Today was okay,
I mean I got an A.
My tickets are confirmed.
My friends said they love me.
A guy said I was hot.
Some strangers said I look like Lupita.
I laughed with some people.
I got all my homework done.
But he called me a *****.
Today wasn't okay.

When love hurts
it hurts more than physical pain.
I can faint
only during physical pain.
But with love I am alive
I'm living insane.
I'd rather *****
break an ankle
or hurt my back.
There are cures
for all of that.
They are rational aches
But the hurt from love is irrational
The hurt from love I hate.

Dear friend,
You are not supported by many
but I support you.
Yes, it is difficult to stand on a chair with three legs.
But don't look for a fourth one by breaking your own.
Modification for acceptance is suicide.
Don't **** your identity.
Soon they'll have a rebirth
and find themselves.
And then your chair will be more stable.
Because you stayed yourself, they will praise you.

I don't enjoy liking you.
You take up to much space in my head.
I'm unsure if I consume your heart.
That unknown is scary.
But I'm happy with you.
Can we be true?

First words that come to mind
Mass militia
fake
drown
sound
can
almost
why
but
when
you
crazy
feel
c­ringe
hold
touch
satisfied
not enough
My emotions are irrational and crumbled when you leave me unsure
please be kind and fully open your door
A crack isn't large enough to fit through
I could push it but I want you too.
Stop and let me know please.
I'm pathetic
I'm a human being.

I've told so many people about you
Do you tell people about me?
I've told you things I never release.
Do you usually say those things?
I get comfortable and nervous at the same time
Do you get mixed feelings?
I'm so jealous when you hug other girls
Do you want to hug me?
I think of you when I wake
Do you think of me when you sleep?

Don't worry my friend,
bad feelings will pass.
Be thankful for them,
I keenly ask.
Without these sorrows,
there's no appreciation.
You'll feel it more tomorrow,
the happiness acclimation.

Lets drink some wine
relate in our sadness
feel close
and not so empty
because of the wine
and us.

My feet are cracked.
My feet are cold.
The only thing leading me
is my heart.
Oh, how warm

Although you didn't stay
and Im not sure if you were ever there
but thank you for provoking those feelings
Sure they hurt once you left them
but letting me know how wonderful it feels to feel.
I have to thank you.

I wonder
why it is taking so long.
Is it me?
No.
Remember you.
You are yourself.
That alone is wealth.
Don't worry,
the shine is just brightening up.
Enough may seem like it's enough.
But there is more that you can't even imagine.
Wait.
Patience will be your friend for now.

If they drop me
and I fall
I'll hit the ground
running
and I'll soar

I ran to the sun rise
And wondered why
It looks beautiful everytime.
It climbs the same
With a fuse of red yellow
And an orange flame.
In that moment I prayed
Let me feel the beauty
I want to be astonished
continually.
I want my love to rise with the sun.
I want this feeling to never
Be done.

If you teach me and I learn, then that will be the best gift you can ever give me.

I can imagine it.
We'll rise before the sun.
Therefore we lie in the dark.
Though with no light
There is no heat.
Yet you with me
will bring me enough warmth

Dear Mom,
I don't understand you.
You haven't been loved in years.
I write about love all the time.
It's lack is possibly one of my fears.
I think it's that you have found love in me.
Enough love to fill the void of the other
type of love.
You smile continuously
even when the pain of the world piles rigorously.
Although, I may not agree with everything.
But that does not matter.
Because you give me everything.
You give me love.

I asked myself, how can love hurt this much?
It's like we throw ourselves with our eyes closed.
Except we don't actually throw ourselves, because we have no control.
That's it, love orders us, we don't handle it.
We don't have a choice.
Love may carry us to the heights that take our breath away.
Love may push us to the depths of my heart not saved.

The snow is a beauty that pains me with it's cold
But it's beauty is so beautiful

Today we were supposed to hang.
To be honest, I didn't want to do
what you wanted to go through.
But I said yes.
I figured it wouldn't matter what we did.
Just to be with you would be the best.
As I waited for you
You never moved.
As I thought about why I didn't want to hang.
You actually never came.
To be honest,
that hurt.

Love me more in my ugliest times
because thats when I hate myself the most
and someone needs to love me
please

It's so quiet
It's so quiet that I can hear everything that I feel
There's space for my thoughts
I feel light

Please please don't interrupt only if you stay
I can't afford making space in my heart
Only to leave it vacant, that's not okay.
Now I must reconstruct, or fill it up
to erase an empty hole.
Oh, the wind makes it tough,
and screams back,
not enough in the soul.
The worst part is that I had no control.
You built this space in my heart
You left, and I have nothing to hold.
Maybe come back and make my hole whole?

Sometimes I think about you all the time
But only sometimes.
If my mind knows it's all the time
it might hurt to much.

Sleep is one of the best times
You are in a wonderland
Lack control
Yet you are free.
Really it's all blissful lies
But for some reason I woke up earlier
I couldn't sleep anymore
Because you are a blissful truth.
I don't have to dream with
You.

Ask me what I fear and
I'll say I fear nothing.
Then one may think of how pretensions I am,
but that's not it.
I fear nothing.
In a sense of lacking connection.
No bad, no nice.
An empty life.
I have a fear, I fear nothing.

Jungle fever, I am
with all these flavors
it makes a marvelous blend
Come on in
I love all kinds
They turned away with a grin
not a good sign.
They said they've never been in the jungle
so they'll just stay out here.
That night no one came to the jungle
so it rained with tears.
Although the storm brought the jungle water
and the jungle flourished
No worries, my jungle is stronger

I think I'm fighting my biggest challenge yet.
Myself
I am my own enemy
I am my own hero
If I feel like I can't rule myself.
Then there is no win.

Mean what you say
For meaningless sayings
are mean.

I'm not sure what our future is.
A lot can change in a day.
But you make me smile.
I don't have to be here in silence with you.
I finished my work some time ago.
But I might like you anyways.
So I'll stay.