I miss life,
Beat myself down
into the ground
No shovel needed
No direct shock
Piercing my temple
Mental vs physical
It must be just a state of mind

Chronic Pain,
Listen to it,
What is it saying
As it burns and tingles
Emotions trapped
Deep, entrenched
Digging through layers
Pain,
Emotions trapped
Can’t see through my inflamed body,
My inflamed emotions
Spread throughout

Aces
Mental speed, too quick for a blink
Up all night smiles
Intense let it ride
Light blue sand on the beach

Deuces,
Mental fog
Slow motion
Covers over my head
Let me disappear

What’s the game Billy
Aces high deuces low
Got it
My reality
Bipolar

Wizards, Shamans
Doctors, Lawyers
Fog filled magic in the city of lights
People listening to themselves for themselves
I spin around , my eyes blurry, am I at work
Is this living
Frogs and squirrels , choking through the toxic sludge
The necessary elimination of an overrun population
Souls already sick, a mass elimination is needed
From animals , nature, incurable mutated virus evolves.
It must be as history throughout time follows true it’s timeframe
Overpopulation  must be cleansed
As the world becomes anew again , hope for Mother Earth,
Shamans and Wizards.

Black bile,
Shamans magic
Into the darkness
See the light
Black bile
Evil creature
Inside ourselves it spreads
Toes to minds
The shamans way
Shall be our only way
Black bile
Hurts

Meds, cabinet heavy
Reflections in the ever changing mirror
I don't know
Answers are done
I've let go
I've smiled I've cried in the same breath
One lasting impression before I go
I'm a human being of value
Caring for each and every one of you

In the box,wrapped up tight
Gasping for pure air knees to my chest
Labeled to be shipped out
Paperwork filed, we know what he is
I am the label they gave ,e
That's all I am supposed to be
A nicely wrapped box with a label on it
Return to sender please
I know more
I am more
Than a quick observation
I am more than a  black and white label

Eyes droopy
Can’t will them open
Sleep
Alone
Afraid
Lonely
Black oil
Sticky emotions
Upheaval of emotions
What works
Time
Black oil
Sticky residue
Pain on all fronts

Blah blah blah
Your piercing lips are moving again
Blah blah blah
My health is dependent on drowning your words out
I seek a new pair of lips to engage with
A simple smile will be just fine

What happened
It did
Roll up
Chin up butter cup
That’s how the cookie crumbles
Are these words wise
What happened
It did
Roll up
Curl around the blue dog
Let him decide
Close your eyes
Listen mindfully
For my blue dog
Is my guide within
Blue dog
I thank you
I thougnt you ran away

Brick after brick keep coming on my shoulders
Nailed to my bed
Beyond tears of sadness
Just empty
Alone
Stagnant
Pull yourself up by your bootstraps
I would but I can’t find the boot straps
The lights are turned off
My only comfort is shutting me eyes
I sleep one eye open as I see my boots vanish
Please do not say pull yourself up from your bootstraps
You’ve not walked in my shoes
Severe depression

Words are yours
Words are us
Forevermore our creation
Our unique blends
Your words
My words
Ours
Bottled words
found in time
Washed up onto the sand
Tiny hands open
Who’s words are these wrapped up tight
She respectfully seals the words back to the bottle
and let’s them go

Butterscotch kisses
Under the tree
Forgot our past
Years under the tree
Butterscotch kisses
No more
I didint forget
Butterscotch kisses

Moment accept,
Listen
Breathe
Mindful wonders
Cartwheels on the grass

My only solace is cereal,
It’s crunchy goodness,
Makes me smile in my time of need
Comfort is comfort
Solace is solace

A single breathe,
A hot bath
And a bowl of chicken noodle soup
What else,
Oh
A ******* full of soul

Sinking couch
Warm blanket
Still mind
Neck melting
Body healing
Chill

Time,
Circles of life
Swirling favors of conception
Drops of heavy tears for the end of lives
Time
Celebrate the circle of life
We are al intertwined
One mass organism
Birth and death
Circles of life
Smiles and frowns
Time

Chronic pain
A trip to the clouds
Mind over matter
A brave journey
Hello pain
what are you really trying to tell me
Listen closely
A trip to the clouds

Laughter, the best medicine
Poking fun at the mirror
My reflections
Laugh at yourself
The clowns come hither
The circus of life begins

Pieces of the tiny puzzle
Written words, burning desire
Magnificent beauty, a shutter from the open door
How beautiful it must be
Flowing and free
Dancing by by the winds tickle
Pieces of the tiny little puzzle
Another piece is found
Another lost
Written words, burning desires
The Conundrums from the bigger puzzle

The jaws of death, the uncontrollable moment of being alive
One second
The course you choose will forever determine your fate
The jaws of death repeatedly knock upon me every moment of a given day
Resistance is futile however the space and energy to flow within is boundless
I wear the croc tooth around my neck
Around my space and hope to give it to you someday

Mind shattered,
Spirit crushed,
Body crawling
I have been cursed
The hole dug deep
Echoes I fear
Alone
Afraid
Cursed

Roof overhead, coffee brews.
Bed is comfy and
the yard is big
No job, a criminal record is a wall
No car , walking alone
Mind rumination
No contacts accept non palpable cyberspace
Mental illness a life long critter of mine.
In the midst of fear and anger

I feel alone and alone I have created

Into the chasm of my old dark friend
It comes again as I have been expecting
Hard to describe a deep depression in some sort of exact verbiage
So many times it has entered my realm without a knock at the door
Into the chasm of my old dark friend
My roller coaster thrills are vanished ,
As the bipolar swing ride has come to a screeching hault
I fall once again into the chasm of my old dark friend

We all got somethin
Parallel tranquility
Within us all must be
a nod of respect
With the upmost humanitarian
and good will
With a knowing certainty that each one of
us
is enduring our own suffering through this
life we all live
Health and happiness to all of you good people
Please spread this simple message to another and so on and
So forth as it must be spread throughout the world
Be kind to  one another
For we all have some kind of
unique **** we are facing
We are all in this together

Sad,
One single word
Encompassing far too many
emotions for me to put down
in a single pure sentence

Who is this strange being on the screen who are these strangets from a strange land
I just arrived and I must confess what a terrible place to inhabit,
Fear and selfishness seems to be their center.
Why must I stay
Why must I stay

Done with me
Done with you
Pretzels crunch
Barefoot freedom
I wait for the sun again
I wait for the moon again
Shallow waves in an empty pool
Where did you go
I miss you
Where did I go

Done with tiny masquerade parties
Accepting sweet passionatecandlesbeimg briskly blown away
Unacceptable timetables of perfection predictability
Immense knowledge must be withered away in the ******* like forest
We all must understand each other to begin to give pure unadulterated ever quenching water back to our MOTHER EARTH
Trumps a fkr

Done with your ever ending false words with no actions
Done with you giving me hope
Done over my never ending attempts to make deep heart felt amends
from the pain I caused you.
Done beating myself deep into the soil over the past
Done being toxic to myself
Done not forgiving myself

Smooth lips
Stockings tight
Lustful nummies in the women's restroom
Lights
Chocolate pudding kisses
Cream
Upside down Pineapple Express
Wax
Melting
Hard
Hard
Sinful lust
Let it out

Embrace
Emotionally let it flow
Sexually your wildest desires must be satisfied
Friendship is life
Freedom for all
Let it go let it flow
Embrace life

Circus carnies
Real words
Focused mind
Remote camping
Soul friends
Love
Life
When possible

Lost my memories
I am broken
Myself forgotten by me
No memories
No shadows chasing my light
Curled up shivering
I am broken
I can’t remeber who I am

Satin
Smooth
Succulent
Wisdom beyond kisses
Lustful journey
Swayed by the silhouette
Rythmic
Palpable
Freshly covered fleece

Insipid spiders
Maddening geometric traps
My love for you is simple
A new geometric fire built with logs I created
Under the stars we sleep
Free from the insipid spiders and geometric traps
Pure natureis free breathing love
Skin warm,fire dwindling
Under the stars we create our own star plate
Freedom in fresh wilderness
Far away from societal traps
My tongue slowly drips from the soft forbidden spot
We breathe together as nature intended it to be
Insipid Spiders go rest for now
I get my fly rod ready for the sweet Riverflow on days next adventure .

I go forward,
I sometimes choose backwards,
The flow of movement,
The decorated change of thought
Mixing colors with words,
I choose my own way
My own smile comes about

Pretty words painted to,souls,of mass production
Warm colors ignite the keyhole of secret exploding secrets,left behind the locked,doors
Guck that
**** rhyming to and melting words to produce something special to the poets themselves something so important that they selves think it's truly a masterpiece
**** that
Pain is pain
It burns different colors at different times
I want the truth
The bottom line not painted in pretty positive picture as it still sits behind the secret locked doors of secrets
I want to know
Bottom line
**** it,
Just want the truth
Plain and simple words will do

I stumbled onto my demons yesterday
I told them to *******
I am now living my life freely
My secrets are yours
My fear
Gone
******* demons
I have no more time
I want to leave this institution
No more meds or labels
I am uniquely me
As you are,uniquely you
Hi demons
*******
Hi world it's me

Funky and free
You and I
Running through the night
Golden shadows
Finding each other
Beyond a simple kiss
Beyond it all
No words need to be spoken
We just know
Funky and free

Insipid spiders,
Mending geometric traps
My love for you is simple
a new geometric fire built with logs I created.
Under the stars we sleep,
free from the insipid spiders  geometric traps.
Pure nature
Free breathing love.
Skin burning , fire dwindling.
Under the stars we create our own star plate.
Freedom in the fresh wilderness ,
Far away from societal traps.
My tongue slowly drips,
we breathe together as nature is meant to be.

Swirling magic
One moment
Red ruby
Pink ribbons
Deep purples pulsating
Colors dance
Healing begins
I can feel
Gold Sand
Smooth
Crystal clear
Smiles in my toes
As I stand firm
In this moment
Colors heal
Golden Sand
Embraces my
Weary bones
Time for your Meds
Mr Jenkins
Mr Jenkins
Time to wake up
Pain management awaits
Golden Sands

Unleash my tendons from my spine
Opioids death from my addiction issues
Green smoke billows into my core
Mother Nature grows it it naturally
Green smoke I can feel the release
Calm waves , magic liquid gold
Green smoke, chronic pain
Addiction free
Go green as science overwhelmingly
Implode the sickened FDA,
As money is not controlled
by natures way,
Go green

Jumpin green
In between outta sight
Can’t see me but I see you
Perched on my Lilly, my voice distinct
Jumpin green
And not to far in between
My jump precise ,
My vision clear
I am jumpin green and not far between

Eye to eye with a great horned owl today
Spiritual guidance or death
The myth the legend and the razors edge we walk upon
What is it
What am I missing
Guide me please
Sometimes I truly just need it

I can't flee,
I can't hide
I am here world
This day, this choice, this moment.
The freedom of a pure warm centered thought,
and the cold steel bars that I ponder through.

A hand to hold
Smiles on the shadows
Hold on
Tides change so quickly
Smiles on the shadows
A hand to hold
Comfort

I love her so much
It came clear from the most scientific data
From the heart
Feelings deep seated
soul filled feelings are the strings of fate
I love her so much
I know,
I believe in the strings of fate

Holding on,
Slip, fall ,
Starting all over again
Quick reset
Improper display
Life empty
Coffee exhaustion
Slip inside my mattress
Warm relief
Sweet escape
Hold on,
slip, fall
Black shadows return