My friend,

Does your heart feel
Like it's coming apart at the seams

Does it feel
Like the pain seeps in in-between

Have you noticed the thread
Clutched in my hand

I am trying to sew you
But it's not working like I planned

Until the darkest hour
I stitch and I sew

Even if I can't seal it
I'll never let you go

Your heart isn't a pillow
Its a comforter

To keep us safe
You are my comforter

The warmth you hide
Is okay to show

And if you trust me
I'll let you know

When your blood drips
Down your arms

I'll remind you my friend
That only hate harms

I can try so hard
To hold your heart

I will always love you
Even when you fall apart

You tears are mine
Like the oceans current

And we each know
The other is heaven sent

You look for me in the dark
And in the dark you find

All of the little pieces
That you left behind

I keep all my love
Inside my heart

So your memory
Will never be far apart

Your eyes see
Into my very soul

And you know
That I am not whole

We bide our time
And make many scars

We hurt ourselves
And bend many bars

Alone in our minds
We seek a way

To know this earth
And try to stay

Promises that say
Together we are alive

We still try to look
For a way to thrive

Hands clasped in hope
Never to let another go

For when we are one
Then we start to grow

From the sky you fell
To this humble
And earthly hell

To the water
You began to swim
Like a naiads daughter

From my lips
The worlds fall
Unbidden like a kiss

Like gentle rain
You turn into a storm
And bring much pain

I watch you roll
Across the sky
Taking toll

On earth and heaven
But as you thunder
You miss the chevon

You hunger and thirst
But you lack love
Which is worst

An angry hand
Raised to the high places
You no longer command

You fell to my home
And you cry
But you are not alone

Though you know
You will never return
You must go

Fairwell demon friend
When you find home
A postcard send

The way your essence fills my lungs
Can only be compared
To the way a breeze goes through my hair
For it is gentle
Yet still
You feel it tremble and stare

Breakups are like being an angel in heaven

And no longer do I hear your voice beckon

Then so suddenly I am quickly falling

And still your voice is not calling

To a dry and mortal place unknown

But the worst part is that I am now alone

My wings have been ripped from between my shoulders

They fall in fire to the earth, where they smoulder

So they burn in a fire that just gets hotter

And my questionable soul thirsts for water

Almost as hungrily as my heart searches for your love

You know you will never again look down from the stars above

Yet now I am bound to this desolate earth

Cast out from the skies to a humbler berth

And so we try to survive in a world of desolate silence

For I cannot find your peace among all this violence

God made the ocean
For the poets

So that when they looked upon it
They forgot how thirsty they were

The salt was not to bitter
To inspire their words

Rather it added
A nice touch of flavor

the best moment of my life
was when

you kissed me

between my eyes
above my nose
on my brow

and i will never ever forget

how loved you made me feel

There are different ways to live

And different ways to die

But between them both

You will feel **alive

To give you my love
Would make me a fool

To take your love
Would make me a thief

To share out love
Would change the world

Why did you settle?
For your sake you could do better.
She hates me now.
And she doesn't even know.
Half of your story.
Let alone 5% of mine.

She doesn't deserve you.
You could have anyone you want.
In the whole world.
I know I want you back.
I know you would of left.
If you could of chosen.

Chosen to stay with me.

I.
Cling.
To.
That.

Hope.

I will always love you.

But.

Right now.

I question why.
You are with her.
I hear.
I heard the rumors.
That you kissed.
She said it was awful.
You are always cold around her.
Inside and out.

But.

Baby.

With me.

You were fire to my ice.

When I kissed you.
Your eyes melted to gold.
And the heat between our tongues.
Was electric.

Yes it hurt to see you.
Together.
But I would be happier.
To see you.
With more.
Better.

Not less.
You went from me to her.
Ten to a two.
You don't need a trophy wife.
But baby I want you to have.
The best in this life.
Even if,

That isn't me.

And so I offer you,
My humble
Opinionated
Sacrificial
Words

I'm sorry

<3

Those cheekbones though :p

I am starting to care.

Oh god please make it stop!

I think I might dare.

No no no not again

I just want to love, and be loved

Why these desires

I second guess every thought.

And you **** well should!

But...

Oh here we go

I thought...

Don't think just stop it!

That maybe...

Facepalm


You would dare to take a chance.

Oh great

On a broken heart like me.

Mhm

That you would want to get to know,

Don't do it!

The girl who used to smile :)

Those days are gone you idiot!

You don't need to become my happiness

Seriously loser?

Just share it with me <3

So cliche

But please, please

Oh great begging

Please, don't break my heart

Here it comes

Because if you do,

If? When you mean.

There will be nothing left

You got that right

Ever again.

Oh the depravity

My conscience

Heyo

Tell me no, just stop and let go

I am right!

But...

What the heck!

I need you :/

No you don't!

To remind me I'm alive

Not for long!

In the morning and the night

Blah blah blah

You will be my light

Oh how sweet

I believe you are worth the risk

No he isn't!

And the pain

You idiot!

And the tears

Oh cry me a river

Because love isn't a risk

Wah?

It's a liability

In case no one has ever thanked you for you existence
I would like to be the first;

Thank you <3
For choosing, to be here.
To stay here.

I know sometimes it is hard. You will question why. A lot.

Thank you. God Bless you my friend.

This single drop of blood
Rivulating from my heart
Trying to run away
To be lost from the emotions

You trace your way
Down my scarred arms
And twist in agony
So deep into the night you dance

I fear you shall never return
You long for another system
With a steadier beat
And when the night comes

The trace you leave is sweet
I wiped you away
To forget the pain
But in this life

I drive myself insane

Do you not see the storm?

As you lay on your island.

Watch.

As it comes to cover you.

In the tears you reaped.

From every heart you stole!

And as the waters wash...

...over your broken body.

And the salt stings your cheeks,

Remember.

That kisses are sweet.

Tears are salty.

And this world doesn't have,

Rules.

Just for you to **cheat.

Don't just say sorry
And ignoring me isn't better
Just open your troubled heart
And write me a letter

Won't you open
You muttering mouth
Just say the words
It's okay to get them out

I want to hear
Every single thought
Inside of your mind
We won't get caught

Inside your eyes
I see the stars and the dark
But you just think
The night falls apart

We don't fall or trip
We get dragged to the edge
And as we jump beyond
We kiss the ledge

Never what I expect
Less than my dreams
I don't want a nightmare
But an in between

Just because you are nice
Doesn't mean no trouble
And if you give me one
I'll make it double

It isn't over if we fight
Words aren't the end
It's only over if
You walk away my friend

We are all alone
I'm not at your side
But that doesn't mean
You have to hide

I said I am sorry
That doesn't make it right
But don't you dare
Leave me alone in the night

Someone always dies
On the inside of their eyes
And so they kiss
Their way through the lies

Truth is better than before
A sweeter taste on my lips
But as you touch
The curve of my hips

I spurn your questions
As the giggles burst
Unbidden from my lips
Night are the worst

Let me go I scream
But my heart yearns
For you to hold me close
Swim through my tears

You drive me crazy
In the sweetest way
But I want this to be
A sane and happy day

Everything at once
All the time
Never ever make the choice
To stand in line

Faces in between two hearts
Sometimes it's the faces
That tear us apart
Or maybe the places

I don't really know
I don't really care
Because in the end
The beginnings aren't there

Less that the sky
More than the earth
Sometimes I crawl
Inside my hearth

To feel the warmth
And let it burn
And when it's time
It will be your turn

I handed you my smile
And you loved it then
But now I see
That was all pretend

I am cruel in nature
Your eyes bitter sweet
But I am not a dog
And you my treat

I will beg
Roll over and die
To get the life
Inside your eye

Just break the silence
Chopped in half
Over so soon
I thought it would last

My words are nothing
In your head
Because you don't listen
To what is said

I would rid my world
Of all the support
If you could help me
Bury all my hurt

Dress me in silk
And dowse the fire
Before I catch
And burn any higher

One finger to you lips
And I will still
But you must know
I don't bend to your will

Sometimes before its over
The heat will consume
Every breath
Inside of this room

To fill your lungs
With my own air
And know this world
Is just not fair

Like smoke we dance
At the last midnight
We run to the woods
And hide from the light

I wait in the silence
You so quickly created
I said I am sorry
And my breath is bated

I hide my eyes
Underneath my cloak
But this rope constricts
As if to choke

Just enough left
To fight this battle
I will keep your secrets
As you start to tattle

A lesson given
A lesson learnt
But all my scars
Are done and burnt

Enough to know
You think of me in torment
Even though I thought
You were my god sent

The worst dreams
I ever had
I get them all
From your Dad

He fills my terrors
With evil lies
And my tears
Fill these eyes

I would run to the sky
To find a place
Where no one
Knew my face

Goodbye I kiss
And goodbye I mourn
But each goodbye
Is a Hello in turn

I'm not mad at you
I am just sad at you

This is my safe place. <3

Thirty-five thousand words
Erased countless scars

People sometimes say,
You don't have to sleep alone
But I didn't know
My nights were yours to own

You tried to take
Things that can only be given
Forced me to believe
That dying was truly living

Didn't want blankets
To get in your way
So you took my heart
And threw it away

So many parts
Taken without privilege
Left with scars
And night to re-live

You spilled your lies
Inside of my weakened soul
And said "It's okay"
"It will make you feel whole"

So as my emptiness
Spilled out on the sheets
I knew my life
Had took different streets

So many twists
Like curves on my body
I tried to be good
But you wanted naughty

I beat myself up
For the scars you inflicted
I gave you a bucket
I wish you had kicked it

So dark was the night
Brighter than your intention
But the light came again
Something you forgot to mention

I should have run
At the first "I Love You"
It was a bad lie
But what could I do?

Three weeks in
And I wanted to die
After one night
I should have said goodbye

Instead of kissing
The scars on my frame
You made them anew
And wrought me in pain

I wanted to get over
But you wanted to come in
And so I died
On the outside and within

The illusion of glass
To walk right through
But I could see
The evil in you

Trapped in the sheets
You tangled my soul
You strangled my heart
And now I don't know

What it is
To breathe fresh air
Because this gas
Tastes like your share

You cavorted inside
To never break me out
I knew you were
Bad, never a doubt

These minty memories burn the back of my throat.

From all of the mortals below perspectives
You seemed to run so slow across the sky

For it was a dance of an eternity
A moment in the night of your life

And so you took your sweet time
As you ascended among the stars

To be the beautiful light we watch
You blushed red, from all the attention

And hid behind your neighbor
But with a gentle light you glow

So well you know your journey
So beautifully you dance

And as those of this earth looked on
You dared to take a glance

Every eye beneath the stars
Was yours to consume

And in each of the iris's
You saw a shinning full moon

New old feelings
Dug up from the ground
They had been buried in

They saw the sun
And grew into their wings
Flying to their home

Inside my heart
Light as butterflies
Like sunset in a soul

And I cannot help
But begin to wonder
What will happen

Next.

As I reach for
The glowing embers
In this sky

The one you call the sun
And as it falls within my grasp
Like the best colors

The gold in your green eyes
The dark in mine
But they both burn

Two flames are brighter
Than one fire
And the smoke

Wreaths us in mystery
Look at us now
Who would have thought

That we would breathe
The same air
Out of different lungs

That we could both know
The same song
To a new tune

I will play your heart strings
If you will pluck mine
But as we create a harmony

Don't let anyone know
Our own melody
For they will darken

The light and eclipse us
Into a unknown shadow

You still amaze me you running *******.

I handed over my scars and my blades
One at a time

I told you to be careful
Knowing me is like walking on crushed glass

You bleed and survive
But you won't be the same kind of alive

Don't want to be clingy
But so infused in your words

I can't get enough
Just let me go now

I'll get over it
Move on, cry out my heart

And as always I will leave behind
The best part

I wished I could have watched you been made
As your maker formed your body

To gentle your curves and temper your soul
I love how he gave you such sharp edges
To keep you safe in this vengeful world

I wish I could have seen him stand
In awe of his beautiful masterpiece

To know you belong not to this body
But to the one who made, and who makes

The created out of the un-created
Into a beautiful ****** existence

You do not know this world
But I will show its vibrant colors

And as you grab you brush
So you can paint your soul into life
I will watch you dream into the ever-night

I want only to know who made you
Not to learn your keepers secrets

But to see the love of your design
And know you were the best moment in time

To see the hands that fashion the hands
Out of the dirt of this earth

Am I the only one who see's
You, in the light of your Maker's worth

Because what I do
And what I say
Are two completely different things
I have been called;
Hypocritical
Fake
and a
Liar

Because what I do is small
And what I say uses big words
I have been asked;
What is the point of your existence
Or the meaning of your words?

And I can only say this;
to listen and be heard

I do the day wrong
And the night right

Just to see the stars
For we die without light

Don't want to rush any moment
Or try to stop the time

But I love the rush of life
We don't color in the lines

We drive between
Yet we cannot be confined

Always looking out
But we avoid the signs

We will figure it out
Do you want to make it work

I look at you
But you just smirk

I love the lines
That trace your face

I hope you never ever find
Someone worth taking my place

To sometimes be apart
But never be separate

What it takes I have to give
But you are temperate

Earthly and wreathed in shadow
In the world ever depth of darkness

Let the fire breathe into you
Make you more, never less

Though it has been merely moments
Since the sound of you voice
Flooded through my ears

I am drowning in the suspense
And waves of sweet misery
Crash over my tempered soul

And though you say much
That you would reach a hand
To pull me out save me

I could not know these words
Nor do I dare believe
That you would care so much

To watch one drown
Be a terrible fate in its own
Yet to save a soul from water

And lift it to your own shores
Is to link your heart to that other
A memory as strong as steel

To keep together, always connected
For a life that was not to live
But to be saved and continued

A moments hesitation could cost
So much more that you could pay
And you never stood a chance

But that didn't get in your way
For moments are smaller hours
And eyes are darker souls

Intertwined in water
And bound in the waves
You bore be from a watery grave

This shore no more stable
That our trembling fingers
And yet though I long for touch

I could not dare to linger
For promises from my fingers
Are not bound by my heart

For they are unsustainable
Yet honest in a way
And I would not lie to you

In such a harmful way
For you could never seek
To ruin a phantom kiss

But I know you should run
Before the storm comes
To close to ****

I cannot push you away
At the same time I need you
And I want you to stay

But my heart is a fire
And those who touch are burned
So many have tried

And many have yet to learn
I want a last
I don't need a list

I want to love
And to be kissed
But danger lies

Between all these lips
And truth is buried
But never missed

Some flames so large
As to consume
But mine a candle

Ever steady, always bright
But you would never miss it
Among those of the same light

To face a sky that never rains
But the sky looks down
On a face of rain

Tears to slip into shadow
If you never knew they were cried
Then they would not know how to hide

To pool in eyes of warmth
And rain down cheeks of pain
To die on charcoaled lips

And never be the same
A trail of memories
To ever be traced

To always be moving
Just to find a place
To never be the same

And live within each day
To know each hour
As you never did before

Because every moment
Must be accounted for

i have a broken heart
dont know where to start

found a place
met your face
stood in line
for a time
dont know how
cant slow down

make it up
make it fall down
love me now
take my heart to town

by my joy ride
my happy place
be the smile
on my face

like in a song
be my muse
make a beat
we will never lose

As the wings of the birds so cut the sky

So must our hands did the graves that die

How many more of my dreams
Do you think
That you can fit
Inside your hands

But

The more you fill
Into your palms
The tighter the space
The warmer it is
The harder it is to breathe

So as you squeeze
To hold them in
To never let them go

They will think
You mean to trap
Them in a forbidden hallow

To keep for ever
With no expanse
To die of love
And airlessness

To tremble in your palms
As you hold them tight
To tight

But

You just thought
You were doing right
How could you not
You were just doing right

A poet never forgets
The way it felt to feel

They may never remember
The time, date or the place

But they will know the colors
Of the falling leaves

The sound of your breath
In the fall wind

The dreams they lost upon
The desolate shore

They will always know
They could never want more

A poet will always remember
How it felt

To be in the perfect
Complete moment

They will never forget
Who was holding their heart

They will never know
What was going on around

For they saw to clearly
What was happening inside

They will never be able to lose sight
Of how your eyes turned to liquid gold

When they kissed your lips
The words that filled their head

And how every moment is a
Reflection of their love

A poet can never lose
The moments in that light

A poet will never chose a different
Melody than the beating of your heart

It will always be enough for them
To see into your soul

They may never cross an ocean
But they will survive rough waters

They may never learn to fly
But they know the clouds in the sky

They can kindle a fire from words
That have been burning in their hearts

And they will always remember
That they will never forget your heart

I know you can see through the paper thin garment
I call my skin

But yet still I wonder if you can gaze through my hands
To see the poker cards between my fingers

You would not cheat or call my bluff but you would know
Just the same what I chose

Would you differentiate your cards accordingly and
Win this game for you own

Or would you see that I have no other options and you
Would try to play me for you own?

The last words to say

The best ones to keep

The brightest in the sky

The deepest of the purples

Are *I love you

Send me away
   Just never say *goodbye

The less we talk
        The more I feel alone

The more we talk
        The less I breathe on my own

The less we say
        The more you mean

The more we say
        The less there is between

The less we touch
       The more numb I feel

The more we touch
       The harder it is to be real

The lies we tell
        The less we sell

The lies we keep
        Are burnt into my heart

What did I do to understand your body language
Never to need to interpret
A cursed blessing to understand
I read so much into the silence of your heart beat