The stars are farther away tonight

If the world had one less body
And one less broken heart
If the world lost my soul
And had it torn apart
If this life was empty
And I didn't know who sent me
If I had a calling
A person to catch me when I'm falling
If I owned the universe
And kept it in my purse
If I could catch stars
And sail them afar
If I could swim to the bottom of the lake
And choose which path to take
If I could fly on borrowed wings
And know what the morning would bring
If I couldn't talk with my lips
And I could only speak when I kiss
If I could dream in black and white
And hold you close through the night
If I could let my stresses go
And would swim with the flow
If I had a rule book for life
And didn't die during the night
If I had a world with pictured glass
And it was one that wouldn't last

Would you miss a world without me?

If I had a voice I would tell you tales
Of cities that rose and fell
If I could talk I would tell you stories
Of my brothers and sisters that were felled
If I could cry out aloud I should share
About the children that climbed me
And the ones that cried against my trunk
If I could shout I would yell aloud
At the birds in the sky that come to visit my leafy boughs
If you knew my stories that I gathered through the years
That number almost as many as my leaves
I could tell you of the sun and how its shadow speaks
And all the stories the moon gave to my by the stream
I cannot walk upon legs I simply stand and grow instead
For my branches are strong and my trunk is long

But if I were not a tree I would wish to be
Someone that had a dream to set them free

If you truly love me
Like you truly say you do
Then stop all the heartbreak
And just be you

If you truly care
Cuz I know you're there
Then stop ignoring my messages
And just disappear like air

I cant breathe the foul
odor of lies
I cant stand the stench
of your denies

Love like Alaska
Tear through the town
Love like Alaska
Knock everything down

Kiss like Kansas
Use lots of force
Kiss like Kansas
Cuz you know what's coming is worse

Walk like Wisconsin
And be confident
Walk like Wisconsin
Like your the one God send

My heart is screaming help me
My body yells it loud
But the voice of reason
Is hidden by the cloud

A foggy depth and no perception
A deep fall without a rope
Just another broken heart
That has lost all hope

Maybe our purpose is to find our purpose

I could write many words that you would never read
Empty rant words and deep flesh wounds
I could tell you stories to make you laugh or cry
But it doesn't matter cause its all a lie
I could make you feel sorry for the girl behind the screen
But it doesn't count cause there is something inbetween
I used a crow bar to pry the hearts I mended
And I counted stitches sewn by the witches
I vainly pursued more than one empty shell
But it wasn't worth it oh the stories I will tell

Simple written lines
Scars fade over time
The tick of a clock
The warmth of a sock
A candle with a flame
A life without pain

Oh vain compassion
And spinning compass
Who do I turn to
Who do I trust

There is one thing I have learned
That this sorry life has taught me
Time and time again
It is that when you are at a ******
Or lost in a dark abyss
The ones that you love most
And cherish above all the stars in the sky
They will not let you down
But that love will hurt
The knives will come pouring like water
Out of broken once love-kissed lips
They still promise to catch you
But they will not stand by your side
And when the waters rise above your eyes
The shall be your lighthouse
Where they used to be anchor
Once fun-filled careless words
Now guarded by white dragons
Holding back a beast you used to tame
And when the darkness comes they will not be the light
They will merely stare through the window
Watching from the night
I have told myself never to trust
No matter the cost
But the cost of not trusting is humble
Compared to when that trust is broken
So shattered pieces of glass
That my feet tread upon
Let the blood weave a trail
Of something deeper and more beautiful
And live your life for love
Something less that dutiful
I cannot teach you my lessons that I have learned
Merely show you the scars where I got burned
As each soul rises to heaven
Compared to a setting sun
So I will rise
And it shall be done
A final drink so bitter-sweet
A final breath a solemn treat
So love with all your heart but not with all your strength
For it will be your savior in your grave hour

The sea demons cold magic seeps into my blood
The sun warm fingers lost by love
A far embrace and distance stare
Prove it was them who lost something here

Oh sentimental dreamer
Guard of imagination
Just load your guns
And set your determiantion

Cuz when there is no water I am still wet
But we haven't finished, yet

I bit into a poisoned word and it tasted like your kisses

There once was a body of water that ran
All among the mountains and up to a ****
A clean clear river of simple pleasure
But it was worth more than all your treasure
But darkness fell to that land
And the I had no water to hold in my hand
The people cried "Oh, rain gods come and fill our stream"
But all in haste they decided we must sacrifice our Queen
Soul for soul and blood for water
Just one life to slaughter
But love of her people and her kin
Could not stop her from shaking within
A long trek to highest peak
And there they saw the remains of their creek
But a trickle of dew in the mud
And soon it would be mixed with sacrificial blood
On the alter the lady was lain
But all their hopes were killed in vain
The knife was raised and dropped like a stone
And on that day no sun shone
Her tears crept down in silent pools
To give life to these poor fools
And as you watch and as they wait
The tears of love and tears of fate
The rain racing to the bank
And the people fell and began to thank

The cold
Is unyielding
To heavy hearts

Oh silent wet and milky wash
Running down a glassy face
Doll like features and cold lips
Gently dropped by God's hand
A gift of rain to tomorrow sunshine
Little rivers winding through
Tell me I can still live without you
A poets remorse and empty words
The thoughts he said but no one heard
Could you just listen to a humble story
Could you just watch me cry
My invisible tears and speak silent words
Read my lips and kiss my cheeks
Red. Tears. A potent brew
But is it enough to sting you
Like a shaft from a bow
Like an arrow you pierce my soul
Like a stone from a sling
You leave me to fall
In empty shallow waters
Drowning in but a few inches of sea
Invisible tears on steel cheeks
Rusting as I start to weep

That one fleeting wish taking its time
The stars glow as they slowly aline
Celestial beings carved by a creator
Outer space and its fickle nature

Empty poems that carry dreams
So far away, as it seems
Drop of water and the sun that doth shine
Spinning around on a clock set by time

Oh free choice and captive rings
And many untold secret thing
A moon seen by two different sets of eyes
Each wondering if the shines

Oh wolf howlers midnight friend
And earthy showers that you send
The patient night bringing morning dusk
But in the stars who can you trust?

Can I write my lies fast enough for you to believe
Can you break my heart soon enough for me to grieve
Just another sun that sets far to fast
Just another shovel digging up the past

Your words are to sharp
The slice between skin
My bones are broken
And my skin far to thin

Things thrown to break windows
Trying to hide before it snows

Out a window
Just a few stories
Down the steps
Tripping on threats

Left foot
Right foot
Walking on coals

Left hand
Right hands
Against the wall

Bodies writhing like snakes
Just one simple mistake

I am beautiful.

Words I cant say.

I am pretty.

That lie just fades away.

Just the way I am.

Something I cant bear to understand.

I love you.

Just stop the lies.

I will always be here.

You said as you walked away.

I will stay.

You said from so far away.

You are my only one.

Was that a group message?

I care about you.

Stop bullshitting me.

Your scars are beautiful.

Says the one who inflicts them.

My Only Valentines.

What about the 364 other girls?

Just you and me all the way.

The why is this wall in between.

I only have eyes for you.

Well. I can see you to.

Goodbye

Goodbye

^ Atleast we agree on something

The key to my handcuffs broke
The water I drank made me choke
The clothes I picked are to quickly stained
The laces on my shoes never stay tied
The messy buns just fall out
The roads I drive are always dead ends
The stars don't shine for me

The door is always open
But you never come
I will always love you
But this is nothing new
The light of my city
That is never with me
The path to my heart
I lost right from the start

No velvet ropes
Of ticket takers
Just sunken chests
And heart breakers

The ******* the sidewalk
The face against rainy window pains
The girl of shadows and dark secrets
The girl that never lets anyone see her cry

The girl the really hates goodbye
The girl you left for another
The girl that chokes on her words
The girl that sits in the sand drawing obscure pictures

The girl that longs for you to be with her
The girl that knows you could make her dreams come true
The girl you never notice
The girl that knows you will never care

The girl that is never there.

I am the dark with no shadow
I am the evil on odd hallow
I am the winter storm, relentless
I am the beach of burning sand
I am the one that bites your hand

You strike my face

I am the one to strike you back
Just one choice and all is lost

I am lost
I am whole
You take you place inside my soul

I lift my head
You part you lips
From the same cup we both take sips

Just one love
Just one kiss
I never thought it would be like this

A candle a flame that wont go out
You are my wish
Someone I could never extinguish

I cant do this anymore.

Thank you for hurting me so I could see
Thank you for waiting on the corner
Thank you for knowing when to say goodbye

You are welcome for the love
But I wish it wasn't over

the air starts to thicken
and my steps start to quicken
not sure where I am running to
as long as its away from you
the lies that haunt my dark dreams
i am tearing at the seams
the ice sliding down my spine
just another defect in a line
when my skies are no longer clear
my vision is clouded by fear
the tears that evaporate by the sun
the pain you replaced and battle you won
i must lie if only to protect you
i have to I'd die if you saw through
i am a piece of distorted glass
something that wasn't made to last
just one shot and I would be erased
but i always forgive you when I look at your face
the lines on my face and waves in the sea
my feet are running I am ready to flee
long and hard strokes of oars
locking all of my doors
one mark higher than the rest
that still doesn't make you the best
when the test is impossible to fail
i am still standing here empty and frail
the call of the wind falls on deaf ears
all I hear is the sound of my fears
the light at the end of the tunnel is gone
and I realize all this time I was wrong
to late to turn or change my mind
i was you looking and you were all I could find
just enough to get my through
ready to plow ahead but looking back to you

You pile high the hearts you stole
Will you ever reach your goal
The stack that stretch to the sky
Reaching endless miles high

You look airbrushed all to fake
But its my heart you intend to break
Does this some how satisfy your soul
How does make you feel whole

The memories drawn across your face
Will I soon take my place
I don't want to be another ended line
But if its destiny it will be my time

You break and bend rules of all kinds
And you are not trapped by an expanse of time
Only confined by your master
He bids you works faster

The scars on your back are your own doing
But I shall be your undoing
You know not of the dens in the dark
I sound my call whence sings the lark

A song unbidden to human ears
This will reunite you with your fears
Flood gates shall open on heaven and earth
And you shall be given your pitiful worth

The signs at the fork in the road
The waves against the shore seeking to erode
You shall be washed from heart and mind
I shall but take my time

The craggy cliffs unreachable
The sand on the shore unbleachable
A word that does not fade on my lips
The stories lost between trips

A kiss that you seek to devour
But you must wait for the right hour
A trap set with you as bait
I hide in the shadows and I wait

No trick of fools to be wasted on you
I have thought my vile plan through
When the you the Breaker plan to break me
I will not hide I will let you see

But when you traps you set for me in vain
I shall then cause you more pain
The eye is on you watching closely
And blames shoulders sets on my solely

When my life you though you could steal
But you are left with nothing to feel
When reality hits you in the face
And you are lost in outer space

The Breakers rise out of earth crust
Brought forth by vile lust
But I am the will of all power
Bringing forth your ending hour

The fire burns
What did you think would happen
As snow melts and I see the real earth
Like a mask peeled to show
The face behind
When what you are trying to hide
Is what everyone really sees
What did you expect
This is life
Just a slap in the face
This is love
Just another broken heart
This is a game
What did you expect

Crying doesn't solve your problems
It only vents the emotion
But still I cry
And wait for love

I never want to let you go
So many tears on our trail
But I will still weep when you leave
You have blown through my life like an autumn breeze
You leave me cold but brisk

The lines are all to thin
Between life and death
I need you to stop questioning
I have already passed the test

When one footprint
Is on the wrong side of the line
When the distance
Is way to fine

It doesn't really make sense
To keep right and wrong
That closed together
This is not where I belong

You say I am the best that you could ever ask for
But I don't understand when you say you still want more
When I chose to turn a blind eye to your other loves
When its like being touched with care through burned gloves

Your other loves come around and its like I don't exist
When I see they way you look at them and feel like I got punched by a fist
This plot is way to cliché for it to have any meaning
And everything you do to me is far to demeaning

We've never known what it took for a relationship
Its like being unprepared for a painful trip

When your other loves are your only loves and I cease to matter
When you other loves cloud your vision and you cant see me
When your other loves get in my way and put me down

Then I shall cease to exist
But remember it is your choice

I am a monster behind closed doors
A dark evil contours my soul

The lines in your face
Deepen when you laugh
The tears on your face
Remind you of your past

The way your brows crease
When you think so hard
The way your eyes light up
And you shine like the stars

How you knit your brow
When you are lost in thought
How you change your voice
And pretend to be someone you are not

How your heavy eyes close
When you are ready for sleep
The way your face crinkles
When you try to peek

All so familiar
But it hurts my heart to remember

Red walls made of bricks
Red walls between you and me
Red walls that are to strong
Red walls that wont fall

Red walls of separation
Red walls the touch the sky
Red walls of rough sandstone
Red walls in a green forest

Red walls by the see
Red walls ridged my dirt
Red walls between you and me
Red walls that don't end

Red walls covered in graffiti
Red walls that shield the needy
Red walls the blows against
Red walls blocking the tide

Red walls the disappear in night
Red walls the keep darkness at bay
Red walls between you and me
Red walls protecting you from me

Boundaries protect and boundaries hide
When you live all of the lies
The lines are here to stand behind
The choices for you to decide
When all the faces resemble the others
You must divide child and mother
When the price to be paid is your life
When you wield dagger and knife
The faces that look on in expectation
How many ways can you destroy a nation
When the winning ticket is drawn from a bowl
And you miss your chance and fate takes its toll
When the whole world can see what you did wrong
When you cant find a home where you belong
The guidelines are way to specific
And the scenes from my life are to horrific
The babies cry and the screams break your heart
When the forbidden fruit you bit just falls apart
The blood you spill is on your hands
And you are chased through moon lite lands
The stains of sweat run heavy on your brow
When you make the choice not to bow
A rude remark and a sharp blow
Trying to figure out what you don't know
The buzzard are circling high over head
You wish you could run but face your fears instead
When you make choices without rhyme or reason
And you need to run but choose treason
So many paths that intersect in the end
What hides behind the next bend
The curtains are drawn and you stand exposed
You turn the sign and the shop is closed
A lonely walk to an empty home
A life you live all alone

I don't believe in fate
The omens do not control my life
The lines in my hands are merely lines
The marks on my body tell the real story

My hair is long the perfect mask
I have pictures of things that could never last
Time is a monster it devours me whole
I cling to precious seconds before they are gone

When a smile is all that I have left to wear
The empty compliments are so easy to accept
But what is the point when all I feel is contempt
How is self pity ever acceptable

Books are my friends I am torn between pages
When I can live a life I know will end happily ever after
But when I am forced to return to the world I dwell in
How can I not break from the stress

I am real you cant press me between pages
I am something that wont last I will fade
Like flowers trampled under foot in a glade
Just more earth turned over with a *****

When I regret the words I continue to say
Waiting and hoping for the end of the day
How do I grow with no sun love or water
I am a piece of clay left to dry without potter

When the fairytale ends and I am faced with reality
When people are forced to accept the real me
When bold words come from foolish hearts
When I end where I wanted to start

Then I am truly only and at peace
Then I am forced to face the beast

I don't need a man
To help me
Or to understand

I don't need your face
I just need time
And I just need space

But without you I am lost

I am trapped in a small space
Between two sturdy walls

The air is running out
And I find it hard to breathe

Without you I still have purpose
But I question if it is worth it

The tides rise and they fall
Like my problems don't matter at all

The hill continue to roll and bloom
But the tears come to soon

Without you my paradise is missing pieces
Without you the sea freezes

You are a perfect 'x'
In the right spot

You are someone that I loved
Someone that I lost

There is a fold in my heart
An uneven crease
Like my heart
Might be missing a piece

Beauty comes from the inside
But your eyes don't lie
When you look at me
Beautiful is all you see

The imperfections fade
Or do you not see them at all
Are my scars not visible to you
This used be so simple black and
white now mixed with blue

When silence is bearable
And when the pin drops

When pain is approachable
And when the day stops

When clouds are dry
And the fall from the sky

When eyes are blind
Only then will I die

My lungs hold my breath
And my head hold my brain
My feet bear my body
And my hands hold the chain

My chest holds my heart
And is to heavy
Will you hold it for me
Hold it, hold me, stead

When oceans drown
And skies fall
Only then will I love you

The veins in your arms are different than his
I know because I have traced them many times
Your hands are different, stronger
With more beautiful lines

They way your eyes absorb the sun
And how you shake your head
I wish I could be yours
But I am his instead

When the lights flicker and I am afraid
It is his should I lean upon
But when its day
Its your smile that leads me on

When my hands are cold
And he grabs them they do not get warm
But when I stand between you two
My heart is so torn

The energy he gives me
Is unlike any drug
But when I am near you
I feel safe secure and snug

When you catch my gaze
And I can see the jealousy
I wish I could let you know
I long to be free

He says he loves me
But love does not burn
I tell you to be patience
You will have your turn

But how can I leave
Someone I know, and knows everything about me
For someone I don't know
But says they care about me

How can a child
Face all her fears
How can I choose
Without all the tears

You ask me to pick
Between love and desire
You ask me to choose
Between which of you makes me feel higher

Once this choice is made
I can never go back
It might as well be set in stone
Or written in white and black

If I chose you
Would things still be the same
Or would I cry out in the night
Haunted by his name

Or do I chose the safe side
To stick with what I know
How do I leave him
How can I just let him go

How can my words explain
The lost love and all the pain
How can my words say
That I wish I wasn't alive today
How can I show you me
Without you judging from what you see
How can you say my name
Without me remembering pain

How can my actions speak
Louder than words that are weak
How can I live for the future
When I can barely make it through today
How can I stop choking
And figure out what to say

How can my heart
Not feel so heavy in my chest
How can I give you part of me
When there is nothing left
How can a needle patch me back together
When I have been stabbed to many times
How can my nerves be strong as iron
When I have been beaten and broken
How can I turn my face to the sun
When all I see is blood

How can reason stand above emotion
When this is bigger than both of us
How can I not fall to my knees
When I am weak from lack of care
How someone love me
When they are never here
How can my tears grow a flower to blow
When all I remember is gloom

How can you smile to the sun
Why I cry under the moon
How can your eyes run dry
When I just start to cry
How can the paper get wet
When it isn't raining
How can the water leave
When it isn't draining

How can my word make sense to you
When they are all jumbled in my head
How can you face the day
While I hide in my bed
How can you rise out of the ashes
While I get whipped with so many lashes
How can a smile be so hard to bear
When not a single person can say they care

How can a candle still shine without air
When I know that this life is not fair
How can you chose me out of the others
When I try to hide in the crowd
How can you hear my voice
When everyone else is so loud

How do you see me on the ground
With a all the people milling around
How can you love me or is it just pity
When I cant break the chains or be free

How can you see me as beautiful
When all I show is a disguise
How can you say you care
When there is nothing there
How do you make me wonder at your light
Instead of crying throughout the night
How can you give my heart peace
Instead of trying to fight
How can you love a wretch
When I am not strong enough for one

How do you say I am the one
That makes you better
How can you write the songs
And I write the letters

Driving drunk
Just one time
Just one tire
Across the line

And then my soul
Will sing again
I will sing
About love and men
And then my heart
Will remember love
Remember you
And figure out what do
And then my mind
Will be clear
So don't you fear

And then my soul
Will sing again
And then in you
I will have one friend
And then my heart
Will know its place
And remember your face
And then my lungs
Will breathe clean air
When you are there

And then my soul
Will sing again
And dust the ashes
Off of my wings
And then my soul
Will know its place
And it will love
With so much grace
And then my soul
Will sing again
Cause in you
I have a friend

You cannot force creativity it simple flows like water through me