"substation" poems
Every morning
I feed the mewling cats,
chug my hot instant coffee,
sit at my rickety linoleum kitchen table
and peer hopefully out my thin window,
through the cracks in the glass
beyond the rusted screen
into the acres of wet trainyards and commercial blocks.
There in one non-descript grey building
underneath the watertower
beside the Sheriff's substation
a band of laughing saints
craft delicate malas of lapis
and manzanita windchimes
while diaphonous angels all a-hover
manifest vast verdant grassland prairies,
great ocean waves, sunsets
and spring flowers hidden in rock crannies
where nobody will ever walk,
and they launch grand air balloons
bulging with epiphanies
that may drift my way.
Jan 27, 2013
Jan 27, 2013 at 6:33 AM UTC
My ears hiss and hum,
they fizz and they freak
Like a song with no melody
week after week
You hear sound
and I hear distortion
This ever present noise
is driving me to exhaustion
I may never hear quiet,
or stillness again,
I wonder how long
till it drives me insane
a chord played by a corpse,
a factory, a machine,
an electrical substation
with a piano wedged between
a never ending, mind bending
permanent drone
its like 16 simultaneous flatliners
that wont leave me alone
An orchestra of electrical tools
A theme tune stuck on the e-cord
Dear god, I am tired now,
Please change the record
Distract me, but loudly
Give me a release
From this burglary of sound
I want back my peace
But don’t take away my sound
My connection to living
Just ease up on the howlers
That sound so unforgiving
People say ahhh
and they tilt their head,
This just makes me want to batter them
And let them hear my sound instead! J
Please remember my challenges
Even when I look happy and beaming
The volume is right down on my world
And the noise in my head is still steaming
Those times when you forget
you whisper, you mumble
I try as I might but I can’t reach
You through this rumble grumble
Have courage to speak louder
Direct your words to my face
This is an act of love
It is a kindness and a grace
Try not to lose patience
With me and my noisy faulty ears
These are tough challenges I face
These are my troubles my tears
I love and I laugh still
I try to forget it
Your remembering, and your sensitivity
Really helps me not sweat it.
Dec 15, 2019
Dec 15, 2019 at 6:14 PM UTC
I don't update much, this is very true, for my rhymes are betraying me, leaving my mind just like those leaving a substation. My inspiration, all lost. There is Nothing that shall recover this, for I don't quite know how. All hope is lost, and so is life. I am too busy, to even update on this unforgiving website.
Oct 27, 2014
Oct 27, 2014 at 7:15 PM UTC