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Ariel Leann Feb 2014
TRAPPED

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In an illusion of myself
Caught between the past and my own selfishness
Isolated between four walls that are caving in
Hearing the whispers of the unloved
Left alone with just memories to haunt me
No one could hear my cries for help
Nails digging in my back
Slowly puncturing my delicate skin
Feeling my blood seep afloat and slowly stream
Just the right amount of pain
One face left to clench my stomach
Her piercing green eyes in the rage they stayed
Her lips formed into a knarled, derranged twist
Her words cutting like daggers all over my body
Her hair flowing like a monster's
Isolated
I try to scream but it is caught in my throat
Flashing back to the age of six
The monster ontop of me
Enjoying every little cry for help
A man who was suppposed to be a father
Corrupting an innocent child for his own twisted pleasure
He does not know how much he isolated me in my own little world
He laughs at my attempted cries for help
I will *Never
be the same
Corruption
Purging because of my thoughts
The concept was introduced to me
I Never thought I was beautiful
I never really had the chance to be beautiful
Corrupted by uncontrollable words
I don't understand
Looking into the mirror at the monster that I have become
Twisted
Always hid the razor a place where no one would find it
The one thing that I could always rely on
Something that would stay with me
Just wanted someone to love me
Someone to care
Feel the razor slice across my skin
Tears mixing with the blood
Wishing I were never born
Or accomplished my attemped suicide last year
TRAPPED* in the thoughts inside my own head
Isolated in the unheard tears I have been crying
Corrupted by the surrounding people
Twisted in my own thoughts and actions
Sorry, I just needed to let it all out.
Judson Shastri Jul 2011
Discrepency.
What seperates us.
As simple as a cloud watched, when I see the whisked whiskered cat,
and you see collected evaporation.
An operation as impossible as love,
is unthinkable now
What we don't speak of begins to amount in great size,
and between us grows space. I find our bed is wider.
We manage to keep sleeping on either edge, cold feet shimmering on the matress,
and cold sheets shouting on the floor.
Apart.
It is as if we run either side of the bar where lies Herman's whale,
obstructing you from I.
However, we've not the cable to pull her away. I see her lie alien on that shore
and it sickens me.
As if a rift does not belong in us, but gapes there.
A shadow in the warehouse is not supposed to breathe,
when we are shattering, whirling flash-lights. But they inhale.
As if a wall is not built, 'tween my toast and your tea
at the morning table.
Courage for fixing is not suppposed to play dead.
And that's when I realize
its not playing.
Divorce, as a word, has the poetic significance...of a rock. However, what speaks to me is that so many people make the same mistake, and don't even know what it is until they're in that courtroom screaming at each other. Although contributed to by many, many things, it's a simple matter of compatibility.  
No one wants to take the time to find out what isn't obvious. "She intoxicates me." So why not marry her? Because you didn't understand love in the first place. Hardly anyone ever does.

The poem is from the point of view of someone who knows his marriage is failing, and that there is no return. This is not to say I advocate divorce, in fact I believe there is no problem so great that it can't be worked out. I'm just trying to convey the hopelessness of it all...
Mateuš Conrad Apr 2016
did you know that the registration plates
for cars, supposedly "elite"
(i.e. someone else said,
to a suppposed adequate mutuality
of shared meaning agreed upon
by me too... well, not really)
17 US
            UUL 1
                               6666 V
are worth £7200, £7500 and
£4500 respectively?
but right on top of the list,
the v.i.p. of them all:
JH 5... fifty-five thousand pounds,
you heard me... that's £55000!
that would buy you a second-hand
car and god knows how many
years of MOT and petrol...
fifty-*******-five thousand pounds
for a registration plate JH 5...
i wonder what a registration
plate 1... or ABC would cost...
sesame street, that's what it seems to be
for me.
david badgerow Jul 2015
i remember taking morning impulse beach trips with william
to the white sand on the right hand coast of old florida
wearing sunglasses on our eyes
and our hearts in our front shirt pockets
jesus, must have been twenty ten because
i was too young to drink in bars
and he couldn't drive
the windows were down and we were catching
intense sun on the opposite sides of our faces
listening to a playlist of songs we wanted played at our funerals
swore we'd be there for each other forever
as we choked down stolen purple vitamin waters
trying to smoke a divine bowl while discussing
the advantages of miller high lifes over
pabst blue ribbons for light beach drinking with
two tabs each on our tongues or buried in our cheek-meat
as we crossed that lion's bridge
dreaming we'd drift off into that cloudless blue sea-sky

i remember falling in love
for what must have been the first time
half drunk on champagne and ojay
blasted out and overdosing on sunlight
sitting pretty on the carpet floor with jennifer
with our legs tangled together
whispering secrets playing with shiny trinkets
and small meaningful totems
while the other boys laughed
and smoked on the balcony

i'm suppposed to be writing the world's greatest poem
but i get distracted by fractal ocean memories
because i'm already twenty-five and nowhere special
we've both sobered up by now i guess but i
saw ol' bill just the other day and we still
find time to laugh and sing to each other over tacos
he'll be married soon and i've learned finally that it takes
more than ******* someone to keep my bones warm
we've gotten our **** together so to speak but seperately
i'm still getting used to revealing myself to myself
figuring out how to be honest with the little boy in the mirror
how to be in love with my big nose
and that i'm really only twenty four
ilina286 Apr 2018
Every step I take it's on the wrong foot
And I ask my self,can it  be any different..
when both of my feet are wrong.
Every wrong step,on every wrong foot
and every wrong path that i take
taking me further from my self
and everything that i'm suppposed to be .
Astra Zenneth Oct 2016
You watched the flowers die today
After the blooming buds
You then wished the pain away
All the feelings are too much

You've cried so many tears before
You've filled your house full
So you've been drowning in the rain
That came from clouds of thought

If only the moon
Could take the pain away
I could exchange it all for another way

If only I
Had the power left
I would take it from you
I would take all my pain back

So many a time
You've cried to me
And I just watched as you were eaten
You were already dead

We picked the flowers
For your grave
As you cried
I watched your rain wash them all away

If only the moon
Could take the pain away
I could exchange it all for another way

If only I
Had the power left
I would take it from you
I would take all my pain back

If you let me
I would take the pain
I would take all that was suppposed to be

If you'd stay
I'd never leave you
Whether shining eyes or pouring rain
But who is the desperate one
is it me
or is it you

probably the longest "poem" I've ever written

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