The teacup holds memories
of laughter, love and time
steeped in years of  friendship

fine cut and flavorful our friendship
rests lightly in my hands beyond time
now, only in glimpes and fading memories

the russian caravan, has moved  on and i am left with time
you are gone, but the not the friendship
the aroma from the teacup, ignites the flame of memories

so it is a ritual, of loving sorrow and joy
i often have cause to maintain

I caught glimpes of
Unzipped veins in
The swirls above and
Skin cells falling
Around my head and
I shed off the dead atoms
Smothering my weathered lungs and
My flesh is enslaved to
Alluring beasts with
Spirals in their irises and
They engrave a lattice on my tongue so
Crimson fluid saturates my chin but
The unzipped veins twisting the
Neurons in my brain causes
Me to taste your lips when
I sample my oozing blood and
Snakes are slithering up my thighs and
Splitting & expanding encasing me in
Gore and warmth but
I will not
Survive this time.

The essence of another dances throughout your mind
glimpes through a one way mirror
memories from another time
a sweet reminisce
a bitter truth
A life once lived
hearts intertwined in time
Love captured in a moment
escapes its confides
to play about with what could have been
gliding through your mind.

one, two steps in the wilderness
hoping to find your resemblance
three, four glimpes on the streets
hoping to find a glance attraction
five, six inches from the moonlight
hoping to find a bright future ahead of us
seven, eight "yes's" from the tip of your tongue
hoping to find my arms around you
nine, ten steps to paradise
where the world will find you & I .

Sitting alone in the silhouette of my past
Reflecting on all thats come and thats left
Many dark memories of what didnt last
Trying to forget about their theft

Still I wonder where is the angel who I always hear

Ive seen her glimpes through the years
A small child now grown and growing
How often I cried and felt her tears
How often Ive felt lonley

And still I wonder where is the angel who I always feel

The muse comes to remind me of who I need to be
Only to fight and fight the torment inside
To once again find the way to love and be free
And let the past and all thats gone be

And I ask where is the angel who I always see

She smiles at me from far away, a glimpse of bright sunny day
How Ive missed her through all the years in all the moments

Now I see my angel again, how her beauty lights my way
So I ask if my angel will stay by my side for eternity

To stay that we can share... that we can dream that we can live the life
that we always imagined... that we can be free to love, to give, to receive
My angel, I love you, forever and ever and ever...
My angel, my daughter, how beautiful you are and will always be.

She sat against the wall
Shoulders sagging
Hopelessness became her
She became it
She wanted
Needed
To be fixed
But she wasn't broken
Never broken

She loved me once
When she was well and able to handle us
She isn't anymore
I still see her sometimes
At school
In the halls
In class

Her smile full
Her laugh; paper floating to the floor
Sometimes I saw the cracks
The glimpes of pain
Of sorrow
But I know it is over
I know it is goodbye