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unknown Sep 2018

Love

You know when you love some too much
You tend to surround them
Send them your love way too much
Scared to lost them
Then when you break apart
Go your separate ways
You tend to stay up at night
You tend you obsess over them
Asking them if they are okay
Especially when you’re a Gemini
We tend to go back to the ones who have hurt us
Its hard for us to move on.
You tend to fall asleep with tears in your eyes
You feel depressed ever second of the freaking day
And when you have the house to yourself
You may sit in the couch holding your phone close to your chest sobbing
Mainly for hours on end
Wondering are they happy without you
Wondering if they are okay
But you don’t bother them
You don’t want to get yelled at
So you just suffer in the pain it gives you
Thats when you know you truly did love them

unknown Aug 2018

Am i okay?

How?
How do I feel so calm?
It's like all the monsters inside of my head just went away.
Maybe it's the music?
Maybe it's the magic of mother nature
I cant really tell right now.
I just haven't been here in a while.
It's been about a year now.
And this place has gotten more and more beautiful.
More and more majestic.
It's pretty shocking.
How there are just some places where you can relax and finally feel okay.
I haven't felt okay in a while actually.
I havent been sleeping right.
I havent been happy.
I havent gone one day without mutilating my skin.
This is just a breath of fresh air.
It's like I've just got over everything.
All at once.
At an instant.
I cant believe it
I'm finally okay.
My only question is now
How long will this last?
How long till I just drop again.
Going back to the bottom of the deep ocean people call depression
But let me just be thankful for being okay at this moment.
Let me just enjoy nature.
Let me enjoy this.
Please

unknown May 2018

Healing

The scars I feel when I run my hand down my arm,
The cuts, the memories, the pain, the suffering
Everything comes running back,
Everything swarms in,
Reminding me of the past

But now I look at them
And say im proud of my past
Proud of the women I am becoming
And 1 year ago,
And would cry and cry hoping to accept myself
But now here I am learning to live with the past
And to a brighter future.

Apr 2018

Josh Elis

Down the Mind Drain Again

Upper
***
Middle
Class
Dweeb
Devoid
Of Motivation
Without Inspiration
To Do
Literally
Anything
With my
Pathetic
Self

I
Hate
The Human
Tease of Life
And Its Dull
Reality

void

#shapepoetry

Apr 2018

bailey defrees

cuts

Cuts leave scars
Cuts bleed
Cuts hurt
Cuts heal
Cuts don't ever go away
Cuts will be there forever
Cuts will be there when you have kids
Cuts will be there when you die
Cut might be the reason your dead
Cuts will **** you
Cuts are not worth it
Cuts ruin your body
Cuts ruin your skin
Cuts ruin you