I would understand if you hate me
I hate me to

I can't sharpen my pencils anymore

only fools do what I do

Am
I
Heartless
Because
For
The
Longest
Time
I
Haven't
Felt
Anything
Beating
Inside
My
Hollowed
­Out
Chest

the best pain
is the worst pain
the kind that drives me insane
the kind you can let out
only to return
and for the blood in my veins
it will ever year

I have walked so many miles
Never in your shoes
I never seen many smiles
Never been the one on your lips

So many journeys always alone
Many places to go
Where I travel unknown
In these worn boots

In these worn boots I mark
The earth with my feet
God gave me a spark
So the earth I enflame

Every journey a mission
I walk with these boots
Some stop, and they listen
To the words I've carried

These boots are a gift to my feet
Many steps they have made
Whether dirt road or paved street
They make their mark

I could sleep while I walk
My boots know the way
They keep going, they never stop
It is a path ever-trod

Ever to encompass the earth
Until I walk home
To my humbled birth
Deep inside your heart

These boots I stomp at the door
Like a knock to the ground
I love you, do you know what for?
Because you gave me these boots

You knew I would always walk
And didn't want me to forget
You couldn't follow, wouldn't stalk
The person who let me go

Wanted me to remember, those times
You were my rest
You colored me between the lines
Now you carry me

With these boots on my feet
I will find a way
A way for us, again, to meet
At a crossroads

Intersectable, so connectable
Like Lego bricks
We are built, unbreakable
This love, unmistakable

I don't always like
What you have to say
Never will I strike
You, and walk away

A promise that comes from  a past
A promise it is
A promise that will promise to last
My word.

So these boots continue
To carry promises
To walk, because I miss you
Just to be closer

Even if I never touch your heart
I know we
Are never far apart
Not in my head

Boots to ***** in the dirt
To find you
Boots to wear, when we flirt
Or any other time

Boots a map to my home
To find you, my love
So I will not be alone
Just me, and my boots

you dressed me, with your woes
undressed me, chorused by my "no's"

whatever you wanted
I guess anything goes

you never listen to my plea
all you wanted was to be in me

I wanted to swim away
there are other fish in the sea

find them and bring them
back to me

find me a key
to set me free

never a word you heard
as you took your claim

as you breathed me in fire
and doused me in pain

to enter a dark cave
my light, you extinguished

some flames burn to bright
they lose the lust inside the light

I was enough to burn
though only for one night

you kissed my back
and loved me so sweet

made it hard to stand
to walk you need feet

you were there to take
and so you took

you never came back
not so much as a look

you journeyed in me
and then journeyed on

you weren't just going
you were long gone

I will never follow
for the shame will trace

every step I walk to find
but I know not a safe place

the eyes they watch
and the eyes they see

the eyes know not
what you wrought inside me

to tear and leave
and make a throne

I was just your house
I was never your home

a chance to live free
you spilled your lies inside of me

you saw what you wanted to
you don't look, you just see

if I slapped your cheek
would you feel the pain

would know my hands
would you know my name

so much disappointment
I reserved for our after's

still sweet I remember
the sound of our laughter's

to remember the days
when we were strangers

till I found out
you were a player

I loved you then bae
but no longer I know you

when the night comes
I know not what to do

I am lost in a sea of people
without you

save me, break me
either way

what is familiar
is a price to pay

over the oceans
I could hear your voice

and as you call
I make my choice

regrets to sweet
as these painful nights

I just want love
whether wrong or right

I am your crutch when you need me.

I poured the glow stick into the bubbles
And blew you a kiss

*From my palm to your heart
It wasn't far apart

I would write endless words
If you made you love me again
To make you notice
I am still here, and alive
Trying to live
Trying to thrive
The same rhymes I share
Over and over again
A repetition of pain
That drives me over the edge
I am going insane
Could you come back?
Come home to my heart,
that is your real home.
Please, please
I don't want to fee alone
So many times
Do  I cry in the shower
Let the water
Rush, hour after hour
Thinking it can cleanse the past
Or find a way
To end the pain at last
This torture, and pain I feed
Inside my heart
I wont evict it
It won't leave
Just like you
I gave it a home
Inside my broken heart
So I won't be on my own
With my knife and my art
Food for my stomache
That will fill
But food my heart
That will ****
I need you
Those three words
Not
I love you
But that to
I need you
I can't live without you
These three words
Say it all
How you are my light
Yet you make me fall
Only to catch me
Please
Need me

they said you chased me around
like a love sick puppy
looking for me
finding my heart
inside my soul
in my deep blue eyes

I thought it was me
who was always trying
to reach my only love
like an animal I hungered
looking for you
to give you my heart
to bend my soul
to catch the light inside yours

We danced inside
Each others arms
Trying to fill the void
In our hearts
That is created
When we are far apart
The light we made was dim
But bright enough to see
That you my love
Are perfect enough
In your broken state
To complete me

beyond all dreams
or known emotions

I find you

beyond all hopes
I will ever know

I find you

beyond all lies
I will ever tell

I find you

when I am lost
and cannot find a way

I find you

when I am lost
and cannot find any way

I find you

You pull me down
tied me to this earth

I found you

made me a place
to stay

I found you

let me learn again
how it is to love

I found you

In the darkest
midnight hour

I found you

In the shining light
of the sun

I found you

In the quiet
of the first dawn

I found you

Above the beating
of my own heart

I heard you

My love I heard you calling
whisking me away
taking me to a place
where you wanted me to stay
to be yours
and yours alone
tethered there to a stone

Beyond all eyes
That could ever see
You got lost
*but you found me

a native length
from floor to sky
to reach the kings
ever so high

a ladder built
of human bones
to reach a marvel
that is unkown

did you know
if you cut
a single triangle into the wall
and you push through
the drywall and siding
you can see the sun so blinding
and the grass so green
you thought if this is a different world
you think it's not meant for me
but this world
on the other side
has no more secrets
you won't have to hide

the leaves on your side
of the wall of Eyes
are different
they are shy leaves
much to dull
they have a shine
but they never will show
beauty extorted
beauty unclaimed
they dare not sparkle
or be pluck in vain

in this new world
the leaves are honest
they show each pigment
with a laugh
and bleed beautiful colors
that promise to last

so cut the triangle
slice through the wall
before the beautiful colors fall
catch each leaf
with a glint in your eye
for these are true colors
they never will die

you must come
to know them now
don't ask questions
you don't need to know how
kiss in green
and a laugh of light
send you away
into the night

follow the trail
of the heart shaped leaves
if you find my home
don't ever leave
I give you these colors
to have and to own
so in the dark
you won't be alone

an escape
and a journey
a place
you don't have to earn

a citizen of Home
in the garden of life
and in this place
there is not strife
just kisses of sunlight
to keep you warm
into this last night

Pudding cups

I was coming up in the world

Well
My world at least

Some of my friends
Were coming out
In the world

But
Either way

We both
Soon realized
That it is a harsh world

To live in
To die in
To try to
Survive in

So come up for air
Continue to breathe
I am your friend
I will never leave

you stole my heart
and then tried to help me find it

the sunlight races to the ground
trying to kiss the earth

first come first serve
every kiss you deserve*

**<3

I didn't realize
I was holding my breath
Until the air came
And none was left

I breathed in
Sorrowful release
But with these words
There doesn't come peace

I didn't tremble in fear
Wouldn't dare an answer
You were my dark wraith
My Necromancer

The child I was
Saw the child in you
And like a child
I didn't know what to do

For words are danger
Once leased from a mouth
But better than caged
Where they lie and doubt

I regretted my words
And regard your reply
For better to speak
Than keep silent and die

I went looking for myself
yet all I found was you
and because I was not my own
I didn't know what to do

to thee I may seem wise
for the wisdom that you see
comes from thine own eyes