I am tired of
Responsabilities
I am tired of
Being ignored
I am tired of
Being good just for favors
I am tired of
Being the good son
I am tired of
Kept myself quite
I am tired of
My friends
I am tired of
Poverty
I am tired of
The same all days routine

I wish to have a normal life
Just like any teenager
Go to parties
Get drunk
Have some fun
Do not care about responsibilities
But sadly
It is not possible

I am tired of
My life

Why does death elude me
does it no longer hunt me like a lion to it's pray
the sweet sleep is so far away, outside of grasp.
The overwhelming feeling f reponsability impedes my plan
and my mind feverishly attempts to find a way to disolve the promise
and responsabilities owed.
To decide the way to face death is another decision
should it be peacful and fade into a quiet slumber
should it be quick and one painful
I find myself lacking the courage to take that final step, to pull that triger or take that extra pill
I ate my life and the constant strugle
I hurt everyone I know and can't keep the one's I love
I lose them to death and to my inabiltiy to look outside my of me
There is nothing to ook foreward to nothing that will change my life for the better
So I continue with my prayers to be taken from this turmoil and grief to stop hurting others in my life with one last pain and loss, the loss of me

I've been wondering about you
Why, I wouldn't know for the life of me.
There is a crack in your heart
That's almost visible to the naked eye.
There's a crack on your face
But the way I see you
It only makes you more perfect.
There's true beauty within
You're perfectly balanced vessel,
Yet I wonder how the scars got there.
And when you bleed,
Do you bleed red and white?
Like I bleed blue and white?
Or does your loyalty lie somewhere else?
Do you love the earth that grew you?
Do you live within your nation's pride?
Like I will always live within mine.
Is there a hair fine difference
Within what your heart tells you
And what your mind tells you?
Is there one thousand questions within your mind too?
Can there ever be enough curiosity
For what your heart holds?
Is it tied to someone else
Or is it roaming as free
As you like people to think you are?
Is it easy to be a man?
I bet it is
Sure should be easier than being a woman.
But then again,
How would I know
What responsabilities this world
Has cast down to your sholders.
Do you carry them with pride and honor
Or do you sometimes
Collapse like I do?
Is there as much love within you
As what reaches my eyes,
As I let my eyes secretly
Caress the features on your face.
How did you get to be
So robustly beautiful?

It's your to-do list
That bothers me the most
And excellent way to controll someone
It's kind of like that man
Who only utters the words
"I love you"
To reward "good behavior"

That is the same way you
Perform your
"Duties, responsabilities and expectations"
The way you have lived your life
With me
Is increasingly similar
To the way you lived with your mother

"I'll just do all of this to shut her up"
Meanwhile you continue
To ignore me
To disengage
And to allow the tears to flow
What I wouldn't have done
For your attention
three years ago
But that time has passed...

I no longer wait for you
To pay attention
To love me
To touch me
In fact
The idea of you doing
Any of the above
Irks me

Please please please
Just take your things and go
You can have it all
You can even have the cats
You can keep everything
We got together
When we built this home
You can have it all

In exchange for my freedom

How is it that I ever let you have it anyway?
My youth's mistake I suppose
Should've broken free in time
Now I'm stuck in a rut
Catching my breath
For a fresh breeze
Please just leave

No tears to shed
They're all wasted
Just a smile on my face
As the truth slowly spreads
Through your worn eyes
There's nothing here anymore

*Please just leave

I stopped being a child so young
I want to go back to when I was born
Change some things I have done
So my mind is in peace with my soul

17 now just a kid
I do regret some things I did
Wished I could go back to my earlier stage of life
So I wouldn't have to deal with all of this at the same time

Growing up has been difficult for me
I'm not one of those rich kids
Who get what the want when they want
Well, that has never been the case for me

I have learned to work hard
Beat myself until I get what I want
Pay my bills, be mature
Enough to be on the streets for so long

Freedom is synonym for responsabilities
I learned that the hard way
When life slapped my cheeks
And told me I was a mess

Get up said life, you are not a kid anymore
I'm beating you like this
For you to be strong

Bad things will come, good things will too
Just remember when you are on the top
Everything you had to go through

Adversity makes you strong
And the challenges that come your way
You must beat them when they come
So they know you are stronger than them
~MR

I'm a kid, but not a kid
Cause kids don't go out
Like i do
And kids don't sleep
In stranger's houses
Like i do
And certainly
Kids don't have ***
Like i do
But also i remember
Kids don't have the responsabilities
That i do
And kids dont pay bills
like i do
And i want to go back
And be just a kid
but i cant
i've been living like this
for  a long while
~MR

Love remains
The property
Of my father
And our father
Had given us
All his love for us
Without limits
Also it was
My father that
Had made us many
Years ago
Today we are a adult
And we have a lot of
Responsabilities
We must look after
Our health every single day
Also we must look after
Our hygiene every single day
And also our father
Had given us some clothes to wear
It is all casual clothes
And not designer clothes
Because my father doesn’t have much money
And he purchase the clothes at a second
Hand store
There is nothing wrong from purchasing clothes from
A second hand store

Love remains
The property
Of my father
And our father
Had given us
All his love for us
Without limits
Also it was
My father that
Had made us many
Years ago
Today we are an adult
And we have a lot of
Responsabilities
We must look after
Our health every single day
Also we must look after
Our hygiene every single day
And also our father
Had given us some clothes to wear
It is all casual clothes
And not designer clothes
Because my father doesn’t have much money
And he purchase the clothes at a second
Hand store
There is nothing wrong to purchase clothes from
A second hand store

Love remains
The property
Of my father
And our father
Had given us
All his love for us
Without limits
Also it was
My father that
Had made us many
Years ago
Today we are an adult
And we have a lot of
Responsabilities
We must look after
Our health every single day
Also we must look after
Our hygiene every single day
And also our father
Had given us some clothes to wear
It is all casual clothes
And not designer clothes
Because my father doesn’t have much money
And he purchase the clothes at a second
Hand store
There is nothing wrong from purchase clothes from
A second hand store

Love remains
The property
Of my father
And our father
Had given us
All his love for us
Without limits
Also it was
My father that
Had made us many
Years ago
Today we are a adult
And we have a lot of
Responsabilities
We must look after
Our health every single day
Also we must look after
Our hygiene every single day
And also our father
Had given us some clothes to wear
It is all casual clothes
And not designer clothes
Because my father doesn’t have much money
And he purchase the clothes at a second
Hand store
There is nothing wrong from purchasing clothes from
A second hand store

Love remains
The property
Of my father
And our father
Had given us
All his love for us
Without limits
Also it was
My father that
Had made us many
Years ago
Today we are a adult
And we have a lot of
Responsabilities
We must look after
Our health every single day
Also we must look after
Our hygiene every single day
And also our father
Had given us some clothes to wear
It is all casual clothes
And not designer clothes
Because my father doesn’t have much money
And he purchase the clothes at a second
Hand store
There is nothing wrong from purchasing clothes from
A second hand store

Love remains
The property
Of my father
And our father
Had given us
All his love for us
Without limits
Also it was
My father that
Had made us many
Years ago
Today we are a adult
And we have a lot of
Responsabilities
We must look after
Our health every single day
Also we must look after
Our hygiene every single day
And also our father
Had given us some clothes to wear
It is all casual clothes
And not designer clothes
Because my father doesn’t have much money
And he purchase the clothes at a second
Hand store
There is nothing wrong from purchasing clothes from
A second hand store

Love remains
The property of my father
And our father
Had given us
All his love for us
Without limits
Also it was
My father that
Had made us many
Years ago
Today we are a adult
And we have a lot of
Responsabilities
We must look after
Our health every single day
Also we must look after
Our hygiene every single day
And also our father
Had given us some clothes to wear
It is all casual clothes
And not designer clothes
Because my father doesn’t have much money
And he purchase the clothes at a second
Hand store
There is nothing wrong from purchasing clothes from
A second hand store

Love remains
The property of my father
And our father
Had given us
All his love for us
Without limits
Also it was
My father that
Had made us many
Years ago
Today we are a adult
And we have a lot of
Responsabilities
We must look after
Our health every single day
Also we must look after
Our hygiene every single day
And also our father
Had given us some clothes to wear
It is all casual clothes
And not designer clothes
Because my father doesn’t have much money
And he purchase the clothes at a second
Hand store
There is nothing wrong from purchasing clothes from
A second hand store

Love remains
The property
Of my father
And our father
Had given us
All his love for us
Without limits
Also it was
My father that
Had made us many
Years ago
Today we are a adult
And we have a lot of
Responsabilities
We must look after
Our health every single day
Also we must look after
Our hygiene every single day
And also our father
Had given us some clothes to wear
It is all casual clothes
And not designer clothes
Because my father doesn’t have much money
And he purchase the clothes at a second
Hand store
There is nothing wrong from purchasing clothes from
A second hand store