I need these stars

I shall add my existence
To the passing of this world
And intertwine my small hands
To the universe
Still unwoven in mystery
And clouded in shrouds
Of hope

Just enough is what I need
Just enough I do not have

Just you will suffice
  To keep we warm and calm in this life

I feast on your attention

Recent mistakes
And emotions

Drowned out in tears and 30.5% alcohol

Praying they will never re-submerge

As the world of your dreams lays shattered on the floor
Will you dig its grave into my broken heart?
So that our broken, imperfect pieces,
*Will never be far apart

I want to paint your life away
I don't need a blank canvas
Just enough layers
To hide what is underneath

The tension was so hot

We could of cooked muffins on the hood of your **Honda

Stop settling for what is better
   And shoot for what is **best

Don't leave any little piece  of me behind
Because the littlest *pieces are the hardest to find

To sing my lies into your  soul

So that my truth will make you whole

To endlessly travel you limbs
Trapped between gentle layers of skin

Like Fall's best shades
Your eyes shine
If they were steps
I would climb

Cool and dark
And mixed with ice
To look in them
Is to pay a price

Brown as the leaves
With a shimmer
Deep as the earth
Tears much thinner

Gentle gazes
But yet you see my soul
Looking inside
To see what's whole

Sweet like chocolate
I dare not take a bite
I could never able to handle
The feelings at that height

For I would never wish to harm
That gentle part of your soul
I'd rather just watch
And let you stay whole

But yet I bit into your poison
A choice I chose to choose
And I shall regret nothing
For it was mine to lose

Trap me inside your eyes
I am lost in them already
Don't rock me like a boat
Keep your gaze steady

The real smiles on my face
Were sewn there by your golden eyes
And I cannot help but wonder
If its you who puts the twinkle in my eyes

This was my sanctuary
But now it is **broken

I die while I wait
Every moment a bit of life
Extinguished
Like the flame of a candle
Slowly sinking to the earth
Wreathed in light
Yet reduced to darkness
And so the demons rise
In the blankness
You have been found lost
Yet you must just say the words
To be taken home
But so still you stay
Alone

Beauty is more than what you see
Its something that creates a reaction

Like fire and dry wood
It can burn
Sometimes beautiful

But don't let it get out of control

No words more honest
Than those that fall
Unbidden from my lips

To a harsh gown of thorns
That encompass the earth
Judged and torn apart

By a one of a nobler birth
Could I compete?
Would I dare to be so harsh?

My sheets thinner
Than the water you drink
Did you catch me

Just to throw me back
Over the brink
Like an arrow

On fire at night
I would blaze out
Into endless night

You can not call me back
But yet I may return
Born and burn and beautiful

Like every other life
Not any brighter
Than you existence

Not any higher
For an resistance
To fight and lose

Or die and win
To make the battles
For you to win

You kisses un-gentled
You scent so torn
Between heaven and earth

All these scars were born
To travel up and down your limbs
Seeking for a harder way

To get within
To thrive under you skin
As thin as paper

To kiss you lips now
And taste it later
Like sweat on your brow

And the blood in your veins
I traveled around
Yet am hard to be found

As desirable as leaves
In a much to harsh breeze
Grown from the ground

Reaching for a sky
That sings and flies
And will ever fake to die

Dark clouds and burnt skies
More and less than butterflies
To not find your rainbow

Or be your sunshine
But to be yours
And you to be mine

A looking glass
You can never clean
Like double lenses

I am trapped between
Caught to a mortal form
Bound by your emotions

Would you release me
Don't just let me go
Push me away

No one will ever know
They are to absorbed
In their own laces

They never looked beyond
To see other beautiful faces
To trace the lines of your soul

To care if you were part of whole
To extend a hand
And grasp another

I found a hold
Hold  me close
Tight as a knot

I was neither given nor bought
Just an exchange
Don't let us trade hearts

For you would lose yours
But I will give you mine
So you can bind it inside

Right next to your heart
It will learn to thrive
It will never be lost

And never quite whole
But at least it will live
Next to your soul

Warmer than the cold
And as faded as dawn
Keep me inside

Or let me move on
To say goodbye
To lovers and friends

So ubruptly it ends
And I never knew when
So say goodbye

I never knew
It would be our last kiss
Was it something you needed

Or just something you missed
You can't press me
Between dictionary pages

For when the storms come
Its my temper that rages
Bound by paper

In handcuffs of ink
And when I begin to drown
Its you who lets me skin

Closer than kin
Thicker than water
You stole my father's daughter

She let you come in
But locked the door behind
So whatever happened

The lock would always remind
You of whispers
Hidden oak

To weave them inside
A memory cloak
What is found is found
And what is broke is a joke

I do not care to say what has not been said
Are their any words of life left in this galaxy?

Merely existing to reiterate past emotions
And create new dreams written in tides of the ocean
To lay upon the sand, basking in the sun
So as the light fades each letter
They will rest in the embrace of the earth

What more could I add to our memories that the desire for them always to continue?

How many stars is a soul worth
Would you sell?
Buy?
Or trade?

Or keep you soul entrapped in a beautiful cage
Known as your body
So that your heart would never be alone?

February words and
Unpursued waves
Memories of lies
To keep my story straight

A web so entangled
It snared its maker
Some for now
And some for later

Ankle bites
And goodnight lies
Morning coffee
As black as the night

Sweet and sweeter
A wretched dream
But is it better to sleep
Than to want to leave

A marker tattoo
As permanent as my existence
Traceable calls
To a newer resistance

Spell check those ***** stamps
Is it low enough
Correct all the rights
Where the truth is the lie

And fly your kite higher in the ground
Opposites and confusion
Emotions of dreams
Become as emotionally withdrawn as possible

Or enter the ground
To become a fossil

What is our existence degraded to?

Some seem to grow hearts on trees
They nurture them before they break open the hard packed earth
Singing to make them grow, like a witches melody
They want the tree to rise higher
To bloom in full feelings, emotions and dreams
Yet some trees are poisoned the fruit they bear is dark
Blood mixed with ink and all the broken promises
Other are bright as golden wishes and strong sunlight
Some may be shriveled, they had love to make them grow
But bye and bye they slowly let it go
Others look still so tempting to the eye
That you would wish to pluck it and eat it in one bite
But if you saw the inside you would know it wasn't right
No heart was perfect but each felt the world just the same
Each loved light, loved love, and hated pain
It is a big wonder how so many different hearts
Could come from the one and same tree
It is a small wonder though they grew these all
Yet no one gave one to me

I would be a fool
If I ever tried
To bind you inside my ribcage
Next to my broken heart
For you would make my lungs explode
And the life would beat to rapidly
For my chest to contain it

Mine will be a child's poems
About kings and mice and cheese
Asking for a book to help me along
I was going to make a copy
Of a story I once heard
But these words are from my own mouth
Reading the words off the screen
As the music fills my ears
Hope and nothing?
Hope and stars?
Really?

Is there more to come?
Could I make it mean something?
About God or life or dreams
Questioning each word as it appears before me
With furrowed brow and small smile twixt chin and nose
Now that you explain
Do I understand?
Oh my soul

Of all the tastes in the world
Your kisses are the most **tangible

The committee in my head is trying to convince me that I can wash away my troubles like a bug on the windshield

She called us granddaughters

Not by blood, but by love

Between day and night I thrive
Trying to find a way to feel alive

Could I hold your weight?
Could I compare?

Baby would you notice I was there?

Love me gentle
Love me right
But don't crush me with the weight of the night

When the lights go out
And the music raises our temperature

Clothes hit the floor
Under you
You will find
What you are looking for

Underneath the skies
Underneath the stars

*A eternity lies buried

Silent
Neglected
Orphaned
Wanton

Do I tempt you
With the smell of lies?
Is beautiful
Do see your demise?

Could you lie in the dark?
Would you make it a habit?
Would you remember my skin?
Could you see within?

Would you know my dreams?
Could you walk those halls?
Could you pinch me awake?
Would my essence you take?

From beginning to end
Would you let me love?
From start to finish
Could you give me a drug?

Could you get me high on emotion?
Would you bring me low?
Would you let me ride?
Could you see me be part of the tide?

Would you know my desire?
Could you fulfill its thirst?
Could you reach my height?
Would you see without light?

Question in contrasts unquestionable
Give me a reason and a will

Memory etched on a cage of pages
Though storms rise higher
And the ocean rages
And burns like wild fire

Emotions carved into chests of flesh
Open a solid oaken heart
Never let the beat rest
Eons of electricity to make it start

Souls of skies in darkened glass
Fogged beyond recognition
Like trying to drink grass
Is the way my eyes listen

Beyond today's vault
And yesterday's filing cabinet
Lies a raw un-denied fault
By a poet who dreams out of habit

Your sheets hold your secrets
Between cotton and silk they thrive
Trapped in a small expanse
But part of a larger infinity
They know names and bodies
And every curve of your back
The hold you down
And hide you away
Between each gentle layer
You cannot wash them out
Or cover them up to hide
They lay exposed in an unsafe place

Is there any truer comparison from light to dark
We find beauty in the stark contradiction
But I propose I different proposal
That you cannot know one without the other
What beauty would we see in the dark if we did not know another
How could we know depth of the sunshine
They are not opposite at war
But twins who argue evermore
Over who will rule
And who will fade
And whether or not we will see this place

The void  called to take me back
Come home to the darkness it screams
I whispered into its expanse of nothingness
A something of a quiet sort
*I belong to the light and sunshine
And nothing you have is me or mine

before the golden un-woken dawn
I stand measureless in time
the days unknown mysteries
in strands start to form
the un-dried dew in the grass rises
to create tendrils of life
the birds unanswered cry
sings forth into light
the uncapped ocean tides
reach for the mornings promise
in all the unviewed beauty
nothing is ever lost
in this undefiled moment
it doesn't come with a cost

If I wrote a poem about love
Could you find it among the others
Would my emotions be any better or worse
Redundant yet unique in your melody
Like another drop of water
In an over flowing stream
Would you drink me into your life
Or let me rush away in the current
Pull me out, or let me be pulled along
Is either right, or either wrong
I'm just another love poem
About your smile and your hands
Just another strong emotion
That guides my selfless choices
Just another one
Yet still unique in the song I sing

Could I build a poem like a brick house?
Held together with black and white emotions
Versus mortar, though some be just as hard

Could I stack them on top of each other?
Or would they not be strong enough
Would they break, or could they hold?

Could they blend together to make a beautiful picture?
Or be so obscure and obscene they would crumble
Would you find it beautiful?

Could you even understand?

Is it weird I will refresh my email for hours waiting to hear from you.
But,
The moment you send me a message I lose all self control?

Would you like to store your heart in this person?

Now.                     Never.                        Ask Me Later.

Can one heart be longer than another as a sentence is in my language
Do you speak love or merely write it on my arms

How many secrets can you fit between the walls in your house?
How many lies can you drown down the drain?
How many tears can you capture inside a broken glass bottle?

Will you let it be told, could you ever let it go?
Is this a beginning? an end? or will you fold?

We like to get high on emotions
See people kiss in the rain
Want to scale building in our dreams
Fly like a bird
And capture sunsets

But we hold our life for ransom
Say you have to pay to get it back
Between communication and tip jars
Life is lost and darkness thrives