and tragic parodys parry us back to where we began. A ferry from the lqnd of eden. An apple eaten
Adam and Eve forbidden, corrosive and up for biddin'
poison inlayed in veins
You aint kiddin when you say youll eat my brain.
Sin and evil slain, i run back and forth in place between the yin and yang

You aint lyin when you say your insane. I love it baby
its just change not sense
In inflamed with your scent
Smell it everywhere i go
Youre millions to cents
Like a fairy lullaby or maybe Khoas
You shake, maybe we could lay in intamacy for infinity
A love song this became
Cadence inlayed in the movement of streets that seperate us. In sheets that penetrate us.
Imperative lust, imperfect trust
Who are you? a cusp between picses and aries? do you carry all that i felt and shared. Take care but hear in my lair, defeated lain upon slated heroes shared upon plated zeroes
Old ideas pirroueted like leos on a dance stage. Im a leo on this stage but you lay in my bed not sure if all i felt and shared is truly cared for.

Life keeps getting weirder
Love keeps getting more real

Love shouldn't be based in reality
It has always been fantastical
A Hallmark movie type of fantasy
I guess no one can live up to that.

-------------------------------------------------

Glass Ceilings are breaking
The shards have fallen all over life
I guess its better to have someone
bandage the wounds
than balance on top
a glass ceiling

For when it breaks, they'll need someone
to bandage their wounds as well.

Dont be afraid
Fears will tear you apart

I know from experience.

unbelievably

I dont know what to say

fear

in this world, Im scared

unreluctantly

warfare striving today

here

imperialism re-declared

Im never going to be completely there

For you

Ill be too caught up in myself
In my drugs

While you're ******* everyone and everything

I didnt even realize how much it hurt then
But I do now

Maybe ill try to be all there next time
Maybe itll be real love
instead of lust

Maybe ill try harder
Maybe ill kick all these addictions

To people
to you
To Drugs

Maybe im being neurotic
and you're actually a good person

and Im insane

Maybe we grew up too quickly
Blinded youth to work adeptly
A great apathy harnessed aptly
And rapidly we said,
"*******"

Wrapped together
Pieces of me in enamel
Embalmed in enamour

Right and left brain sampled
Pieces of me scrambled
Personalities i see in myself
Pampoured and enamoured

Trust in whats felt.
But love is hampered
In personalities i see in myself
A tragic hell pondered
A beautiful future floundered

Hold true to a certain candor
What i show in public is
prospective grandeur
A slight slander
To those who think they know what i meant.
Its really just provocative pander.
Cause im really hellbent
On destroying your grammar of self

And mine. restore my health. this world is asinine. But at least i found her. But im sounder without her.

Help me have some numbness (Pain)
Gain ego, lessons (Experience)
Help others discomforts (Heal)
Gaining Transcendence (Overcome)

Money can sweep up blood, sweat and tears easier then a mop and broom.

The guitar strings think of you when they play this tune
The C chord is the curvature of your body when you lay gracefully
The G chord is the grandeur of your personality in public
The A chord is your accent when you say good morning
The D chord is your demeanor all the time
The F chord is how your hair falls on your shoulders
The E chord is how I will love you eternally

The water slowly crept in
Bleeding nose while
The low lept to a fin
Drowning lungs pile
The thoughts of sin
Have another drinking binge
As my mind tires
and your lungs singe
with the blitherd feeling
of drowning, sinking
in loose hinges of tongue, mouth
and coldly bluing water
What of you're father
will he stop you at the alter
drowning you in tethered ropes
beaten and battered hopes
hither-ed by the sinking
and slithering to Mariana trench
Hades is looking for you
someone to tie to his bench
with a wedding ring
someone who can sing
You ******* *****

It's hard to understand

A Rockstar with a drug problem

A Literary type with wine tasting ability

A business man keen on social sense

A Lover craving spiritual connection and growth

Layers of fallen leaves in autumn
Piles of gold and red and orange

Football fan with a blue jersey

Homeless but with a vigil eye
For those who try to hard

An addict to anyone who loves
Caring to much to touch
Love that comes unbound
All too quick and all too much

I am all I write above
Some of it lies....  to myself

A dove with a heavy heart
singing in my mind
Flying for a shelter of like-minded doves.

But who am I this time?
Rockstar, Lush,  Lover, Addict, Salesperson

I am a writer, or so I think...

Especially when I drink

I am all those things
I am assertion
Of life with many layers

Like other living beings
Like tree rings
Something you don't see
till lacerations
Cut the skin, cut the bark

Personality bleeds out
That's why I run to the closest person
Not the best
And I doubt it'll work out

She doesn't understand
I'm a Rockstar, Lush, Lover, Addict, Salesperson

Consumerist soul raging against itself
Artist running faucets of stealth
Hiding behind words
And guitar chords

She doesn't understand what I am.

A dove with a heavy heart
singing in my mind
Flying for a shelter of like-minded doves.

An addict to anyone who loves
Caring to much to touch
Love that comes unbound
All too quick and all too much

Nothing will ever love me
The way that I do it
Except for ******(e)
She'll comfort me
with a disappointing face
She'll make me realize
so much but nothing
She'll make me dull
but feel completely alive
Oh how I wish I could find my ******(e)

Happy home
Home sick
Sick of home
Don't go home and leave me
                                   regret me
                                   forget me
                                   replace me


-nKGB

I'd rather not go out on Halloween
Rather stay inside and
Summon the dead

Invite them in from the cold
For some tea and a warm bed

The rapid rapping outside
echoes for days on the inside
until it finally resides
and leaves me to lie, lie, lie LIE!

Has your ice hardened or am I still breaking through
Warm the ice up, let in some truth
He will never be there for you like I
And you could move away for proof
I'll still be on you like hot on soup

Over the past year,
I lost some of my hope for humanity
And my love for the world.

I tired to stop caring.
But I couldn't nor would I
Yet I could for a small while

I felt I was heading towards insanity.
Just another brick in the wall. Another tile on the floor.

All around me, zombies i saw. So scared.. so ******* scared of the future forever more.

...

But I feel alive again for the first time in months.

The darkness of the world while your spirituality blooms is as uncomfortable as large summer moths by your bed side.

Creeping in my veins
Settled in my skull
I Hate Myself
Racing thoughts,
The dark takes a hold
I Hate Myself
Emptied out my organs of love,
An empty hull
I Hate Myself
Night swells up
The dark thoughts are culled
I Hate Myself
Pouring out my lymph nodes
Taking control, the only voices I hear
"I Hate Myself, You Have A Trigger to Pull"

Paradoxical Contradiction
Left-Handed Asphyxiation
Logical Degradation
Clerical Dehydration
Inundated with Unintended Information


Silently Yelling about naive importance

I flip through webpages
All of them, so amazing, unique
I forget all of them the next day

Come.. come lag with me
stuck in the never
Between death n immortality
in the lag time
A split fractal reality
Abyssal bag and a sack of
Abnormalities      
Dug deep into timelines
Paths of probability
Dug deep into forever
Chance and synchronicities    
come lag ... come lag with me
Be stuck in never forever
Lag with me
**** with me, tantric compatability
*** ....... with me
Fantasia lips salivating            
Pupils dialating
Come.. come lag with me    
Our hearts palpatating    
2 sets of 3 eyes elevating                        
Come   .... *** in unison
Lay in this bed with me
Share in ****** medicine, watch the time passin
come  ... come forever with me
Lag time is everlasting

Be aware and mindful

Get up, stretch  

Dont ignore the shadows

When you begin to peel
the orange of strife
you are revealed
a bitter truth
about rebirth of a
sweet, colorly loof
concealed by an orangey shell
trying to show us
sweetness in life