I’m stuck.
caught in this loop where i’m tired of waiting but i don’t want to give up, give in
because i could never receive forgiveness
from myself

I would be filled with regret and remorse and i couldn’t handle that
that i had this relationship with a girl and i gave in.

no

I want to be able to say
let’s go out when we’re bored,
let’s get food together when we’re hungry,
let’s pack our bags and head to the beach when we’re lonely.
Eat hotdogs, smile and talk about how we’re going.
I want to know if this vision is something of the future or just my imaginative dream.

My wonderland.

I want to do this as best friends hell even boyfriend and girlfriend.
I want people to believe that we’re dating and laugh after sighing and ewing at them.

You know what i want, i've been so clear about that
i’m just so tired of waiting.
Trying to predict what you believe in
especially when you stay silent.
I can’t read minds,
i’m no wizard or witch, i don’t know what you want
i’m definitely not magic even if i scream to defy it.

I’m tired
telling you after HSC is over we go everywhere being best friends for however long we can because i know.

We may not be meant to be together but we’re meant to be around each other to the end.

the little intricacies i’ve found inside that brilliant mind of yours.
the way she talks,
the way she walks,
the way she sings loud,
the way she looks when she’s proud
breathtaking.
what to do to impress you.
That ice cream is a everyday food
and even though popcorn is the most magnificent food on earth I’ve realised that you don’t have the same opinion on it
like i do.
That you believe you aren’t the best at what you do
and trust me what i’ve seen i know that definitely is not true.

You’re talented,
you’re amazing,
you’re exactly how i would describe popcorn
buttery smooth.

I’ve changed and fixed all whatever you said were issues
i’m open,
i’m ready to scream what i have to say,
i’m just scared whatever i do
you’ll run away.

I treat you like everyone else I find important
too close and too much annoying.
I’m sorry
you found that maybe my motives were something else and gave me clarification that i had to

stop.

So please for the sake of my sanity
tell me what you want, how you see what we’re meant to be doing.
What you want from me.

I’m stuck
caught in this loop where i’m tired of waiting but i don’t want to give up, give in.

Not yet

The wheels of life go up and down up and down up and down
The wheels of life go up and down to people who love life a lot
You see you start out as a cute little Bub and all the ladies are showing you off and making you feel so comfortable in life
Then you grow into a toddler
Ready to walk a metre and you feel so good being a toddler is so much fun Just running and jumping around you see
Then you go off to kindergarten
To learn how to function in life
And make friends with heaps of kids enjoying life every day
Then you go off to primary school where you learn how this world works
Playing sport and doing ballet and learning music and the environment then after that you go to secondary school where you are moving onto being an adult doing art and cooking learning how to control your money to one day make you rich
You stay there till year 11 and then you go off to college and
Find out your calling in life
You have to study awfully hard
Yeah but it is something you want to do
Then after that is your hsc where you try and get marks to go to uni and get to the next step of achieving your goals
Yeah you are so smart
Now if you pass you are off to uni to get the job that you want to do.  It will make you happy to
Work in the job you want
But not everybody can achieve that
Because they don't go to uni because of their mental illness and they are doing a low income job,  those jobs can be good,  but not as good as uni because you don't make money like you want to, but that sounds so bad
After that you are a twenty something you have your job and you are going out partying wining and dining with friends  and having *** making babies, when you get the chance to  raise them like you were raised yourself or better and not worse and pray that dad and mum are together, doesn't always happen,  There are good times and bad times then you move on you become middle aged and you go off on a midlife crisis wanting to be young again no you want to end being middle aged because it is not what it is cracked up to be and then you end your life doing things you never did and you call it a bucket list you spend it looking after the ones you love and then you go down a religious path sending you to heaven nirvana or next path of reincarnation
The wheels of life go up and down up and down up and down
The wheels of life go up and down
Showing that there is a meaning
Just live it or you'll miss it