It was when my waking eyes
shank into the dent in the bed
that I knew.
Torpid, little tense in the neck
the phone dead,
my hand snaking through
a mesh of wires
to get to the muzzy
crux of it,
it was yourself
I turned up tangled in,
found ensnared, redrawn,
in throws, and throngs
of a clonic cupidity.
That was us
who mangled in the night
like cobras with empty stomachs
Churning round
small nocturnal animals
in the dark,
even in the dark,
I swore your skin was pellucid.
Sleepy-headed still,
I skedaddled outside
to swallow the rain,
and slumbery remember summer,
when I hopped as light
as bird from brier,
up rises my spirit,
down falls the foot
caked in muck,
schlepping slowly
through the mire.
You've slept in my bed
it seems, for as long
as memory serves,
just one of the many things on Earth
I've noticed and subsequently
can't unnotice,
like the way in one hears a clock
tick.....tick.......tock......
only when one is listening.
I have noticed
that dent in my bed
grow into a dozing silhouette,
noticed the garden-gate
creek in F minor,
silver cobwebs in the loft,
distant dogbarks
and a pomegranate stain
on your mother's blouse.
Once, so thickly laden
with expectancy,
now I know
that I am
no longer
Waiting.
