A moment of joy,
A spark of something more,
A bolt of happiness,

But then the sudden realisation,
The pain returns,
The sorrow of what could have been,
The what could haves,
The shoulds,

That momeant of joy,
Turns to a life time of sadness.

Your trust and Friendship with me is more dear then anything that I have,
It is not your fault you are no ***** or *** but you are human,
And I don't blame you for that never will I blame you for that,
The solitude was not created be you alone there are others both near and far,
Family and friends of old and new,
I do not want to stress you, hurt you or anything like that,
All I want is to do to you what you do me,
To forget the pain and the things that burden us may that be for a momeant or a lifetime,

It's not your fault for my solitude it is my own.