Did I leave the your heart on?
I think I forgot my mind.
Where did I put myself?

These are running Inside my head because I'm paranoid.
I deal with this everyday because I am paranoid.
I need explanation and assurance because I'm paranoid.

Are you leaving me?
I forgot you already did.
Have you forgotten about me?
Where are you?

These are my heart's questions because I'm paranoid.
I can't deal with this because I've been hurt enough to be paranoid.
I need answers because I'm paranoid.

“You enjoy this.
You dig your fingertips into the places I am hurting in as if to prove the suspicion that I am weaker. That the blood there isn’t yours.
It is mine.
So you keep holding your hands up to the sunlight on the days when my ache is greater than yours as if to prove the suspicion that my blood has always stained the longest.
You enjoy this.
You don’t see yourself as the weaker of us two because I am always falling apart before you but the truth is, I am giving more than you are.
I am only emptier than you because I don’t love in halves and you do.
You always do."

Sometimes tears say all there is to say. Sometimes your first scars won't ever fade away.

The sun hid among the clouds;
The rain kept pouring down;
The mood had lost its light;
The stars forgot to shine

I try to run from the pain I'm feeling
But I find no place to go
I keep looking and thinking for you
'Cause my heart knows it belongs to you

Why do you have to leave?
When all that was left for me was you
When all that was worth waiting was for you
When I had nothing but you

I wanted to be with you forever and always
But it seems you have closed your heart
Your love was the closet thing to magic
But you took it all away when you left.

There comes a point where you just love someone,
not because they're good or bad.
You just love them the way they are.

If I could have save time in bottle
The first thing that I'd like to do
Is to save everyday 'till eternity passes away
Just to spend them with you

If I could make days last forever
If words could make wishes come true;
I'd save eveyday like treasure and then,
again,  I would spend them with you

I have kept you too long in my heart
To the point I endured all pain and became numb
I wasn't ready to give you up
Though, I know, time will come to say goodbye

I tried so many things to forget you
I pretend I didn't care, just to show I'm strong
I pretended I don't love you anymore, to ease the pain the very least
But no matter what I do, I could still feel the pain and hurt

I found it hard to say good bye
Cause you're the one I love the most
But I have to set my feelings free
Because It's hurting so much

My heart is empty and meaningless
It's filled with darkness
My heart is waiting
Waiting for someone
Someone who will make my life anew
Someone who will not make me blue
This someone is you

A promised love fo a thousand years
A thought that you are the one, instead brought tears

A promised love for a thousand years
A silent hope that you'll stay forever, my love

A dream of you that someday would come true
A nightmare that you'll leave would make me blue

A promised love of my heart that is waiting.

I am waiting for you to look my way
'cause I've wanted you to notice I exist
I'am waiting for you cause I know you'll
come back



I'am waiting for you to love me
'cause I know that you'll learn how to open your heart
I'am waiting for you to take care for me
'cause I hope that I'll soon have a place in your life




I'll be waiting for you even if it takes
forever I'll always be here still waiting.

Me and my mom
I'm feeling nervous
A little bit shaky, little bit trembling
Eye to eye
In the longest stroll of my life

My excuses are my only weapon
Against the strongest wall of madness
My positive thoughts
They are my only shield in this war of heart and mind

Please stop hurting me
I whisper, trying to escape while wide awake
Trying thoughts real for reality sake
I cried

Somehow would you please assure me
That this night mare will be gone
Because I fear that  my positive feelings
Wo'nt even return to my heart.