The sky, barren of stars
Held no mercy for the pin feathers of my love
Has my mortality always been so close
Is my hope just as far, merely out of my reach
My fingers search in the dark
For what the light will not uncover
My hope so close
I will not let her be forgotten

We are not as hungry as we think
Lost in the trading of men's souls
Nothing determines our worth
Even what we think of ourselves
Dragged out of the gutter again
Reclaiming an earth
I did not know was meant for me
Did not know was promised too me

Wealth is not thinking I'm lying
When I close my eyes next to you
How will I know
Your ashes sprinkle the same as others
I often forgot about gravity
Clean hands change everything
I ache for the dirt under my nails
To find a new home
I bite these particles into eviction
Scrubbing myself raw on the inside of my brain
I am no great character witness, even of my own
A fools words should die in his mouth
Who will make him eat them

The devil has a smooth jazz voice
He sings to shy stars
In turn they wreak chaos
It is a delicate balance
Of unclenched fists
A mouth sealed and void
This stone will not be roled away
Is silence my only act of violence

Can I go beyond this
A world unaware of other worlds
Another tongue told me
I am the rose
If only ancient words
Had more to say, less to whisper
I ask for nothing but bread
Acting as if I drink nothing but wine
Tomorrow may find me sober but no wiser

And maybe the world doesn't need more souls fiery flames
But gentle candle hearts and kisses of kindness

Jazz tip lips
Black and mild lungs
Smoke words
The haze swallows up
Hungry still
Burning now
Light me up

I feel deep again

The thinner air
At the bottom
Of the gulley

I do not remember
The taste of fresh air
Nor will it return to me

You are a silence
I cling to your empty whisper
Let the noise drown out
I hear only your song

Matches for fingers
What are your flames
Not comfortable with anger
Or revenge
Where are your flames
Don't know how they burn
Only who lit them

You brought sins of the world
Into our house
Plucked them out of fields
Of the earth
Until your basket was full

I loved you, like water
Pouring over
Into every crevice
Loving over your rough edges
Until they became smooth

Your love for me, a seed
The earth not ready to bare
A womb infertile
With the sins of those before
A catacomb of aching
And yet, when placed in my hands
The sprouts dug into my palm
Turning towards the sun

Did you know the dark
Under the stars
Before it was fearless
Before it stretched out it's wings
Sinking its teeth
Into the sun
Before the stars bowed down
To crown the heavens
In new mercies
Before I was fear
Chasing after the strength of the earth
Until it was worn out

You blew your lies in my face
And it was not just the smoke that agitated me
More the time thay you took kindle the fire
Even though you didn't care how much I got burned

If I tell you
That you love me
Then I don't have to
Say it back

I miss you, again

Though there is space in between

I always loved my friends best

Held them highest

Like young stars

Against the black of a thousand year old sky

Is this why

We are so low now

Perhaps I should not speak for you

I, am so low now

I pray, winter treats you kind

As, it has robbed me of all my kindness

Each snowflake is different, they say

This one is melting away

Before spring

May spring

Come to you again

I was the one under the bed and she was the one in her head
A monster and her demons could never be friends
I live in the shadows  twixt the four posts
She thrives in the dark thoughts in her mind

What is this I have found?
A smile on my face.

Where have you come from?
And why were you gone so long?

I did not realise until your return how much I have waited for this reunion.

I do not beg for you to stay, still I wish that you will not leave for atleast a while yet.

Take your time, and make a few wrinkles on these cheeks of mine.

Stretch to my eyes if you need, and down to my toes warm me up.

I am just alot right now
Yet never am I you
For what I lack without
I can do without too

When you ask for space
Know I will stand
Arms open wide
In the gap between
Tell me of your fears
And demons
Of how the darkness crawls towards you
In broad daylight
Tell me of how you faced it
It does not matter
If you were scared or brave
You are human
Bearing the burden
The great weight presses on your chest
Its face turns to yours
Whispers in your ear
It will never be light
This is not our first avalanche
Not our first burden
For you
I would hold up the sky
For you I would press my palms
Into the clouds
Feel the rain run down my arms
Like blood
And when I look the rain is red
It is no matter

I write a lot about dreams and nightmares
I know the difference
You know of time
I dreamt a chameleon bit my neck
I told you of my fears
Death will make me her *****
Where is sanity when I sleep
At the foot of the bed
The floor is liquid in the dark
You learned of my angels
And the dark they create
You tasted my chaos
Before I licked it from your tongue
The next hundred years
I will not live as my last thousand
My wisdom expired
I am yours
Ground me
Roots in the earth
Holding on for all it's worth
I am your lady in white
A corpse bride for the sins of a saint
Open your hands and close your eyes
Have you seen the signs
The sky is falling
I am yours

To want after you
Is a dream
I dare not close my eyes to see
Unquenchable
Is everything you awaken in me
So dreamer lay
Just as you are
With a thirst in your soul
That I may drink
Until nought a drop be left
For the sun to claim

The clocks will toll
Ah, the midnight hour
My soul again
Will leech out my fingertips

This is the situation
How many feet under
Whether water or earth
The undoing of birth
All these threads

Snip, go the scissors of the fates
I seem them now, the dogs at the gates

Eyes to see
Ears to hear
No room for fear

these words are not worship, they are penance

I gave up to the eternal
The only thing I ever wanted for myself

I gave up you.

Now the tears on the threshold are dry
Not so the stains on my soul

If I could learn to give of myself
I would give it up to you

The trickle of my words
Is a river of pages
That have learned their bounds only in the temptation of the sun
What the day would not teach them
The moon bade unto them
One by one
The secrets of the stars
And how quickly you shine
When you know the sky
Even as the lights before my eyes
Learn their fading
As the last song to be sung
When the dandelions no longer yellow in their intentions learn to give themselves up to the wind
These are seeds of hope
May they be for tomorrow
When you have nothing left for today
As simple still, as hands held in the dark
You have learned the secret of the dust
Settling so quickly
While the feet of the remorseless still raise
What the sun looks upon only in shame
Her remorse says little
To the promises wound between the crossing of your fingers

we are both lost
so comfortable with losing
now as the world spins
in the same direction as before
our paper ambitions
turn themselves inside out
passing like aging stars
burning across the sky
I know a brighter fire
burns in you
I placed it there
before we even thought
of the beginning of time
before amens whispered
on the backs of prayers
when heavens womb
was full of hope
before we gave up
all the glimmering shadows
that slipped through our souls
like water through a child's cupped hands
the ways of the world
brought me to this ledge
you will push me
to remind me of my myself
of my loving for flying
the promise of gravity
and the certainty of an end

You are
The pale pink thoughts
In my dark purple mind
I am not accustomed to the light

You the hero
I the shallow

I whisper to the sky,
"I'll go."
Because I know
You will not hear me

Friends never say goodbye

This dream
Delivered me to reality
Bore me no joy
Rolling up stardust
Second yarn ball
From the sun
Unwinding reason
Spinning in the dark
When I orbit the sun
The light will touch me again

...but you should be afraid

Anytime you think of me
I am with you
Once in a while
Let me cross your mind
Blue moon loss
Setting sail
Gentle tides
Of an angel lit cross

I am as I am
No greater no lesser
Part ghost
A one day angel
As the line before me thins
Into a gray and gold horizon
I am more gentle
I remember being weak
Hearing your voice call to me
When I was in the dark place
I climbed halfway up to heaven 
Only to turn around 
I was terrified 
Of the storms
More so 
Of the calm that would come after 
Are our souls so different now
Passing between worlds 
Or are we chasing stranger ghosts
Than the ones we name on earth

Hell has developed quite the appetite

We fell apart
So long ago
It still feels
Like yesterday
I still feel
Sort of

Sometimes I think
Anxiety makes me a bad person
But I'm too depressed to fix it

I did something wrong once
I take that as a solidifying truth
For my abhorrence

The heart may know what it wants
It does not always know best
Organs are fickle instruments
No matter how deep
How resonating a melody they create
In the end, the crashing of the crescendo
The blood pumping in your veins
Music is a farce
Against the steady beat of mankind

As I think
So I become

As I think
So I am