do you ever feel so lost?
not lost in a way where can't find your way home
but lost in way where nothing seems to make sense
no matter how hard you try something goes amiss
wanting to talk to, see and just be close to that one person
without feeling like you are completely annoying them
they say they want to see you too but never make the effort
talking for two months and you've only hung out once
but that one hang out made all the difference
englufing you in what you ultimately tried to avoid after failed attempts
you fall into like with him
he captivates you
every message glowing on the screen making you fall harder
thats when you know
you've gotta get out while you still can.

Constant debris within my mind,
most of which I cannot seem to define.

Medusa's stare turns my heart to stone,
How long will I have to stay alone.

Emotions locked up within a volcanic core,
It rages with an englufing fire,
It waits to see what I truly desire.

My thoughts collide within the cataclysm of space,
endless blackness I see, should I
hold back, should I embrace.

This questions that bombard my conscious being,
a code that I cannot crack,
or see with my own eyes for this is truly my disguise.

How does one placate and extinguish the fire of love
The passion that has burned from embers of coals to uncontrollable englufing flames.

These flames once made a home for you
To Nestle in the warmth like a dragon in it's hearth
The flames need air and so to do I when smothered they turn to ash just as we both have

That warmth and flame has shifted every so slowly to a heat that starts to burn.
It hurts
It hurts your body constricting and tightening. Stealing breath from your lungs.
******* tears from your eyes that would make pools of salty shapes.
For those who walk by the trample through

Love you have fueled me like the food in my belly
Love you have burned me
Charring the flesh of mine from nape to navel turning the elesticity of skin into indistinguishable matter.

As the fire reaches it's timeline of life we must not try and revive it.
It has lived it life and had it's time
Nothing could replace the value of that fire of love
But fires do go out and we must be be the fire master of our own fire.
Tending to ourselves and feeding our souls fire because that is the one fire that must never be let to dwindle and extinguish