Waking up everyday knowing how you care.
It's like a  pillow or the ammo that I need to get out of here.
Can I be honest to a God that know what I will say?
I love you and I need you even though my love reaks of who I appear....to be.
I'm 21 and it's killing me that I'm betting on things that's not even a Good sight to see.
Good sides to me is the worst when they come to me and find out I'm not who they thought or cracked up to be...
My head runs like the waves in the sea,
Never terrified cause I scare myself of who I'm going to be.
If I am a King it's only because one lives in me, I'm becoming something that they don't want me to be something all you need, everything that's really killing me ...thank you and I love you sencerely the Man I need me to be.

Not to insult your godlike stars
But maybe these pearls failed to see
Through the mist of recklessness
What our night meant to me

Turn back time and play it fast
It was a bless to carry your bags
From palying cards till The Night
It was all meant to be this right

As good as I may be today
I'm still the one who once betrayed
Though, I also suffered with you
But sencerely not as great

I don't know what would have happend
I silently demand you not to be sad
Cause i know i would have been happy
If I had taken that path