and watergates **** people......

pulitzers require a 75$ llc of attorney to keep corruption in play
and the pulitzer business above water

this facilitates companies like eli lily and pharma
and any patterned past corruption of civil rights
being alive does not cost money.  slavery is real

I play a game of hypotheses.
I am winning.

The star speckled ceiling asks,
"How will you know?"

I answer,
"Her grocery lists will win Pulitzers - a novel I can't help but read in one sitting."

The constellation laughs uneasily, knowing that it will move before I do.

The tree topped curtain creaks,
"What will you say?"

I answer,
"Too much, never enough, probably both - your mystery is the only one worth solving."

The canopy bristles. I do not know what to make of it.

I play a game of hypotheses.
I await the next question.

In another lifetime I did something.
In another lifetime I was someone.
In another lifetime I built the Eiffel Tower
and wasn’t scared of heights.
In another life I did everything
that could be done.

I was a doctor, a famous politician,
an actor, a poet, a musician.
In another lifetime I travelled the world.
In another life I was a scientist
at the forefront of their field.
I went to the moon and back.
I stood on its surface
and planted a flag.

In another life I stood by the side of Nelson
and rubbed shoulders with the Duke of Wellington.
In another life I masterminded the Dunkirk evacuation
and stood victorious on the dunes of El Alamein.
In another life I broke the Enigma Code,
coming to the aid of Alan Turing,
when he was dejected and broken.

In another life I accepted
the Nobel Prize for Peace,
to add to the Pulitzers and Oscars
that already adorned my mantelpiece.
In another lifetime I discovered penicillin
and found the cure to cancer.
In another life I wasn’t afraid of failure.

In another lifetime things worked out.
I didn’t falter in love.
I wasn’t hindered by illness.
I didn’t suffer fear and anxiety.
I wasn’t scared to let go and take a chance.
I wasn’t afraid to move on
and follow my dream.
In another lifetime I was everything I’m not.
In this lifetime I did nothing.

ANDY BOTTERILL

oh, I have nostalgic waking                  nightmares of Eighty-Sixth Street in Manhattan on the Upper East Side between First & Lexington Avenues & beyond to Central Park: gay old days of cheerleader ****, ******* & plain ol'gang-****; ****** *******, scummy *******; underage girls caught
    off guard & dragged in the bushes; the rustling of young lovers on speed & *** - before ugly opiates & crack *******,
         before ***/AID; when a guy could walk down the street,
   buy a loose joint,
      pay $20 for                        a *******
(whose a genuine **** & will take u for a thrill
ride just to show off her stuff! that is so cool -
hos giving freebies     [86th is yuppy-central -pre-yuppy
& patroled 24/7 by crooked cops who we all know by first name &
likewise, some of the         cops even grew
      in the neighborhood     {I went to school
      w/ ***** Morales, played softball w/ him & he lived upstairs,
                        now he's a ******* detective, just like my
          ******* cousin -detective - ***                            then go down to the park on the DL:
every other girl named Trixie; (oh for those (blackouts included)      lost golden days!)
the others named Roxy; (I wish I were Eugene O'Neill - not really, he was a ******* mess, but  he did garner four Pulitzers (               ) & two Nobels, how, is the question ---I mean, what is a genius?
interchangeable headless strippers w/   
             in·ter·change·a·ble body parts easily replaceable:    ˌin(t)ərˈCHānjəb(ə)l/adjective (of two or more       things)
             able to be interchanged.
"eyepieces are interchangeable           ( they all have the same STDs)
and one can use any eyepiec  e                            with any telescope"
synonyms: similar, identical,                           indistinguishable,
alike, the same, uniform, twin,      undifferentiated; corresponding,
commensurate, equivalent, synonymous,
comparable,                                            equal; transposable
                               "the attachments for these two vacuum
                                cleaners are interchangeable"
apparently identical;             very similar.
                                         "the cast includes a lot of interchangeable faces"
      synonyms: synonym, similar, identical, indistinguishable,
alike, the same, uniform,     twin, undifferentiated;
           corresponding, commensurate, equivalent,                synonymous,
m                                                              comparable, equal; transposable
"the attachments for these two [who the **** needs Hollywood w/ its interchangeable whitewashed *******]
vacuum cleaners are interchangeable"

subtracting voices
chandeliers hung by dead feathers
cannon ***** of years when time hated fairly
left over promises i'm not friends with

getting lept out
hanging death
to find a friend
running away
marrying the wash out
battling for empty
filling up the old crimes
inside my healing head
to destroy their evidence
useless when its good
too ugly for views

prisons too important
for me, the left overs

i was the addiction
now another contraception
hailing ghosts
tangled in timecards
under hung
and still voting
to take my spots


you dont know how to stop violating my boy
Only in the wretched
Broken locking
Of the safe
I was beaten into
Which refuses
To hide
Privately, despised by standards
Breakthrough! Simple
To be your sickness, in fiend
In the fiend you
Rusting edgework of him
And her and his fathers and hurting
Me better
Thanking myself always
Your cursed reproach of silence
Uncontrolling the illness
People please themselves in the dyes


admonition
The generals cries
A blind baby
Released of faith
His bloods eyes screen
Undone binds
Freeing the filthed
Upon his head
No justice
Beneath the shod
Brother he can’t find
Called war

and the man bag
has created western civilizations vancing

the clerical errors of not homeless lost in census homeless celebrity raffle ticket death certificate, oh i meaning this employee of mine can't follow orders from abused derilict painting in hindsight blind justice with stampeding mass of war mongering ingnorance, shift pay bulls of really, hah hah hah, your not better than us idea's i have a tango and cash supercomputer and you don't move

the homekey isn't happening anymore your a criminal i know the algorithms say artificial intelligience from the cia aware of reality check level of bored? hell no you are a repeat, army radio hear this guy, repeat offender of having a homekey


play, joyner lotto

lets reach out and grab our pulitzers, rep's all deaf stilled, next fixer
nod at yo, last bar, yes exam, measures, measures, alieve the poet