"ghostie" poems
This time I'm not so manic
now its been a year since
we
talked
Its not like thats a bad thing
were both still alive
its not a good thing that
I keep track of days
by the divider for medication
It feels like no time at all
just blackout and wonder
what happened all those times
you scared me, so much
I couldn't hurt you like you wanted.
I remember vividly
when you were riding me
and asking what we could do
I said I could love you
and that wasn't enough
What more do you want from me?
Its yours.
I just need this settled- am I yours?
I know you are mine.
I put a spell on you before
We broke up in email
I regretted it instantly
I curse the modern hand of man
just for the separation I felt
from you , the moment we first talked
Down the hall
through text
I remember the first time your beauty
ever rendered me speechless
and the years that my broken heart
convinced my head to be alright.
Well I'm not. and
I dont know if you are alright
I just know what I want to know.
I want to know why,
failure to let go of what I know
I want to see again and again.
Maybe its all in how you disappear
But Ghostie - Here it is again
your beauty rendering me speechless
all in one picture that I thought
would be worth a million words.
Well it is, but us remains impossible.
Nov 6, 2013
Nov 6, 2013 at 12:36 AM UTC
I stared into space,
Pain in my 'heart'
We were twelve of us,
In Jupiter.
And only I felt the pain.
Painful pain.
And when ghostie looked closely,
He said something was growing on me-
Like a wild flower.
And I could feel it in my deepest insides,
But I couldn't let it
because,
that is simply impossible.
Nothing should grow,
in my heart.
Jul 22, 2020
Jul 22, 2020 at 4:36 PM UTC