If I tried, do you think I could be pretty?
If I tried, do you think I could be smart?
Would the other kids want to play with me?
Will I have more light than dark?
If I tried, could I have been nicer?
If I tried, could I have been someone's saviour?
Could I have been less alone?
Could I have known about love?
If I tried, do you think I could be happy?
If I tried, do you think he could want me?
Could I have caused you less pain?
Could you not be so ashamed?
If I tried, could I have made your life easier?
If I tried, could I have not been a failure?
If I tried, do you think daddy would have wanted me?
Mommy, if I tried, do you think you could love me?
But if I tried, I know I would still fail
And if I tried, I know you still wouldn't be proud
If I tried, I would probably break down
If I tried, I wouldn't have uttered a sound
If I tried, I would end up killing myself
Because, if I tried...
Nothing would have mattered
Well, not anymore
dated: 23 June 2013