how do I channel
all of these emotions
into words and sentences
that you can understand

you all remind me
so sweetly and fondly
that you will be there
forever and ever and always

would you comprehend
the notes my heart plays
that beats unsteadily
all over the place

to me they feel concentrated
as they pound through my limbs
like its beating away
and leaving me heartless

as beautiful as you are
and as ugly as I feel
it is not wonder you left
that you had to leave

*Come Back
Is the rhythm my heart beats
Stay Here
Is the hope it abandons

I don't have to let go
But it hurts to hold on
I can't find a middle ground
My thoughts don't make sense

How can I sort out
All that lies inside
Separate what to think and feel
Into piles to keep or discard

I swallow my pride
And **** up my tears
As my head rattles around
It will be okay

I told you time, and time again
It is going to be alright
We have done harder thing before
Its a road less traveled

But we always make it to the end
We walk together
Hand in hand
Tell me when to stop

We can go slow
We can take time to dance
To make our mark on the trees
So we can find our way home

sometimes its the littlest things in life
that can cause you to break
the opening of a lid
the creaking of a door
the sound of a loved one
you can't be there for
maybe being left by yourself
and you have to put
those feelings on a shelf

so sensual, the tingling of your skin
as your sweaty palm meets mine
your breaths as steamy
as the hottest shower

it shivers down my spine
in tiny ringlets
and travels across my thighs
in soft moans

the sheets are twisted
and so is my mind
as ***** as this song
but we don't skip the track

we can roll, toss, and turn
into each other
until the sunrises
you are mine

you caress my face
and your hands travel
my skin like its a globe
around and around the world

in rhythm with the music
we make our own beat
and follow every step
with passion and vigor

we slide into each other
and dance between sheets
soft as clouds
and hard as rocks

we brewed our love
and let it pour out
into each other
and onto your bed

like water we poured
into a ****
over the edges
and into the cracks

smooth and slick
just the right amount of pressure
gentle, baby
there is more coming later

Married by words
And to words
With two words

Secrets** should be kept
By those who hath forged them

I am more
than the air in my lungs

You don't know what it is like to feel empty unless you have been overflowing

It is going to be a:
green walls
no lights
memories
music
and tears
kind of night

long days and longer nights
never empty but always hollow
short tempers and shorter strides
where to walk just to hide

Time flies on very speedy wings

It is enough
Only when there is nothing left
You will always take more
Until it is all gone

I give and I gave
And I died
You swore and you killed
And you tried

To be in control
And have it your way
You said this is harsh love
Harsh in every way

What is gentle?
What is sweet?
What is kind?
What is love?

I will never know
Hugs and kisses
Just a stare out a window
To what she misses

I long for better
And you shorten the leash
I retreat
And you yell and preach

I want a conversation
With a little truth
I ask one question
And all hell breaks loose

My nights are safe
Yet you intrude
To take my heart
And find it used

Little sparks in my eyes
And in my life
But fire always
Pays its price

Word as a release
But I bite them back
Trying to be enough
Reminded of what I lack

A comparison
That doesn't compare
To light or dark
Not right or fair

I will always have questions
Answered with slaps
I want to hide
But you drag me back

Hell is hot
But less that your rage
Words that bind
Me into a cage

Add me
To your list
Of those you beat
And those you've kissed

Give me a hammer
To build a home
Give me a friend
So I won't be alone

Play me some music
At my demand
Then take it all away
Just like you planned

I could run farther
And I could run faster
But I crawl back
Like a dog to a master

Good Lord, sever
Me from the earth
And let me sleep
Twixt sky and hearth

Glide to the center
In your ghostly form
I could walk right through you
Like a wraith

It was a deeper shade
Than all the purples, all the purples before
They snuck in the edges
Of my vision

Like the sun
Setting into dark
They filled the abyss
With their chaos and color

If I was the lightning
Reflected in your eyes
I would be content
For I would always be with you

You crackle with electricity
But everywhere on this earth I touch
Turns to fire and ash
I dare not make you shine

For if I did
The world would burn
Into ashes and memories
And the tallest trees would crumble

You don't have a clue
How storms are made
Like your temper
They rise and fall

And like your dreams
They fade
Into a distant memory
A cold past

Every time I hear it
My spine shudders in recognition
My shoulders tighten like a rope
And I spark

Down the wires
I dance so merrily
Into your home, and heart
Through the walls I course

Nothing, but trouble and beauty
Like ice and salt I burn
When crushed in your hand.
A challenge.

You provoked me
Into the night and its darkness
I will return
In tenfold of clouds

And rain down
Until I reign!
You pull the reigns
And my tears rain

Like a bit in my mouth
These words are so sharp
I spit them out
And they foam

Like a rabid monster
I bit your heart
I wormed inside
And found my own way out

The small of my back
Damp with the sweat of my fear
The whole world
Thinking I am a star

I shine brighter
But not for you
Like a diamond on your hand
That you can't hold

But I found my courage at the bottom:
The bottom of the glass
The bottoms of the chasm
The bottom of your heart

I walked many halls
And the keys of your piano-forte
And then I fell
Like a crescendo

Black and white
I saw stars
Blue and purple
Around my eyes

They serve as a reminder
On my wrist
In your letters.
And every day

We don't forget
We just don't remember
Less and less
Until it's gone

When it's wrong its allowed
But we wouldn't say it out loud
So loud I couldn't hear
Until I got it out

We try to make it right
Wouldn't take what's left
Scared of what's behind
And the future much to near

So comfortable with the chaos
We hate it, until it's lost
I wanted so hard to find it
When that time came, you had changed

Your tentacles reach
And sting my skin
The lightning bites back
But it's to cold

Cold in my head
I can't shake out
Like a snow globe
With a pounding melody

I'm the wild one
With the blue eyes
With the knife
And the disguise

A mask of emotions
Ripped away
And the anger crackles forth
And wraps the earth in fingers of light

Go to sleep
With a solid belief
That love doesn't exist.
Awakened to a reality,

Where it was here
But it is destroyed
I know I had it
Now it's gone

It left it's mark
Like a hammer in my heart
And it got stuck
It wouldn't get out

I bite into the truth
And the regret trickles down my throat
The taste to bitter
To swallow

I checked
Every three minutes
For a new way to survive
But my patience wore thin

If you had a heart attack
I could jump you back to life
Rub my hands together
And dissipate the fates

But I do not think the fates
Would meddle with something as black as your heart
Like chalk on a white wall
You drew me in

And spit me out
Like you had swallowed fire
But I was already in your veins
Racing for your heart

I gave up something
I was never supposed to have
I lived a life
Constantly in the past
I danced alone
With my special demons
The only light
Shone from behind my eyes
They were also filled tears
The product of the lies
I handed you my heart
And you gave me a name
A name of fire
To walk through the flame
Never to burn again
Not to bleed inside
To have a smile of skin
No scars, I have to hide

I run until I can't breathe
Why won't you chase me?

for though you my dearest friend
speak in riddles of ages long past
and talk in the tongues of angels
I do understand your ways

you my closest companion
have lived with me in my heart
through all these years and journeys
so many uncounted days

ever we dance under the sun
like branches we humbly bow
before the thrones of the stars
to please the moon, in her waking

a hushed whisper of wind
breathes into our very souls
a fire lighting a candle
a beautiful spirit in it's making

we don't need wings to fly
just feet to dance the earth
where it ever to shrivel up
become a husk and fade away

we would still dance
it's memory into the cosmos
set it in stone forever
never to crack or chip like clay

I could never be better
and always be worse
I just want to dance with you
with you until I die

to be your waltz
and the beat in your heart
the melody you play
when you start to cry

when you long for amnesia
because you can't stand
can't stand to remember
I will be the love in your eyes

the dead, the sweetest stars
inside of your broken mind
don't worry my friend
I will sing you back alive

streets aren't made for everybody
that's why they built sidewalks
you don't have to like it
just move to the right

this isn't world is for everybody
but don't you dare leave
if you don't like it
just cry through the night

what inspired me in the beginning
what were you words?
I didn't have to hear them
they just had to be felt

it's not how you talk
or what you chose to wear
it's what you have inside
no matter how it's spelt

what matters will last
no matter what the cost
days and nights you know
but this life is to fast

we live for today
you dance in the present
it' about us, in the now
not about the past

the half of you on the inside
trying to break out
break out of the bars
without the keys

sustainable on your love
always enough, just keep me high
on your level I stay there
never on my knees

though I pray as I dance
and take every chance
to know you more
please let me in

though we fight many battles
and win many wars
don't question the past
of where I've been

I live in my casket
and I died on your lips
but I would dance the world
for just one kiss

you wanted my heart
I gave you my soul
you split it in half
to make yourself whole

one heart beating
was more than enough
you cut me in half
in a world much to rough

I swallowed my pride
you spilled my secrets
offered me back my broken parts
never mind those, you can keep it

your life was successfully saved
by the existence of my own
I did nothing and said nothing
yet you knew you were not alone

my life was made beautiful
by the fire in your eyes
your knowledge of love and death
but you know not demise

I was meant to reach the distant shore
but the water drags me down, unbidden

Although my bones always smile happily
Sometimes my face is less than proud
I feel like I am in a wooden box
Ready to buried in six feet of cold ground

If you burned me up
Threw me to the waves
And let me become part of the ocean

Would you visit me
Hear the gulls calling you
As you stared into my watery depths

I would rush to you
Ready to hug you in my currents
And wrap up your senses

Would you recognize my arms
How strong and sure they are
The longing, would you feel it?

As a lover I rush to you
As I friend I cry salty tears
As long as you visit the ocean

I will always be near
Born again into the waves
Always to love you

To remember how to dance
To rain, To eternally
be drowned in your memory

in all of our simplicities
there is some of the intricate
each of us is the owner of a soul
that has been woven
to contain a beating heart
to keep us together
when we fall apart
and when we begin
to spill our stories out
not to control
jus to contain
to keep in our mind
and let out the pain
for our efforts to be fruitful
and never in vain
to keep us leveled
when the oceans rage
a filter of mind
to let out bad
and keep in kind
so search for me
inside yourself
and take me down
off of the shelf

all the ground
we have gained
is abstract
in comparison to you
all the steps
we have walked
are in-concrete
they pale against your love
like watercolors we dance
we never stood a chance
swept away
and swept on
we kept going
until we were gone

you killed your queen
it was a ****** seen
you killed our love
and now I watch from above

the curtains were blue
the walls were green
the nights were long
and it is a sad song

Good* and *light
are not the same
for you can be good
in the dark
and bad
in the light
it is a choice you make
no matter dark or light
its not the colors
of sky or skin
its what you choose
it comes from within