My bodies numb,
Tingling, burning , electric zaps
Chronic pain.
Caged emotions not properly tamed
Engulfing my body,
Bandaids can’t soothe
Medicine can only cover up the wounds momentarily
Emotional discord
Physical pain
Numb

Intricate bodies,
One misfire in the complexity,
Devastating change, never physically the same
Atlas one must go back to the saying
Seize the moment
The black shadows can engulf you rapidly

Inside my brain
My lower skull
Base of blood barrier
There dwells black toxic putty
Nerves frazzled
Isolation with my bed buddy
I return to the revolving door
of western medicine
I believe a shaman,
A medicine man
Is the only way to **** out
the toxic putty

To the point
A sharp pen free form to the paper
No thinking pure soul
Need not elaborate
Simple freedom
Direct interpretation

Butterscotch kisses
Under the tree
Forgot our past
Years under the tree
Butterscotch kisses
No more
I didint forget
Butterscotch kisses

Black holes swell on logic,
but collect on fantasy.
Intercept the middle of the the fat lady,
the belt still squeezes.
Life still kicks,
Black holes squeeze on logic,
but always collect on fantasy.
Imagination wins evertime

Sinking couch
Warm blanket
Still mind
Neck melting
Body healing
Chill

I lost my wife in Vegas,
Pink dress with white shoes
My socks are *****
I’ve walked for miles
Gazing in window shops
I see my reflection in the window
I must return to Vegas
My wife in a pink dress
My gambling addiction

I miss life,
Beat myself down
into the ground
No shovel needed
No direct shock
Piercing my temple
Mental vs physical
It must be just a state of mind

Sparkling hot love,
Fresh water,
Warm bones,
Weary travels
Broken down
A hot bath,
My little rubber ducky
Floats,
My soul smiles

Mother Earth
Weary
Dismantled
Umbilical cord severed
Mother Earth
Weary
Dismantled
We cut our lifeforce
One last breath
The dust rains down

Deers and elves,
Snowflakes,
Mistletoe,
Family,
Santa,
Neatly wrapped packages
Not a penny in my pocket
I’m alone
I am the Grinch
Jim Beam and the fireplace
Just another day
Yay

Grounded smile
Toes in the sand
Colored love
Blissful sensations
Crystallized in time
Nature’s perfection
Toes in the sand

Satin
Smooth
Succulent
Wisdom beyond kisses
Lustful journey
Swayed by the silhouette
Rythmic
Palpable
Freshly covered fleece

Sad,
One single word
Encompassing far too many
emotions for me to put down
in a single pure sentence

Lost my memories
I am broken
Myself forgotten by me
No memories
No shadows chasing my light
Curled up shivering
I am broken
I can’t remeber who I am

Swirling magic
One moment
Red ruby
Pink ribbons
Deep purples pulsating
Colors dance
Healing begins
I can feel
Gold Sand
Smooth
Crystal clear
Smiles in my toes
As I stand firm
In this moment
Colors heal
Golden Sand
Embraces my
Weary bones
Time for your Meds
Mr Jenkins
Mr Jenkins
Time to wake up
Pain management awaits
Golden Sands

What happened
It did
Roll up
Chin up butter cup
That’s how the cookie crumbles
Are these words wise
What happened
It did
Roll up
Curl around the blue dog
Let him decide
Close your eyes
Listen mindfully
For my blue dog
Is my guide within
Blue dog
I thank you
I thougnt you ran away

Words are yours
Words are us
Forevermore our creation
Our unique blends
Your words
My words
Ours
Bottled words
found in time
Washed up onto the sand
Tiny hands open
Who’s words are these wrapped up tight
She respectfully seals the words back to the bottle
and let’s them go

The rush,
Andrenaline pumping,
Feel, listen, grasp
The energy
Under the roller coaster
I sit
A tear drop falls
I feel,
I listen,
I grasp
Underneath
Alone I sit under the roller coaster
Afraid to ride
Life

Sometimes I wonder what the river truly says,
It’s a wander of nature at its finest,
It is a pure interrupted flow of beauty
At its worst it is a stagnant pond that lost its way
I look back as I see the drops fall from my eyes
And hoping my heavy drops can help release
The toxic pond back home
To where the beauty of the untamed water
can  once again be free to its uninterrupted free flow
My heavy drops sink into the ground
Hopeful that one drop of water in the pond
Can find the hole left from my toxic soul
to see the narrow path of freedom
as the others may follow
seeping their way through
and all find all their way
back home
To join the beauty of nature at its finest
The pure river of of an uninterrupted free flow
Sometimes I wonder what the river truly says

Stuck in mud
Eating my spleen
How to run
Freedom
My mind
Stuck in mud
My reality
Mud

Time,
Circles of life
Swirling favors of conception
Drops of heavy tears for the end of lives
Time
Celebrate the circle of life
We are al intertwined
One mass organism
Birth and death
Circles of life
Smiles and frowns
Time

To follow the fluorescent pink light
The deepest of blues
Golden love wraps around my hypothalamus
I travel outside the aches of my insides
A whisp of magic
A float of my soul
My guide delivers me
Immaculate imagination
Message for this journey
NOW
NO MORE FEAR

Black bile,
Shamans magic
Into the darkness
See the light
Black bile
Evil creature
Inside ourselves it spreads
Toes to minds
The shamans way
Shall be our only way
Black bile
Hurts

Funky and free
You and I
Running through the night
Golden shadows
Finding each other
Beyond a simple kiss
Beyond it all
No words need to be spoken
We just know
Funky and free

Aces
Mental speed, too quick for a blink
Up all night smiles
Intense let it ride
Light blue sand on the beach

Deuces,
Mental fog
Slow motion
Covers over my head
Let me disappear

What’s the game Billy
Aces high deuces low
Got it
My reality
Bipolar

Underneath the squeeze
Panic attack in my belly
Physical
Mental
One in the same
I brushed my teeth
Everything went away

Good morning people,
Awaken
Close eyes
Good morning people,
Awaken
Close eyes repeat.
Change your world
Change your perspective
Change the shape of your box
Good morning
Your time has arrived

Smart,
Phones,
Empty life,
Sympathy lost
Overcrowded planet
Mother Earth
Lost her cell
She smiled
Advanced human technology
Lost
Green grass
Spring flowers
Wild animals dancing through the forest
Mother Earth
Vanished
She never got the text

As I sit,
I look upon the slow draw of the river
My soul is free for just a moment
As I recall past memories
of the place where I shall be put to rest
A teardrop runs slowly down my cheek
As the river continues to flow
Such as life
A moment to cherish

Dr Seuss
Kids eyes closed
Snuggled up just right
Awake
My own stories
Ruminations
Stuck needle on old school vinyl
Awake
I want dr Seuss
and snuggled up just right
My mind
Awake

Up and down,
Bipolar popcorn
Salt and pepper,
With a lovely twist
of an unorthodoxed path
Bipolar
I diagnosed mysel
I am simply me

People please give me space,
We are being collapsed on top of each other
Open 24/7
Pick up, order through, clicked out,
Checked out
No more space far too many people,
Running each other into distress.
Can’t quite take a big enough
step to another planet

Please give me some space

Circus carnies
Real words
Focused mind
Remote camping
Soul friends
Love
Life
When possible

Chronic pain
A trip to the clouds
Mind over matter
A brave journey
Hello pain
what are you really trying to tell me
Listen closely
A trip to the clouds

Who what where when and when
Corporate fog
Buzzing
Tingling
Body numb
Engine has seized
Computer overload
Sail away,
My ship has no destination
Only sunshine
Managers
None
Sally good riddance
Sealed mouth
Clear blue skies
Ship onward
Hungry but happy

I like to unleash
a smile on occasion
Feels good
Sunrise, sweet nectar,
I like to unleash
a smile on occasion
Feels a good
I’m smiling at you
As I write
Hope it generates a smile
and as dominoes fall
The world can just for a short lived moment
Unleash its own smile

Moment accept,
Listen
Breathe
Mindful wonders
Cartwheels on the grass

Spine sticky
Residue of past emotions
Linger trapped,
Bone sore,
Skull crushing pain
Black sticky scraps
My food never truly cleaned
From the plate of my life
Sticky plate

Mind shattered,
Spirit crushed,
Body crawling
I have been cursed
The hole dug deep
Echoes I fear
Alone
Afraid
Cursed

I love her so much
It came clear from the most scientific data
From the heart
Feelings deep seated
soul filled feelings are the strings of fate
I love her so much
I know,
I believe in the strings of fate

Hickory dickory dock
Fill me in with the most desperately asked question
What the **** are we doing here

Paper made of jello,
Snowmen dancing in the wind
Free yourself,
As your imagination
Soars into a peaceful state.

My only solace is cereal,
It’s crunchy goodness,
Makes me smile in my time of need
Comfort is comfort
Solace is solace

Done with me
Done with you
Pretzels crunch
Barefoot freedom
I wait for the sun again
I wait for the moon again
Shallow waves in an empty pool
Where did you go
I miss you
Where did I go

I looked into the silver streak breath of life
stared into the mirror
I licked aromatic flesh
Pressed heads against the biggest of eyes
I sit upon Mother Earths own waterfall
And
I
C
R
Y

I go forward,
I sometimes choose backwards,
The flow of movement,
The decorated change of thought
Mixing colors with words,
I choose my own way
My own smile comes about

A single breathe,
A hot bath
And a bowl of chicken noodle soup
What else,
Oh
A ******* full of soul

Jumpin green
In between outta sight
Can’t see me but I see you
Perched on my Lilly, my voice distinct
Jumpin green
And not to far in between
My jump precise ,
My vision clear
I am jumpin green and not far between