Numb, never felt anything but the numbness inside of me  
I always wonder if I could feel anything else but the numbness  
I tried everything from, kissing, hanging out with my close friends, heck even cutting  
Nothing was working, why was nothing working?  
What was I doing so wrong?
Why couldn’t I feel what others were feeling?  
I kept asking what I was doing wrong.  
What is the right way of feeling?  
I would ask over and over, the answers given to me were not the ones I wanted.  
I felt that anything I did or was doing was okay.  
But was it really okay?  
After a while my mom and sister sat down with me to talk to me  
"Sweetie is there anything you want to talk about."
My sweet lovely mother asked with her bright brown eyes and reminded me of chocolate staring into my soul  
I slowly lifted my head and made the no sign.  
Than my sister, oh how I envied her, with her bright blue eyes holding on to a clear blue sky, after a spring rain.  
I did the same sign to her.  
Never actually saying what I really felt.  
They kept asking the questions over and over.  
I didn't want to talk, they didn't listen to me, they never listen to me.    
I finally had it "JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! I DONT WANT TO TALK!" I screamed with tears streaming down my face.  
I was done, absolute done with everything.  
I wrote a letter to my family saying I am sorry for everything I have done in the past couple of days and that I will no longer bother them. And I also wrote what I wanted on my tombstone. "Here lays the only girl that never felt nothing but emptiness"  
I grasped the razor, I said,the one thing I would never touch after what happened last time, and I made a deep cut on my wrist.  
And all I thought when it happened as "finally I won’t feel so emotionless anymore, I will be where I belong, six feet under not feeling so empty anymore."  
But things changed for the best.  
My mother found me and so did my sister.  
I could hear the screaming from them.  
My mom screaming why, over and over.
The same goes with my sister.
I feel my eyes closed.
After a while I hear beeping of a heart montour.
I wake up to see my sister and mom sleeping next to my hospital bed.
I was glad to see them alright.
That is when I realized that I had emotion but it just took a while to find it.

I’m sure she did, although at the times, I saw only red.” “ You killed her?”
“ I.....slaughtered her, “ he replied, looking almost repelled by the memory. “ To be honest, I’m not exactly proud of the way that I handled it. It was the one and only time I lost complete control.
“ Regardless, don’t blame yourself. She deserved to die. “
He didn’t say anything but I could tell from the look in his eyes that he was still reliving the moment.
“ What happened to your wife and son?”
I asked after a while. He cleared his throat. “ Minging moved in with her parents.”
“ Did you go to her?”
“ Yes. I told her that I’d been kidnapped, but didn’t get into detail.
“ She must have been so relieved to see you again. “
Lillian nodded. “ Yes, and I her. I’d thought that maybe Montour had sent his hunters after my family.
Sophia, they were still alive.”
“ Did they know what you’d become?”
“No. I didn’t want her to be frightened of me. I left the next morning. I was afraid of endangering Sophia and Lillian. “ Do you know if she was able to move on with her life?” I asked, imagining the pain she must have felt, believing that her boyfriend was lost. Then there was her son. He must have been devastated.
Yes, it took few years, but she eventually fell in love with a farmer and they got married.
I lost track of them years ago after moving to the United States, Unfortunately.
My cell phone began to ring,
somewhere in the house. I looked at the time on my alarm.
“ That’s got to be Jarrett?” I said, standing up quickly.
“ Who’s Jarrett?”
“ My partner. We own a private online business. I have some appointments that I’m going to be late for if I don’t get my *** in gear, “ I said, walking out of my bedroom.
“Wait a second,” said Lillian behind me. “You need to go into hiding. David hunters are searching for you. “
“ Good, let them find me. I’d love to meet the ******* who killed my wife and turn him into dust.”
Unlike Lillian, I was a hybrid vampire and succubus. I could not only drain someone of their blood, but a simple kiss from me could be toxic, since I had the ability to extract their life-force. Sophia asked Lillian, do you have to think like that. Lillian your so evil. Well, Sophia your too nice. I understand are family is crazy.
I wasn’t about to share that information with them, however. Jarrett was still a stranger.
“ These hunters are skilled and deadly. For surely they wouldn’t let you get close to them, “ he said, as if reading my mind again. “ They’d have your head on the ground before you caught their scent.”
We’ll answer, I whipped around and shoved him against the wall. Staring up into Lillian’s eyes, I gave him my most seductive smile. “ kiss me.

Chapter 10

“I started to panic. “Do you think they’re setting a trap?”
“It would make sense,” said Max. “Drawing you to a place you’d feel comfortable…”
My cell began to ring and I sighed in relief when I saw that it was Alex. Obviously, we were jumping to conclusions. “Thank God. It’s him.” I answered the phone. “Hello?”
“Hi,” said Alex. “Sorry I missed the last call. I was in the other room, pouring myself a ****** Rickie.”
I smirked. Rickie was one of Alex’s blood donors. He paid him very well for it, too. “No problem. So, what’s going on? The other clients have really canceled?”
“No, I canceled. It’s too dangerous to be out, trolling for unfaithful husbands. Not with that monster looking for you. Why didn’t you tell me about Victor Montour, Racheal ?”
I rubbed my forehead. How much did Alex know? “I didn’t want to worry you.”
“You’re the one who needs to be worried. From what I hear, that man is hell-bent on locating you, and it’s not for any family reunion.”
“So, you know that he’s my father?”
“I do now. Jesus, I thought my family was dysfunctional.”
I noticed that Andrew and[…]”
“I know, right? She’s a nervous wreck right now. Anyway, it took me a while to calm her down and when I did, I realized that Max probably had you in his custody by then.”
“Yeah.”
“How did that go?”
“What do you think it went? I made a scene.”
He chuckled. “I wish I would have been there. Did you **** the life-force out of anyone?”
“No, but I should have. I was treated like a *******. It wasn’t pretty.”
He clucked his tongue. “I’m sorry. I should have warned you.”
“Yes. You should have.”
“So, you’re going to let them protect you, right?”
“I don’t need it.”
“Jez…”
“I’ll be fine.”
Alex groaned. “I told them you’d refuse.”
“You know me well,” I said, smiling. “Anyway, back to Mrs. Strom, her husband is having dinner with another woman as we speak. I can at least finish that job.”
“Don’t worry about that right now, JD. Just get your *** back to the office so we can talk more about this.”
“What about your ‘date’?”
“Peter already left.”
“You blew him off?” I asked, surprised.
“Something like that,” he replied, a smile in his voice. “But, don’t[…]”
“No problem. Would you like an escort?” asked Aiden. “We can find one for you.”
I fluttered my eyelashes. “What about you?”
His eyes widened and he smiled. “Well –”
“That wouldn’t be a good idea,” interrupted Maximus. “We need to keep a low profile. Especially you, Aiden.”
He was about to protest, when I held up my hand. “Honestly, I was just kidding anyway. Like I told you before, I’m fine on my own. I appreciate the offer, though.”
Aiden stood up and pulled out his wallet. “Please take my business card, too.” He took one out and handed it to me. “If you find yourself in a situation… and can’t reach Max, don’t hesitate to call me.”
“Okay,” I said, my opinion of lycan changing by the second. While I didn’t know much about them, I knew they weren’t always interested in helping others outside of their… breed. Of course, from the way that Aiden was looking at me, he was probably interested in escorting me to the safety of my bedroom. “I’ll remember that.”
Grinning, his eyes swept over my little outfit again. “And I will definitely remember you.”
I shoved his business card into my purse[…]

I lowered the knife slightly, still not quite sure about this intruder. This guy who looked that sinfully delicious usually couldn’t be trusted. It’s the being of vampire himself, made him an even bigger threat.
“ Why didn’t she come here herself?”
“ I guess there’s no easy way to say this.” She sighed. I know your mother been murdered.”
That knife slipped out of my hand, almost stabbed me in the foot. But I stared at him in horror.
“ What?”
“ You mother, Nae, was killed
yesterday. I’m so sorry for your loss,” she said softly. The truth in his eyes and the room felt like it was closing in on me.
Kristeen was dead.
My mother was dead, “ Who did it?” How that be, just saw her yesterday. “ Why, and whom will do this thing to her.
“ Do you know who Frank Montour is?”
“ Yes and No, I’ve heard of him. I replied, close my eyes trying to recall him in my head. “ My mother claimed that he was a monster. “ Who love to abuse women.
From what I knew, Frank was an arrogant and powerful vampire who lived somewhere in Las Vegas. Wasn’t exactly sure why, but my mother had despised the man as long as I could remember. For sure my mother didn’t like talking about him and I never pressured her with questions.
“ Are you saying that the ******* **** my mother?”
Frank nodded. “ Indirectly, but he was the one who ordered the hit. “
Why, would you ordered the hit on my mother. Is that because, she witche and rich.
And own half the city’s.
I really don’t care what you had heard about frank and what kind contaction he has under his thumb. May I please ask, how do you know all of this?” Where did you get your information. Please..... tell me, I begg of you.
“ Look I was there, said Joy, who now also appeared to be struggling with there emotions. “ I tried to save her, but by the time I reached them, the hit man had already killed her.
“ Unfortunately, yes. It’s an image I’ll never get out of my head. I’m very sorry.
“ There were three of them. I killed one of them before I escaping myself. Honestly I wanted to take down the other two, but I knew that if I died, I wouldn’t be able to keep the promise that I made to your mother.”
“ What was that?”
“ To warn you about Frank and his hunters.
We trying to locate him. “
Well what actually do they want with him. Did Frank do something. Yes, he did. Sorry we cannot tell you everything. Is best if you tell us. Where is Frank at.
“ I’m not quick understanding....... why you searching for him?” You talk like he killed someone or most wanted person in the world.
Have you talk to some of his friends. Maybe they know where’s Frank at. Sorry I cannot help you