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Donnie Ray Feb 2018
I love You,
Not always.
But on days,
When you sit beside me,
Drinking your fine colombian coffee
Through the red draped
Wine lookin lips of
Your's,
Which is just fine for a hunter to be hunted down,
Using nothing but the cupid arsenal,
That is tough to found,
With your bewildered look,
Straight at me
And that supraventricular tachycardiatric smile...
God those are the nooks,
That sinks me in
Like a fish on a hook,
Ready to be fried,
On a pan of love,
Yet mesmerised,
On why the hell I see
Heaven in you.
I love you,
Not everytime,
But on a park to be strolled,
Caped with the spring
As your feathered finger parades through my arms
And we have your talk,
Of how that little man with a monkey hat,
Toppled of the cycle he rode,
As the face slammed on
The concrete road,
To get a glance of your
Beauty facade.
And how that made me laugh.
Your laugh.... the sounds of symphony,
Better than the next door boy playing guitar ,
Trying to impress you,
Unknown of the fact,
That you are surrendered
To my tunes.
But I love you,
Everynight,
When you give everything
To my arm,
And I surrender to your charms,
A kiss of naked secret,
Just so we live through
The road ends,
As the sun waves hands,
I'll be there to love you,
Everyday,
Always beside you.
Not that we don't love but not everday is a spring's cologne though
TheConcretePoet Aug 2020
my life has changed forever

from normal, my everyday life now does sever

july 4th weekend, fireworks were going off inside of me

my racing heart had finally brought me to bended knee

afib, supraventricular tachycardia...

congestive heart failure was my flava'

rushed to the icu...

sign these here papers the doctor asked me to do

we've exhausted all medicines, all of them we've went through

i ask, can i call my wife in case i never speak to her again

there was no answer, it was the most scared and alone i ever felt then

icu doctors huddled and staring at me like i am a mystery

they shock me and send thousands of volts of electricity through me

the paddles burn and welt
my chest and back

my room filled with chaos it certainly did not lack

bells and alarms made my ears want to cry

lying there thinking....it was my time to die.

'Yours and everyone's concrete poet Part Deux'
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TheConcretePoet Jan 2021
CHF end stage.
It can absolutely feel like living inside of a cage.
Don't do this
don't do that.
Watch your sodium intake, watch your intake of fat.
Pill after pill
just to keep our hearts more still.
On the scale first thing every morning.
Overnight a weight gain of 5 lbs.?
That's a fluid retention warning.
Our hearts now beat so mild and meekly.
Life for us is not about months but, more geared towards weekly.
I could easily go off on some, "why did this happen to me" impassioned rant.
Instead I'll not get too excited because I'm not on any list for a much needed heart transplant.
My heart has already withstood
220 beats per minute for hours at a time.
Cardiologists staring at me like a puzzle, like a poem without a rhyme.
Congestive heart failure  - Supraventricular tachycardia.
I went through it all...I went through hours of literal ICU manic hysteria.
Enjoy us CHF sufferers while we are still here.
Because tomorrow with us, can quickly turn into yesteryear.
Have no regrets.
Don't miss us while viewing the sunset.
A sunset that we can see from the heavens above.
A sunset soaked and saturated with our love.
If we happen to fade away in our sleep......
Our memories will be yours, forever to keep.

'Yours and everyone's concrete poet'
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6 months today, I was diagnosed with end stage Congestive Heart Failure.
Let's just say that I am in need of a heart transplant if I plan on surviving more than a few years.

Enjoy your life....
Because there is one word, one word that always comes to mind when I dwell on this.

Sudden!
aa Sep 11
I wish I hated you; I wished upon a star to take away the love I've held onto
In its truest form, it's the hurt embedded in my body, mind and soul
that lurches out in the cold nights when I'm alone,
and all I can think about is you, you, you, god.
I wish I hated you because hating you would be easier than mourning something that could never be, never was and never become.
I wish I hated you. I wish our stars were aligned and the time was right. I wish I had just a bit of you if not all.
I wish I hated you. Because the rest of my friends do, they remark that you're no good and that I'm a fool for loving you.
But if I had known it was foolish to love, I wouldn't have fallen as hard as I did. I would've dusted myself off, titled my head on the right axis, and left you alone.

I wish I hated you, I repeat and reorganise the thoughts in my head.
You're no good for me. You know this, and I know this. It's why you left, and I yearn for closure that will never happen.
I wish you loved me as much as I love you, even after the serrated edge of the knife has been punctured my heart and I choked on my blood in front of you.
I wish I didn't have feelings for you; seeing you spike my heart rate. Frankly, I'm too young to die to supraventricular tachycardia, your face etched into my cornea.
You become all I focus on, all I want and hyper-fixate upon.
I wish I didn't want you as badly as I did. I wish I hated you because if I did.
I wouldn't be so eager to love another, to give my heart to someone else, hoping to take mine out of your grasp.
I wish I could forget you and the memories allocated to your face.

God, I wish I hated you as much as I love you.

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