You asked me what I am
I said I am a human

But if you would have dug deeper
Into your dusty brain
And asked a better question
One that wasn't lame

If your lips had posed the question
Who are you?
I would have started with the simple
I am a girl of the female sort
I love to fly it is my favorite sport
If you knew my past
And how long my loves last
You would wonder how
The stars contained such majesty

But you didn't
So you think that I am just **me

I will find the edge of the world
Where else would you go
Dangle my feet on the edge
Waiting for you
Until the sun forgets how to set
As the oceans run over
Chasing unknown depths

What is this emotionally stable you speak of?

Come home with me
Back to the woods
To the village
To the house
On the side of the hill
To the sound of the birds
After the silent screams
To the snow falling
To the ground where it settles

I hope you see why I love it
I hope you see why I left

When you are on the shore
The water seems to go on forever

the point is the tip
    the sharp end that hurts

I can never enjoy the radiant heat
I must touch the coals
I am compelled
By what burns inside me
Who will deny me
Only myself
Nothing is lost
It was never in reach
I am the guardian
Of my own thoughts
Kindling these hopes
Against dry tinder dreams

You only remember what matters to your heart

I was never a little girl
You’re always a hundred years old
When you’re fighting and flighting
And freezing
It’s just so **** cold
My throat is raw
From begging you to love me
All I ever hear back
Is you raising your voice
To tell me to shut up
I am quiet now, daddy
You made me
But you can’t see me
Ironic
Since I’m the one haunted

is anyone more predictable than a poet

When the Maker lay me in the earth
And the angels thronged about
With stars wrought in their hair
And cosmos soldered to their belts
The ageless bestowed to me a thread
And it was woven of memory
He did not give me wisdom
And I could not tear it apart
The maker wrapped this thread
And around my soul it stays
For part of me is part of the past
And all who dream are dreams past

I will memorize my memories of you
Like a scholar of scriptures
Say your name like an amen
My dreams of you are like prayers
That I beg god to make reality
Let me place my kisses
On your forehead
Like a wax seal
That I may seep
Into your thoughts

This is my love
My love

The real smiles on my face
Were sewn there by your golden eyes
And I cannot help but wonder
If its you who puts the twinkle in my eyes

Relationships can be an anchor or your wings
It all depends if you are learning to float or fly
It be one with ocean
Or to touch the sky

Mommy stop it
Just go away
Be like the rain clouds
And come back another day
You are never there
When I need you most
Just stop talking
And close your mouth
Its raining its pouring
But your love is boring
I walked away and I'm not coming back
Just figure it out, that thing you lack

I wish my Mother loved me
Like in those stories
I wish my Mother knew
What I've been through

I scream
It hums through the air
On the backs of razor blade wings

I scream!
It catches in my throat
And pulls my heart out with it

I SCREAM
My woes
Into the night that bore them

I SCREAM!
My anguish is such
All will unwittingly now know

i scream
A futile rasp
Noise is nothing, when follows death

I scream
Still you do not hear me
A broken heart is not a quiet thing

We wair for own runrise
When we ourselves are fire

You did so well
With the lot you were given
Quenched your thirst
On a hundred short straws

She took it
A minute at a time
So that now
I can enjoy hours, days, moments

There are children inside of me
I must set them free
I feel disconnected from this body
From my body
Who is living here

One day
I will look on your world
With great fondness
Too long
Have I held my breath
Against the terrible monotony of time
Marching this unforgiving carcass
Across the sand
I am tired
Weary
Aging
My youth has forsaken me
For the fading promise of tomorrow
She has born little fruit
I will go into the desert again
The sun will come to my skin
A lover that has been waiting
To kiss me with passion
To touch
Has it been forty years
Or only a moment
The figs will dry to anjeer
Or perhaps it is only a mirage
There is nothing tangible here
Beyond the sand
And she
Slips all too easily
Through my fingers

The angels were whispering in my ear about the confines of my heart
They know I withhold nothing from you
Yet when I am sad it is not their hands against my mouth, but a strangers
I have no plight against them
When my head is screaming to let out a sound
No whisper is even heard
Will my casket be filled merely with cheap regrets
When I could have been speaking truth
My love, how do I find my voice

I find new troubles
At the bottom
Of an empty cup

Whisper softly to me
Through the seams of your pillow
For just one night
Let my dreams be sweet
Carried in slumber
By the sound of your voice

To bad I cant write words that will last
Or even be long remembered
Like a fading flower falling to the ground
Are the cries from my lips
A path that ends after one last bend

What if
I saw you
With another girl
What if
You held her hand
Will you make her laugh
Like you did with me
What if she smiles
Is she prettier than me
Will you hold onto this one

What if you introduce her to me
Do I smile and shake her hand
And say I am pleased to meet her
What if I haven't let go
What if I still feel the same
Maybe I still give a ****
But maybe I am not in your plan

What if
You buy her flowers
What if
She kisses your cheek
What if
I wish I was her
What if
I want your arms around me
What if
I want to breathe the same air you do
What if
I need you
What if
I had a second chance
What if
You made a different choice
Maybe you would still love you

What if my heart still wants you
What if I still love you

I stand at the door
And knock
But my nuckles as hopeless as the hands that guide them
Oh full moon
Bathe me in gentleness
That as you set
I will rise
To fill the emptiness
Just one more star in the sky

Thirty-five thousand words
Erased countless scars

Please tell me I am begging you
Which of these thorn covered paths will lead me to you
I have not time to waste to discover the true one
You must show me the way, so I can be on my way
Finding you is of the utmost urgency, quickly
I dare not delay, for time is life, and a single moment spilled
Could be catastrophic to our future, my love

I love songs that make me cry, because it means my soul isn't all rock yet

I pray for wisdom
Not for age
It seems as the days roll by
That I always get one
Not so much the other

Do you not see the storm?

As you lay on your island.

Watch.

As it comes to cover you.

In the tears you reaped.

From every heart you stole!

And as the waters wash...

...over your broken body.

And the salt stings your cheeks,

Remember.

That kisses are sweet.

Tears are salty.

And this world doesn't have,

Rules.

Just for you to **cheat.

Of all the tastes in the world
Your kisses are the most **tangible

This was my sanctuary
But now it is **broken

It's as if I stayed awake just to be sad in the dark

I am trying so hard
Not to cry
But I begin to wonder
Does it even matter anymore?

Were we not children once
Heavens not breathless
Only myself
Worlds fading
From atmosphere
As quickly
As called into orbit
By name
Compelled to answer
Stars timid
Of their own light
Draw close
Lips of a sinner in prayer
Time has baited her breath
What has caused
Relentless torment
Will your words
Not bury themselves
In the earth
Long after this day
Let my heart burn
As do my cheeks
And my ears
Confidence
Will find me again
The devil
A fool for promises
Jester of his own court
Why does your spirit wane
In this drought
New waters will come
New hopes too
Knowing little of gods
That love much
Ask little
Hearts aching
I am tears
Stinging your cheeks
Let sorrow pass
A world with no worth
Besides souls
Scattered as pennies in the street
Let not your light fade
Words diminish
There is hope still
Jehovah holds skies
Holds mountains
Your plight
Not so small
To slip through his grasp
You came
As a child once
This is not forgotten
You are young
To him still
Young to the earth
Do not act in haste
Love on your tongue
More than kisses
For lips
Hold a flame
For yourself
I knew anguish once
I will not walk
That way again
Praying for new shores
In deepest waters
Unparalleled

I am not patient in my healing
Claim no diety in my veins
Your name the eternal flavor
My mouth that would not wash out
Not with whiskey, water, or time