The rain clouds gather above my head
Another day just beginning
Already misguided and ruined

The sun is lost behind a dark expanse
I should have known my happiness was not to last
Like all good things, they pass

The blackness of the sky
Cannot frighten me anymore
Its is just another closed door

I learned so long ago to shut out
To curl into a ball and block out the world
To become numb, to survive

I cannot depend on anything or anyone
Love is weakness and I am strong
On my own I know I cant make it

Take my heart but please don't break it
Use my broken glass
And you can build a window

Then even though I am scared
You can see clearly again
Frame me and place me on a wall

Out of sight out of mind
In a another dimension
Another time

This world has no magic
But this world has so much power
How do you survive

In a world filled will lies
The eyes watch and they burn my soul
They keep me at bay from my purpose

Is this life all but worthless
A birth into a sodden grave
With one reason to survive

The air gets harder to breathe when we are in the same room
The light is so much brighter on your face than mine
Why is gravity pulling us together
This world has not been kind to your heart or mine
Why should it be now

I have to stop trusting myself
I cannot keeping hiding behind these eyes
As each one of my friends like a flower slowly dies
I lift mine eyes unto sunny skies
And say a prayer that I don't know will ever be heard
Maybe a little bird will carry my cry up to heaven

Or maybe I speak to deaf ears all around me
I try to get your attention but you see right through me
Its like I don't exist or am in a whole other dimension
I am suspended from the sky
By an invisible wire
But it keeps pulling taught
Slowly lifting me higher

Away from where I want to be
And the people I choose to love
Bringing me to my other life
The one I hide above
Before I could only watch and wonder
What is was like to be one of you
I was forever and outsider

But now I am far to close
To so many hearts
If I ever left the circle would simply fall apart
I am the cornerstone and the capstone in one
The foundation set oh so carefully
I couldn't let you crumble when you depend on my
I can hurt anyone else this is my second chance

This is a burden I choose to bare
On a broken back and bent shoulders
My knees are weak and my arms are limp
And if I move I know you will slip
But I need to nourish my broken body
But how can I the rules or body I cannot bend
But it doesn't matter I am only here to mend
The broken hearts and the jagged wounds

It is not my place in this puzzle
I must find my own in this world
This is not my home but that is so easy to forget
Just remember this war is not over yet
I am still betting I cast my lots on you
No matter what happens I am going to see this through

I don't care how far I must go to protect you
Even to the ends of the earth and back again
I don't care if these frail bones shatter
Nothing I do matters
It is all about you the apple of my eye
Its all about you but can I teach you how to fly

Its so dark when I blink
That moment of confusion
When my thoughts are my own
Why is it so scary
To be left by myself
I am a child
So afraid of the dark
Afraid of the hands
The cold and the wind bite like teeth
It is so wild when I am on my own
The sudden mood swings
Where I don't even understand what is happening
The decisions I make are not my own
You cant trust me
Or my bretheren

You hold all the magic of the universe in your hand
You tell me the answers to things I could never understand
But I don't need all the answers to things I will never know
I just need to hold your hand and let those things go

You have the stars spelling out my name
But its just you I want I don't need the fame
I cant see the future I don't know what will come
But I will always trust you cause you rise like the sun

Your life is different and your face keeps changing
But I can always trust you and the fire you keep blazing
The magic you control is stronger than my hope
But my love keeps you captive stronger than rope

Your magic is it closer to your heart than me
Your magic does it keep you captive even though you say it sets you free
See may not being believing
But my eyes are so deceiving

My mask is melting from the heat
My tongue is salty no longer sweet
My mouth is dry and lips are parched
From the long dusty roads I marched

To get to and oasis in the middle of a dessert
To let your magic get rid of the hurt
Is this just a sport to you is it all a game
I just want to see you now without all your pain

I am waiting the lights are blinding my eyes
I run across a beach to and endless shore

I watch you rise out of the sea
You always look so beautiful to me

The pain I went through to give birth to this love
It was all worth it I love watching you grow

The words the wind carried from your heart to mine
The waiting it took but it was worth it divine one

The endless road we walk together
The bond we hold no one can break

Your hands so rough and mind so soft
But together we are made to last

The fire doesn't burn when you are my shield
Oh darling just lay with me in this field of daisies

The ocean pulls your hand from mine
Be we remain forever locked in time

Your destiny may not be written in the stars
But your dreams are
Your troubles may count more than the grains of sand alone the beach
But your hope fills the oceans
Your beauty may sink to the bottom of the depths
But beauty comes from the inside
Your tears may be heavier than rain
But they shine more than the diamonds in the mines

Your world may not make sense
But it should or there would be no purpose for you
You may owe many debt
But remember the war isn't over yet
Your longing may have run dry
But your love expands past galaxies

Your destiny may not be written in the stars
But your dreams surpass all knowledge
Your story may not be written in the sky
But the days spell out your legacy
Your life may now know this world
But your heart beats in time with the tide
Your passion may be held captive by lies
But only you can set it free

Your destiny may not be written in the stars
But your dreams are. Believe.

Let it go
Just let it go
You have held on for to long
All this time you have been wrong

Just let it go
Just let it go
What you don't know cant hurt you
But what you do digs so deep

But that's okay you will come out stronger
Refined by the fire

Let it go
Just let it go
Its okay to hurt
And I know you will cry

Just stop the pain and say goodbye
Let it go
Just let it go
You need to be yourself again
And you will always have me for a friend

Let it go
Let it go
As the wind starts to blow
Lay your wishes on the stars
Nothing can hurt you from so far

Let it go
Just let it go
Unclench you hands from the fists
Take to remember all the good times you missed

Just let it go
Let it go
The air is still clean
Let it go
Let it go

Just let it go
Its okay
Just let it go
And come my way
Just let it go
Just let it go

You idiot
You thought I love you
You stupid boy
You thought I cared
Why would I love you
There is nothing there to love

Just leave me alone
Cant you see I am trying to ignore you
Stop getting in my you
You fool
How could I care about a nobody
Why would I care about you

Oh please give me a break
Get out of my face
For goodness sake
Please just move you are in my way

Stupid child
Just use your brain
Silly boy
Just think about it for a moment

Why would I care about you
Do you really think my world could revolve around you
Well to be honest it does my dear
And I will always be here have no fear
<3

Your words are sharp
Like a two edged blade
The people I hurt
The choices I made
The words you speak
Are not set in stone
But if you speak anymore lies
You will stand alone
And it is my death
You will have to atone

My quiet you say speaks the loudest
The dark you say spreads so much light
The ocean you say is the driest of all
The dessert you say quenches your thirst

Sleep you say only makes you tired
The food you eat only makes you hungry
The silent beating of my heart you say echoes like thunder
The air you say chokes you like being ducked under

The cold you say has never felt so warm
The sun you say chills you to the bone
But my love is the only thing that is real
Its the only thing that feels right

I have galaxies inside my soul

That one drink that leads to another
Select your driver, chose your brother
Lets go out and forget our troubles
Let fill our minds and stomachs with bubbles
Sit on a stool in bar
Brace yourself this could go far
With makeup to our temples
Looking like people we shouldn't resemble
My hands shake and my voice trembles
When my stupid choices all assemble
Hiding in a crowd of drunken idiots
Just wanting to fit in to get with it
When we all look alike
And we all get in stupid fights
Is this what my life is meant to be
It all just seems silly to me
Lets hurt our bodies but not alone
Is this the life I want to condone
With a drink in one hand
Double ******* the band
The lights hurt my head
And I long for my bed
The smell of clean sheets
And the look of clean streets
I want to go home to where I belong
I was looking for myself but I wasn't lost all along

You say it at parting
You say it when bad things are starting
You say it when the sun sets
You speak it when you have seen nothing yet
You say it when you don't want it to be over
You breathe it when you cry and moreover
You say it to your dreams as they fly away
You say it to the ocean at the end of summers day
You breathe this parting to those you love
You speak it to the clouds above
You say it when the race is never finished
You say it when the tears have diminished
You say it for those who cannot
You speak it to the those who on pain you have wrought
You breathe it into the fields of home
You cry it out to those all alone
When you leave those you love
To find a new home above

Goodbye

And I Promise

To love you to the ends of the earth
And I promise to save you from all the nightmares
To show you the love in my eyes
To keep you until I die
I will follow your heart
And I will be your blanket
I will protect you from danger
And I will be your savior
I will break all the curses
And I will make your wounds better
I am the key to the lock of the chains that bind you
I will hide you from the demons that seek to find you
To touch your hair
To protect your heart
To walk beside you and match your foot steps
I will be your bridge over troubled water
I will never lie

There is nothing I cant save you from except from myself
I am the only one who could hurt you
And that is why I am leaving
I will go to another world
With my white flag unfurled
Goodbye sweet love I must keep my promise
Goodbye darling you are the only one I will miss

I set fire to your lies
I burned the beauty in your eyes
I put rain in sunny skies
I sent all the spies

I put the break in your heart
I was the rope that pulled you apart
I am the broken wheel on your cart
I poisoned the sting on the dart

I led you to troubled water
I made you want her
I built the fire made it hotter
I took the blood from the slaughter

I put the beast in the beauty
I took the valor from your duty
I let you think that you used - me
I made you fell like you abused - me

I add the dark to the light
I hid the stars in the night
I put the scared in fright
I was the wind that blew your kite

I am the sand that you are sinking into
I did all this to prove I need you
I made this choices cause I couldn't get though
Not without you darling not without you - I do

How can I sing
When my voice is broken
You ripped out my heart
And set in in a chest - oaken

How can I dance
When my feet immobile
You tripped my and I fell
You my enemy are far from noble

How can I laugh
When my heart is so tired
The sadness seeps into my bones
Is that what I inspired

I cannot help but to blame myself
The weight is on my shoulders
I carried myself high
But now I am buried under boulders

Broken glass underneath my feet
A river carrying me out to sea
I glide in a painful daze
Trying to escape - to be free

I travel under the sunken earth
And I hope never to see the sun
It is finished - it is over
It is done

Believe in myself
There is nothing left to believe in
I am broken
And again you win

It was just a trick - Just a joke
Am I the punch line
Will I make it to the end
How can I be drunk - without wine

I stagger up a mountain
Trying always to reach the top
Though I just keep slipping
I will never ever stop

If I could but reach the sun
Then maybe I could shine in the sky
Or would I just get burned
Why cant I see my whole life - I've been living a lie

I try and I try but to no avail
My skin is black yet also pale
I walk a ****** wicked trail
What will happen if I fail

Should I just turn back
No there is nothing left for me
I need to climb
I need to be free

So I bend my back
And I shall bite my tongue
And the end
We will know who won

I am locked in your iron grip
Not a single drop of water between my lip
Let me fall and I will slip
Let me go and I will trip

I stumble in the darkness with no fire
I stand behind a glass will still filled with desire
Falling from the highest spire
As the flames call higher

Dust me off so I can rise
So you can look and see the pain in my eyes
All the times my flame dies
Nothing can put it out not even all the rain in the skies

You shine brighter than I do
Its all about me and never about you
All the words that could never be true
All the storms that you just walked through

I think I can reach up to where you dwell
And figure the stories you would never tell
Follow my nose what the is that smell
I chase you over the earth up to heaven and down to hell

A race that neither of us can win
You could ruin my world with the drop of a pin
You are a part of me like an evil twin
I love the fire you hold within

You were within my reach
I learned the lessons you had to teach
I said I loved you but it was just a figure of speech
You were a wall I had to climb
You were the wall I chose to breach

All the time

The ransom on your head
And the new marks upon my bed
A secret that lies between the sheets
The tremble of cold feet

I dipped a toe and it got wet
I could stop myself - not yet
I breathe my fear into your lungs
I clasped the cold ladder rungs

A silent scream of my own choice
A screaming calling crazy voice
We did it together - not strong enough on our own
Our choice to make our debt to condone

Now I lay in a ditch
With a heart of evil witch
Now numb buried in dark earth
A painful shallow berth

Call for me I need your name
To ignore my own pain
This is your own foolish doing
Watch the storm clouds are brewing

We see night and day but can we not look
At what we lost and what the dark one took
My foot is caught my heart in between my hands
My allegiances torn between lands

The light is diming and the night falls
And you and your voice calls
I crawl between the thorns
From this I never learn

A breeze between the sheets
Where body and I always meet
Reading to deep between the lines
Remember oh so many times

I did the wrong and I pay the price
Not once now but twice
The path is thicker the steps are faster
Like a dog called by his master

I need the rush and I love the fire
All things aside I just have on desire
No words because the actions speak louder
Like a fish on the shore - I continue to flounder

Like words written in stone
And a candle all alone
A deal is struck
And so goes my luck

A had a choice - and a future
But caught between web and suture
A trap that I walked into
A trail I chose to get to you

You call me now in the dark
You want me to play my part
No knife but still you leave scars
All your kind belong behind bars

But please know this comes from a place of love
But I cant touch you - without a glove
If I do I would burn
Just another lesson to learn

I have to go - I will follow the sun
Until I find another one
A galaxy filled with stars
A world that is unlike ours

I will shine like the moon
A light but hidden behind gloom
You see me and watch my glide
Seeking for the heart I hold inside

The sweet smell of frozen pines
The disappointment in your eyes
I am sorry I ignored all your cries
But at my heart it's me I despise

The cold embrace of winters hug
I just don't feel it anymore no love
All I feel is the acid rain falling from above
I am a ***** urchin and you a pure white dove

The silent kiss of the wind when it blows
The beat of the drums no one knows
The secrets that only time shows
The silence of power that the water flows

I was strong with a good heart
But that is in my past
Like all good things
It was not meant to last

My words are half true
But I can't see clearly anymore
I just want to know my destiny
To see what's in store

I am afraid to dance
Maybe The Lord of change will curse me
Better to be bound with others
Then alone and free

Better to look through frozen eyes
That have to part with sight or say goodbye

A door slammed over and over again
A battle fought by foolish men
Feet running in a straight line
All of us trapped by time

Lets just agree to argue
You don't smile and I won't either
I stab you and you stab me

Just let the anger control you
Let the vengeance take reign
Self control is a joke
It's so easy to just lay here
And forget the world

The way things work is twisted
Why can't we just stand face to face
Let out the emotion blow for blow

Fair and square no hard feelings
Just a chance to show what I really am
What I have become the monster you made
We both breathe air
But that us where the similarities end

Just let the tide rise high
Over flow the banks
No hugs no kisses no thanks
I don't want your help
I must do this on my own
Without you all alone

Let's me just slap you across the face
Then it will be your turn
For you to teach
And for me to learn

I am not mad
I am furious
I tried to be nice and patient
I thought maybe it would all work out in the end

But it didn't
I boiled over
I burned everyone around me
Like a hurricane I came ravaging the land

Just like you ravaged me
Why didn't it stop sooner
Before I erupted

Exploding creating small fires
All over the world
Just like the time before
And the time before that

A scar opened over and over again

What if
I saw you
With another girl
What if
You held her hand
Will you make her laugh
Like you did with me
What if she smiles
Is she prettier than me
Will you hold onto this one

What if you introduce her to me
Do I smile and shake her hand
And say I am pleased to meet her
What if I haven't let go
What if I still feel the same
Maybe I still give a ****
But maybe I am not in your plan

What if
You buy her flowers
What if
She kisses your cheek
What if
I wish I was her
What if
I want your arms around me
What if
I want to breathe the same air you do
What if
I need you
What if
I had a second chance
What if
You made a different choice
Maybe you would still love you

What if my heart still wants you
What if I still love you

My home
Place of birth
Such a lowly
Humble berth

Is this where
The love lies
Or this is where
The love dies

A simple place
With welcome face
Memories up to the roof
The pictures holding proof

They frame walls
Hands and feet
So many faces
Gathered here

Looking through
Walls of glass
Does this joy
Really last

You don't know me at all
What is my favorite color

All you know is my face

What can you see

Do you see inside

Can you look

Past the lies

I scream

Tossing and turning

But you just watching

Laughing

So evil

And so dark

While I am

Simply torn apart

I was a pawn

From the start

You think that this

Is just fun and games

But games do not end

In this pain

The crowd watches

And they cheer

Is the end

Really this near

Do I win

Did you loose

Ring the bell

Or I will choose

Love is never easy
All magic comes with a price

I paid and you reaped
You laughed and I weeped

Its funny looking back
All I see is your trail of black

The light are out
The night seeks me now

You told the demons where to find me
You taught the ropes how to bind me

Tighter
Tighter
Just let it pull

Higher
Higher
Just let it burn

Is this just another lesson learned

Loving you hurts
But being alone is more painful

Saying your name burns
But the silence starts yet another fire

Looking at you is so hard
But the firmness in my heart cant make me look away

You changed my life
And you changed my name
You heard my heart beat
But you inflicted the pain

I thought you would fix it
All of my problems
But now that its over
I just have more scars

The mess I made
The milk we spilled
But none of it mattered
Since we were together

I'd rather not sleep
Than sleep alone
The darkness bites
And the light burns my eyes

The words are redundant
Just the same lies
And I cry out each night
To the starry skies

My wings are bent
My arms are bruised
My head hurts
And my heart is over used

Let it go
I just need to punch a wall
Hold on
Why make the pain last

Just leave me and let me die
Carry my body out with the tide

You silently left
As tears streamed down my face
I was left in the light
But the only bright part of me was my shadow

I couldn't hide my face from the sun
I thought that you would be the one
You are gone
I feel just so empty

I cant understand why you left me
You say find someone else
But all I want is you
I don't understand how my world could just break

You said you were protecting me
You said you couldn't hurt me
But not hurting me hurts me even more
I am different without you

You completed my world
Now I am left missing my most importance piece
You, you held me together
And when you held me in your arms I could fly

But now I've lost my wings and you are the one who has drifted to another shore
I am empty here standing behind your locked door
You shut me out
I just walked away

Not knowing how to feel
Not knowing what to say
The silence isn't awkward it is just lonely
I cant hear your voice and when I do it doesn't sound the same

You are perfect and always will be
But now I am broken and don't think I can be fixed
I don't bend I only break
Why couldn't you hold on for goodness sake

It wasn't worth it
I have so many questions
Do you have the answers
Walking away is never the right thing do to

Sometimes the hardest things in life
Are the right choices
Sometimes the right thing
Is also the wrong

Its all about perpective
But no matter what way I look at it
I still hurt inside
The tears are made of water

But all I feel is knives
You tore me apart
And skinned me alive
It burns its bleeds

But it still beats strong
This is how I feel when you are gone gone gone

You say yes
I say no
You say stay
I say go

What I say does it really matter
Do my words ever reach your brain

Or do they float in empty air
Void of meaning
Void of care

I want the truth without deception
But all I get is

Do you really understand my words
What can I say that is not twisted truth

The flowers spurt forth from the ground
But they do not burst into bloom in one day

They will grow slowly and then before my eyes
The colors they will spread and create a lovely head

The leaves that float are dying now
The gracefully fall from bows above

Blown by God's breath so sweet and soft
Carrying promises high and aloft

We wait on your timing oh clock of the world
We wait for your voice we want to hear your word

I am small like a grain of sand
I cannot stand without your hand

I fall and am embraced by cold dark earth
Huddled in a silent berth

Hahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahah­ahahahahahahahaha

What are this
What are this
What are this
What are this

It is a silver unicorn!
#EvilLaugh

The message you left me on the wall
It changed my life and my whole world crumbled

I am trapped
I tripped I stumbled
Oh the angry words I mumbled

In between the worlds a blur
Spinning silent in orbit

My head is not my own
Controlled by demons in a rage
Take my book rip the page

Your soul stands and it you fly
To empty barren immortal skies

Reach it stop before the end
It will pull you into its embrace
One last sodden face

I wake up in the morning feeling like a child
But something inside me is crazy and wild

The words pour fourth like water
Pennies spilling, made of copper

It boils over and it burns
Remembering lessons I have learned

I yearn for the light hidden behind your eyes
Like the sea and its stormy skies

I cry but my words fall upon deaf years
Struggling to see you clearly through the tears

Oh a child I am and child I will be
Will I ever be able to see

I am blind lost in darkness
Feeling empty no more no less

Pain is riddled in my chest
Is this all just a test

I gave my all you want my best
Stop wait I need to rest

Holding on to your hand
I am falling help me stand

You are strong you can see
But why do you ignore me

I am trapped behind glassy expanses
Standing in silent trances

I am afraid to move my feet
Will the earth crumble beneath

My hands reach out and brush your face
Just one touch just one trace

Your heart is soft I melted you
Didn't think I could get through

I cannot look but I can see
I'll hold you here next to me

The price you have to pay
When you are the hero who saves the day
Ride into the sunset but you ride alone
Cast out, falling heavy like a stone

You bear the weight of the world on your shoulders
Heavy pains n heavy boulders
Born through time
Walking the straight line

Cover your mouth when you sneeze
Hold your breath and forget how to breath

Long gone
A lone stone
Waves so wild and wet
But you have seen nothing yet
My hands shake in desperation
For a world without any preparation
I hold my head up to the crying skies to see
My feet stand still but my heart wishes to flee
I wait in silence and dread the doom
Trying to see through the gloom
A quaking heart with veins
Terrible shaken names
We speak riddles
And stop
Wait

Look at the clock

Rich without money
You rule without castle or throne
A kingdom of hearts
Won by conquest

You lay siege to minds
And twist my emotions
You can be clear like glass
The strongest of you
Are the only ones that last

You cannot run
But you can hide
Here you dwell
Deep inside

If I had two choices
You would be the third
You have wings
But are no bird

You teach and you grow
But how you travel no one knows

You cannot speak with a voice
But you talk by my choice

A chosen pain that we bear
A curse to heavily laid on the fair

Seek the sun at the end of its journey
Chase the light past the clouds

The dark is scared it will hide
Will you stay and be the one

It is finished

It is done

***** souls and empty minds
A candle in a room all alone

The wind blows but the flame does not flicker
Hearts beating fast beat quicker

They listen at the key hole
The reap the glory of minds they stole

The bells ring loud and clear
You hear the fear oh so near

Its your choice but its my pain
Are all my trials in vain

These chains are broken but still bind
Whispering voices from behind

Your hands are cold, cold as ice
You got lucky when you rolled the dice

What is your reason what is your will
I stand here frozen cold and still

The wind blows oh so strong
I've been here all along

I climb a tower to reach the skies
Dropping down to empty tides

Catching me I am falling

I watch you pace in front of your window

The way you move when you walk

The way you float above the ground

Like an angle when you fly

Like a butterfly in the sky

Flowers on the grave
Wasted wishes
Painful lies
Twisted truth

Hooves on horses
Clouds in the sky
Wings on birds
That forgot how to fly

Reading between the lines
Making breath
Taking time

Your place in life
Your spot in line
The single note from a chime

The wicked seas
And stormy weather

A rope to tie
A rope to tether
The one you love far away
The one you wanted to stay

The war between
Oh battle of ages

Fights and storms
The sea rages

The blades are drown
Farwell's are bade
A unfair trade

They reach behind me in the storm
Oil rains from the sky
The wild are set loose to rain
Bringing wrath and leashing pain

The veins on my arms tighten
Waiting for the skies to lighten
The fear is gone lost on the brave
Waiting for the victory they crave

The light at the end of the tunnel
Fire twigs and matches bundle
Duck your head and harden your heart
Do my will and do your part

The earth is uncertain of which side its on
The skies are empty and the sun is gone
The clouds tremble and they hide
Waiting for the tide

Mount your steed and say your prayers
Deep into the earth many rocky layers
The core or heart of our home
The death of many to atone

The blood that was shed in this place
The world rid of every trace
Scrolls with words
Wings on birds

The things you trust and remember
The light to bring and darkness sever

The train tracks lead to an endless road
The briars and thorns make a heavy load

The stones are uneven the feet of travelers heavily scared
People trying to push through a gate with a heavy guard

They raise the flags and their voices
Cursing the rulers for their choices

The dogs bark and the people scream
We are all on the losing team

A call for freedom a call to fight
I call to end the dark and reunite the light

People stand and people fall
Those who stood strong and tall

Words falling on deaf ears
A path winding through the years

A silent scream to help the lost
But you turn and count the cost

You hurt the weak and beat the lame
But you should cry and turn in shame

You think you know what you stand for
But you stand behind a shut door

What do you want, what can I give
So that the ones I love can live

I only need water, I only need bread
But I only have my hope instead

You strike my head, and spit in my face
You need the thrill and love the chase

You don't know how strong we are
We are never close and never far

You can't always be strong
We lie in wait until the dawn

We raise our weapons and banners high
We must give it one last try

The statues fall into the dirt
A lesson taught a lesson learnt

The strength of our hearts and the sweat of our brows
Was a heavy cost, to bring a terrible ruler down